and they make fun of me. don't they know he is as "hum" as me?
seriously? what's wrong with being honest?

was in a REALLY pissed off mood juz now, on my way back home from work. will not go into details lest person who pissed me off reads my blog (which is actually impossible, bt who cares)

bt okay. now im feeling loads better. bt still pissed about it. owell. no point luh.


anyway, i saw this video on fb. about to child from parents. its nt de title bt im sumarising it up, basically from parents when they're old wad they hope we will/will not do. like be impatient wif them etc.
go my fb 2 see! it really got me teary eyed. its like omg. makes me so dunno-how-2-describe like my heart very heavy or smt when i saw. heavy as in like..dunno. heart-sour. (xin suan)

anyway, go see! im gonna go write in my diary. tho i never ever write in it. its some lousy ol' notebook. hahas. i thought i'll get the motivation 2 write but i dont ever. i hate writing in diaries.

okay byee



& 2day's got my fav kids(: korean kid and cute-girl-who-suaned-me-before(:

2day is a VERYVERYVERYVERY FUNNY DAY(:

2day i went 2 work.
& saw 2 new names on the sign-in sheet for the people working.
& i saw an ABSOLUTELY ODDLY FAMILIAR NAME.

& den i was enlightened. she's WORKING HERE?!

ok. lemme tell u why. she's a STUDENT over here!! & she's WORKING HERE AS WELL?!

ok. super duper interesting?! HAHAHAHAHA!!

i made a mental note 2 tell LY about it. HAHAHA!! cuz seriously? its too good 2 not share!!
& den she was as shocked as me. seriously. i was stunned at work 2day oso. bt not 4 long. needa mark papers leh. stunned too long later kena fired.

ok anyway! i told LY & she was being self amused. cuz i said "imagine she pack her own hw. weird"
& den LY said
"*AND MARK HER OWN WORK
*AND IMAGINE SHE NEED DO ADDITION CARDS
*THEN SHE TIME HERSELF
*HAHAHAH"

HAHA!! okay seriously? i enjoy talkin 2 LY. cuz she's so nice!!





anyway! last friday after work, i needed to tie my shoelaces of my sandals. den i went out 2 tie. den i had my laptop in my hands. needed 2 put it down. LY was waiting 4 me.

den i put down my laptop. hits de metal pull-down-thing. & den the impact was SUPER loud. LY jumped.
& i started laughing like mad. i gt shocked as well but i was really tickled by it cuz LY was like OMG!

den while laughing (my boss was inside), she suddenly say. LATER *boss's name* INSIDE OSO JUMP!!

den i kept laughing. & den i said "我要被fire了!!" HAHAHAHA!!
& den in de end we went our seperate ways anyway! HAHA but seriously i laughed my ass off!!(:




& 2day after talkin 2 LY she said hope we mark math 2gether! best partners!!
haha!! & ya. i feel i mark math best wif her. cuz we haf a tiny system in doing our marking. HAHA!!
& she tagged me on fb!!



hahas okay. its my heaven(: my workplace is my heaven. how weird. HAHA!!

home on a sunday(:

feels good(:
needs nua days like at least once a week. HAHA!!
& needs "SHORTS-AND-NOT-JEANS" days. preferably everyday of the week but..
HAHAHAHAHA!!

okay never mind(:
anyway 2day morning i was woken up by my hungry sis. from my beautiful dreamless sleep=( HAHAHAHA!!


ok dats not the point.
i 4gt 2 blog about friday and yesterday!!


friday was a joke. seriously!!
a kid wore earmuffs 2 kumon. i think cuz he going back india den there cold. den since gt new earmuffs den wanna wear it everywhere or something.
my hypothesis.
HAHA!!
den my colleague LY asked him why was he wearing dat. he said "cold." den we were like HUH SINGAPORE COLD?!
den sent him back 2 do his work. after dat he had nothing 2 do

so LY told him "go see *teacher's name*"
den she purposely speak very soft so he cant hear. cuz he wearing earmuffs so even more cannot hear. den she purposely whisper. SO BAD!! HAHAHAHAHA!!

but super funny la!! i laughed super long.

den kumon moving luh. den started talking about grp2 etc. den my boss said can see dat another colleague loves the grp2 kids dats y always put her thr. den she was like HUH?! while de rest of us were laughing our asses off
HAHAHAHA!!

i do like this community♥

hahas anyway
den sat didnt work cuz haf leanne's wedding


heehee. i think its so sweet. the way they met, etc.
SO SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!♥ & SUPER CUTE CAN?! cute couple. HAHAHA!!

OKAY.
den service den eat den home.
(note: 2 dumb: i dont like anyone now okay.)


2day my jiejie woke me up den we went 2 eat lunch.

when we were taking bus back home, some idiotic aunties infront seriously pissed me off. firstly they WAITED FOR THEIR FRIEND WHEN THE BUS REACHED. & blocked the way. den de auntie reached juz as i was gonna walk past them (they stand 2 let others go 1st but still? inconsierate)
den so me being abit nice, let the friend & de rest go 1st.

den after dat they BLOCKED THE WAY SUDDENLY. dunno 4 wad. & quite long. & obviously there're people behind rite.
so i was getting a bit pissed, especially since they dunno doing wad stupid brainless thing la. (tho i really dunno wad they doing)

& den i went "EXCUSE ME" very rudely & very loudly. i dont gif a damn already l0r.
den de auntie diao me. wadever. den complain 2 de auntie infront 2 walk faster CUZ PEOPLE BEHIND (den i dunno wad she said. was in dialect)

i literally felt like punching her sia!! 1stly, SHE was de late auntie. I let her go 1st. den u all stop de damn queue. wth?! dun think u old i gotta respect u ok. respect is earned. dumb woman. ARGHS.




anyway~
den reached home after awhile my sis convinced me thr was icecream man downstairs.
so after not seeing him at the carpark from kitchen window, we decided 2 go down ANYWAY
his icecream is too good

den we went down really no haf leh.
so decided 2 settle for second best. icecream from the shop nearby. across the bridge.
after buying it (stupid, de icecream no spoon or something, how 2 i eat. anyway it was horrible)
den we HEARD DE ICECREAM MAN. AGAIN!
& turns 0ut he juz reached our house downstairs. SOBS!!

threw away my horrible icecream (my sis still ate hers, she say nt worth throwing away a perfectly gd icecream. mine was horrible so it was okay)

den i went 2 buy cuz she didnt wanna look like a traitor, eating another icecream infront of the icecream man. HAHAHAHA!!

den in de end i bought de bread-scoop 1 while my sis decided on bread-scoop AND cup-scoop. seriously. she's an icecream freak. FROM WHEN WE WERE TINY LITTLE KIDS SHE WAS!!

ok anyway, she gave the bread-scoop 1 2 my dad. but she still ate 2 icecreams 2day. omg.



HAHA okay. im gonna go play game. fyp advisor didnt reply my email. quite -.-
its not very late oso wad. & i submitted the FULL REPORT. not even snippets of my report. bt no. bet he's nt gonna go thru wif me. wth rite. den i rush thru it 4 nothing. dammit.



OH! & i bought cotton on shorts 2day! & bracelets. HAHA!! okay. i think im nuts. ok muz curb my spending=(

OMG SOUNDS LIKE ME!!

hahahas. i often go this site. & alot of others. its like a daily routine.

anyway, after submitting my fyp report (much earlier than last fyp where i rushed through it till i cried from the daily headaches), i feel so free but abit bored.

anyway!

i bought new sandals

*MUAHAHAHAHA*

tho my dream sandals are no longer thr=(((((((( but den at least i gt similar looking 1 larh.
but still!! MY DREAM SANDALS ARE NO LONGER THERE!!

i got so sad 4 awhile. but no point. my sis dragged me 2 EVERY SHOE SHOP at fareast lvl 1. & finally i bought de 1st shoe she pointed out 2 me anyway.

HAHAHA seriously. as long as she says its nice its like in 1 of my choices already. DATS HOW MUCH I TRUST MY SISTER'S TASTE!!

or her taste of my taste. wadever. HAHAHAHA!!

okay anyway!

im gonna wear it 2 sch 2morrow EVEN THO IT SHOWS MY TOES. wadever larh. anyway its like not slippers l0r. i dont think they haf a rite 2 send me home unless i haf LAB and i wear dat. then i'll understand and willingly be marked absent or smt.

life's short. break the rules.

some1's playing "just the way you are" on the piano in the school library(:

love!
HAHAHAHA!! but ok. the person, whoever he/she is, played it yesterday too. HAHAHAHA!!

ok random. back 2 report! & studying 4 ut. omg.=( ok bye! gt work 2day
& gt korean kid & my fav girl too! loves!!(:

okay! time 2 blog about my sat-cum-sunday wif my clique(:
some of them at least(:

hahas so anyway i reached after i dinnered wif de grp. i oni ate shihlin chicken.
den met dat pig zg at dhoby. cuz i thought i'll be like de earlier few? & i didnt wanna meet like jasper & cherilyn early. cuz later awkward silence arh.

so i told him meet at dhoby.
so we met at dhoby. in de end SP & another girl (i 4gt her name=X) reached earlier. den very super duper soon deanna reached.
so yups

den off 2 de pub side. found cherilyn & jasper thr.
den dedrick came after

den drinkdrink. den we went out 2 buy icecream (me deanna zg)
den go play at some gate. den after dat sat at river thr eat icecream & juz talktalk awhile

den back 2 de pub. den after dat SP initially supposed 2 ton wif us. in de end dedrick ton wif us (me deanna zg)

SP sent de girl back=D

den we bought cupnoodles at downstairs of zg's house
den zg asked me"dont u think after dedrick drink he seems more aggressive? more vulgarities etc"
me *thinks while* EH TRUE SIA!

den i laughed & told him
den he like "WHERE GT LA. IM ALWAYS VULGAR WAD!"
HAHA!!

den we playplay awhile went up 2 zg house alr. deanna lent me her clothes!(:

den changed & started watchin youtube videos. & im currently mad on bruno mars' "Just the way you are"
ESPECIALLY THE LIVE ONE!!

deanna showed me. he said "So, if you're here with that special someone tonight, grab her REAL CLOSE. This was dedicated 2 u all.
& ladies if you DONT have that special someone tonight,*snaps vest and runs his hands through his hair* I'LL BE YOUR SPECIAL SOMEONE"

OMG. heart melts. seriously. omggggg. he's like so super sweet? & his song is so wosome!! omggggg. *faints*
& his eyes are so mesmerizing!! omg. HAHA!!

i keep playing it on youtube now. HAHA!! i really like!!

(the lyrics which i love
Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah)


anyway~
den deanna went 2 sleep cuz she had ubin de next day.
so left me zg dedrick.

den zg & dedrick like abitabit gone alr, den i keep hitting them wif pillow so they'll entertain me.

zg's pet phrase once i hit him? "我没有睡啦!!"
dedrick's pet phrase once i hit him? "IM AWAKE IM AWAKE!!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
den we played monopoly deal once. den got bored.

den zg fell asleep soon. dedrick tried 2 keep awake. HAHA but he fell asleep abt 530.

den i wanted 2 ton all de way.
so i tahan till 615 (supposed 2 b every1 wake at 6. i tried waking zg. he mumble something den turned away-.-)

so i cannot tahan. i sleep oso.
den 630 wake up. try 2 wake zg again (i figured he was de best 2 wake. dedrick confirm scold vulgarities. deanna tired ma. let her slp more)

den he still never-.-

den i slp again.
at every 15min interval i'll try 2 wake them. no use de l0r?!

finally at about 8 they woke? so i slept abt 1 and a half hour=(

but i was having headache. & sore eyes. i bet its zg's house. his own eyes oso itched. & dedrick de oso if im nt wrong.

anyway. den we brekkied at zg house downstairs thr. den deanna rushed off 2 fyp. poor thing sia. sunday oso needa do.

den we went dedrick busstop (which was JUST downstairs zg's house. dat lucky guy)
mine was a distance away. i wanted 2 lead the way. but i thought better not. since im like not very sure.

den finally reached de busstop. & MY BUS REACHED VERY SOON!!
nice(:

slept on de bus. i had bad sorethroat oso. suck de lozenges dat dumb gave me. SEE DUMB. I GT EAT UR LOZENGES HOR!! HAHA!!

den reached yishun i really like zombie cannot take it.
once i reach home i shit. den slp alr. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

den wake up, headache & fever. wthh

slept till like 9. so erm
i slept at like 11? till 9. HAHA!! 10 hours?
den wake up 2 eat dinner etc.

den still fever. mom force me eat meds. & den i almost cried cuz i was really feeling horrible.

den slept. & finally 2day im okay once i woke. omg. i feel wosome!(:




oso, some "fair godmother" tagged me on my blog. i was like shocked. who on earth IS dat?! i still dont noe, 2 tell u de truth.

but anyway, he/she said this, with regard 2 my despo post. "You're a very sweet girl, just need to wait a little for your prince. :)"

thanks whoever u are(: dats really super sweet okay?(:
& can u like tell me who u are? im kaypoh. HAHAHAHAHA!!

SECRET ADMIRER!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! ok, im definitely kidding. bt i noe whoever dat is probably noes me. so = noes dat im thickskin. so = i CAN thickskin in my blog. HAHAHAHAHA!!



okay. muz hand up report by 2morrow. wth rite. totally agreed. ponned wif glenn 2 do. he's super alot more productive den me. wth rite. im dead larh.

okay. BYE!
& yes, I WAN DAT SPECIAL SOMEONE.

& 2 my sister arh, im over him already larhhh(:



& den 2day on msn:
SP:i am bored. you know bored? yes that. wonder why it's called bored. must be some BALD person who invented it.

then he went on: i feel like eating. do you feel like eating?

then: why are you called melissa, why not smelissa? i would like that name better.



& in class:
ishir: class, are u all confused?
class *silence*
ishir: ... gerald are you confused?
gerald: huh? ya. but im always confused. so its okay.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!! gerald is a joke=D

recently been abit crazy over hsm songs. i dunno why oso.

but 1 thing's for sure.
im totally in the "lonely and wants a bf" mood.

oh man. & i thought i was like OVER IT~
once in awhile i'll get this feeling

haix but what's the POINTTTT.

hahas. despos club outing next wednesday♥
heehee!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
longs 2 be one half of a couple. oh well~

!! MAYBE IM ACTUALLY DESTINED TO BE SINGLE!! OMG!! i'll seriously cry myself 2 bed everynite.



HAHA but i guess sometimes i'll really wonder: why no1 like me ah?

i noe i noe, its like a damn weird thing 2 wonder. but i bet every1 has wondered dat at least once? either dat or they're so desirable they dont needa wonder. they haf people queueing up u'kno.

whenever i think of the whole "why no1 like me ah?" kinda thing, it erodes my self confidence and i get so down=(




ok on a cheerier sidenote, wednesday i actually went sch 2 do report wif my darlings(:

actually was ubin cycling. den school jogging. jog = oni me & zg = weird = cancelled
thus in de end was report.
den i went 2 find them at causeway foodcourt. i shocked sia. zg tell me oni gt him & sz. i reached gt siewping sz zg dedrick
like eh?

hahahahas. but anyway. den we went school. den did abit if report. den internet down cuz gt ut!
so i watched legend of the fist. now really dat awesome seriously. even the fighting i didnt really enjoy. the whole "trying 2 act like bruce lee" kinda thing sorta turns me off?

den deanna reached! wif nasi lemak from changi. cuz she came from ubin. she had 2 go thr 4 fyp. so zg "ordered" nasi lemak. HAHA!! den they went outside library 2 eat

after aehile she went off tho. busy woman=D she went 2 meet her frenz

anyway.
pvzed awhile. den slacked alot. den did ABIT of report

den dinnered wif my darlings!
sz went home tho

my carrot cake♥

HAHA!!
den bus-ed home wif de 2 little idiots again. HAHAHAHA!! ok i seriously missed it!
but didnt talk much. HAHAHAHA

funny hor. finally get 2 crap wif them den didnt talk much. i seriously didnt noe wad 2 say. HAHA but still, felt comfortable wif them.


ok den home sweet home









ok & im still having my despo mood.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

desperado~

chatting wif 1 of my very fav colleague. LY.
de 1 who fanned me wif a ws after i had a coughing fit. de 1 who always asking me 2 drink de sea coconut? 4 my cough

basically, the one who's always marking math wif me.
de 1 who reminds me of dine.

HAHA!! ok i sound abit sick. like as if i like her or something

but anyway im talking 2 her on fb & i put *faints*
den dunno y fb chat *faints* become bolded
den i was like EH! IT BECAME BOLD-ED!

den she oso amused. she oso ask like how i made it bold

HAHA. ok seriously, i love her. as a friend and colleague ok.
im not a lesbian. i think im really sensitive over this. alot of people used 2 think i was like les?
hel-lo
juz cuz i dont have bf dun mean im les ok. it doesnt work DAT way.


anyway dats not the point. the point is i really treasure and appreciate her(:


of cuz i love de rest of my colleagues as well!!
cuz i haf awesome colleagues

awesome kids at work

no complaints abt work! loove it(:

all pictures credits 2 google images.

i would love to:

catch a beautiful rainbow.
rainbows really are like. omg. such a beautiful yet rare sight. treasured.


catch a sunset with beloved people(:
i think its so romantic(:


stargaze and wish upon shooting stars/ the first star i see.
in some countryish place where the night sky is filled with stars (and not with airplanes where we pretend that are stars=p tho i do like the song)


play in the rain again, like when i was young(:
splash around in puddles, get totally drenched and play catching

♥

2day, a few of my favouritest kids came!! lovelove!


the korean kid superly cute la.
ask him do number board he guaiguai do finish. den keep everything. WITHOUT RECORDING HIS TIME. HAHAHAHAHA!!
den i stunned. ask him: u never record?
den he juz stare at me. omg so cutee

after dat he was sitting at his table. he had nothing 2 do. ask him go see teacher already he didnt.
he went 2 poke his eraser wif his pencil & help his eraser squeal. OMG SUPER CUTE!! couldn't help but laugh. HAHAHAHA!!

then he went 2 squash his face on the table & started singing if im not wrong. OMG so cute!! den i went 2 his table & told him "u can go see teacher already leh. why u dont wanna go ah?"

den he grin at me & went off. omg. *heart melts*
HAHAHAHA!!

den another of my favouritest kid, girl.
she normally really quiet 1. i smile at her she wont smile at me 1. cuz she's shy.
den 2day i smile at her she gt smile back at me!!
den i veh happy alr


den after dat she had 1 set of corrections.
den i passed it 2 her den she was like "HUH. corrections AGAIN?"
HAHA, tho it was her 1st and oni corrections 2day.
den she ran off 2 do & came back. den ask her do some additions infront of me
den she did. normally she answers very softly. 2day louder. me lioke!

den after dat ask her go sweep table. den i was telling eileen she's 1 of my fav. den i told eileen "the one in pink"
den eileen was like "dat 1 pink meh?"

so when she came over 2 throw thing i ask her "*name*, is ur shirt pink?"
den she say no!!! =(
den she say my eye gt problem. HAHAHAHA!!
in a joking way of cuz!
SHE SUANED ME!! HAHA!!

but i was super happy. she's normally so quiet! she so high i veh happy. ON CLOUD NINE!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!



& den dat yq veh bad. sad de korean kid de face like biscuit. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! bt he is OH-SO-CUTE!! HAHA!!

DESPOS CLUB!♥♥

HAHAHAHAHA!! de 3 of us wans bfs. any takers?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

aw i ♥ them(:

ok im feeling real bored. supposed 2 b doing rj but yea. im getting distracted as always


anyway~
i really dunno wad im gonna blog abt. seriously. juz haf a craving 2 shout 2 de whole world dat i feel like having a bf. bt cant on fb u'kno. later people stumbled & all.

but seriously. i really haf de craving.
HAHA!! as i was randomly telling eileen dat day, i wanna walk in de rain (under an umbrella) wif my future bf. muahaha. ok. so random hor. walking in the rain (without an umbrella) sounds more romantic. but later fall sick ah. HAHA!! ok. this totally takes all romance outta dat?
HAHAHAHAHA!!

anyway. & i was oso saying. i wan my future bf 2 surprise me by fetching me from work once in awhile. HAHA!!
bt once in awhile oni. everyday later de novelty wear off or smt. HAHA!! SURPRISE is de keyword. HAHAHAHA!!

ok. i dunno why im thinkin so much. its nt like im gonna get attached or anything. but a small part of me really longs 2 be part of a couple. not juz single.
tho of cuz being single is like really omg-ishly WOSOME! HAHA!! i like 2 say wosome. instead of awesome. HAHA!!

but i juz feel like. dunno. having some1 2 rant everything and anything 2. 2 hit when im down (ops=X poor future bf?) 2 msg when im real bored.
HAHA!! 2 poison wif my cooking? HAHAHAHA!! ok. random
anyway in essence, i really wish 4 a bf rite now. HAHA!!


when you are single all u see is happy couples and when you are in a relationship all you see is happy singles.

this week is like BDAE WEEK!!
seriously lotsa people having bdaes!! like i haf..
5 people i noe whose bdae is in this week?

shreedhee-3rd nov
dedrick-4th nov
zg-5th nov
cheryl&jolene-6th nov

SERIOUSLY?! broke week. HAHA!!

but anyway~ this blogpost is specially 4 the 2 crazy guys in my clique.
whose bdae is like 1 after another. who both suan each other for being animals (1 pig 1 goat. cuz of surnames.)
hahas
& 2 guys whom i really love wif all my heart
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
ok. but i mean as frenz ok. seriously. gotta make sure dat point gets across


OK ANYWAY!
here's de pic of those 2 idiots. little idiots. HAHA!!

THEY LOOK SO HAPPY!! HAHA!!

i remember when i wasn't workin at kumon, when we go jogging, after jogging we would all take 969 from woodlands inter 2gether!!
& seriously, i loved those times! when i FINALLY wont get the whole "dedrick and melissa" thing jammed down my throat again & where de 3 of us really get 2 talk.
tho zg sometimes starts. & den we'll juz stare at him & gif him de -.- face. & den ignore him awhile. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
but ok la, i noe my clique loves me! tho they kajiao me wif dedrick & i used 2 get so pekchek over it.

& on de busrides we'll talk about really random stuffs, about not very deep but i guess still abit deep stuffs, joking and laughing throughout the busride

& sometimes i'll get so sad when yishun comes
HAHAHAHAHA!! but ok. needa get home ok. late alr.

ya. sometimes they nuts 1. so late alr still take 969. its longer leh.
i assume its cuz they enjoy de busride as much as i do! HAHA!!

i remember once when i didnt noe they were gonna take 969. & den i walked alone 2 de lining up place. & when i walk in & turned, they were behind me! (ok zg climbed over de railings & de in infront of me, dat idiot-.-)
but ok dat time i felt so loved(:
(& of cuz really shocked)


ok anyway!
bdae celebration part. i shall stop doing the "xiang dang nian" thing cuz i'll never take 969 back wif them ever again. not as long as im working in kumon. which is sorta sad.
i miss hanging out wif my clique. miss it like crap. i miss nt interacting wif them. not crapping wif them. not having lame inside jokes wif them. =(

OK ANYWAY!
so on 4th nov, which is dedrick's bdae, we plan 2 go out in de evening cuz fri no sch!(:

& deanna & dedrick bought me yougurt & went up 2 my class!! & cuz naoto in my class, deanna told him its dedrick's bdae. & he misunderstood & thought its brendan's.i dunno how oso. but anyway.
HAHAHAHA

went home, bathed & went out 2 meet them


& i thought i was gonna be late. in de end im like de FIRST.
den siewping & sz stuck in traffic jam at highway. cuz they bus 2 somerset.
den zg reaching. so waited 4 him at control station.

den after he FINALLY reached, i suan him saying he late. den he told me he walked on de memorable stairs. HAHAHAHAHA!! yeps, de super memorable stairs, whr we hobbled up. HAHA!! whenever i see the stairs i think of de run. haha!!(:

den he told me dedrick mia. so we went off 2 orchard central. halfway kerenia called. met her at forever 21 thr.
den went off 2 orchard central. den jasper, sz, siewping reached. & bernard & his frenz

& we went everything with fries!
den dedrick reached.

den bought food & ate etc.

den off 2 clarke quay 2 find deanna! she met us thr cuz she buy cake etc.
she went 2 rush 2 get cardcoards 2 do de guy's signs and everything!!
den force them wear de signs in the pic. de bdae boy thing.
hahas
& she did de book thing 4 them. its really lovely!!(:

the 2 bdae boys veh sweet tho! when they went 2 change into de shirts we bought them, they oso went 2 sticky & bought 2 jars of sweets. when they returned & put on de table we were like REALLY shocked! HAHAHAH!!

den we tooks lotsa pics!
& off 2 a pub 2 cut cake. i dunno de name, but it felt cosy thr(:

but after cutting siewping sz & i went off.

i sorta regret it now tho. i wished i'd stayed. cuz now im missing them like crap.

but i scared my mum worry la. tho she lets me stay out late, but most of de time she wont sleep well till im home.

& i walked into my blocks alone! cuz siewping's daddy didnt turn in cuz he didnt noe, so i decided 2 walk in. & it was scary! but ya, thank God there were lotsa cars coming in & outta de carpark. dunno y oso.
bt it was scary cuz it was 2 schools i had 2 walk pass

yups but i made it!!
& yes my mom wasn't asleep yet-.-

HAHAHA!!


anyway~
happy bdae dedrick & zg!
thanks 4 being such awesome frenz. ur craps always make me laugh!
please go jogging wif me more! cuz i miss jogging!! HAHA!!

& happy 19th 2 zg & happy 20th 2 dedrick!!







i miss my cliqueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ seriously alot. i dunno y. these few days oni. been missing them in a random way. like i'll be walkin somewhr & sudenly miss them.
i'll be doing something & suddenly miss them

i've never missed them liddat before u'kno
sorta scares me. cuz i miss them so much it hurtss

& its a miss in such a way dat i feel im nt gonna see them again kinda thing. like de "graduate & never keep in contact" kinda thing.
so ya. im really quite scared







ok ending in a weird random way: i totally feel like having a bf. HAHA!! random?


ok bye(:

i love:

-DEANNA AND DEDRICK!!
for buying me yougurt in 1st break! seriously, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

-CANDACE AND MELISSA!!
for bringing me herbal drink and herbal candy. THANK YOUUU!!

-LIANJIE AND RUTH!!
my beloved dumbs lehz(: THANKS FOR THE HONEY LEMON!! & i miss u both like crap ok!



2day, i really felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO loved(:
thanks all!
i really felt like crying when candace popped over tho. cuz it was really so unexpected & all. & really sweet maximum!!

im such a blessed girl(:

lovely frenz, lovely clique, lovely job, lovely colleagues

omg. (:

hahas(: dats of cuz when i focus on the rite things(:
those who noe will understand
(:




but yes, the FACT is dat i haf awesome frenz(:

2day at work,
a japanese kid sat beside a korean kid

& they're both SOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!! both haf babie fats & they look blur most of the time.
omggg!! SUPERLY CUTEE!!

& de japanese kid was kajiaoing the korean kid while the korean kid was trying 2 do his work.
& after dat they were talking.

its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WONDERFUL 2 SEE THEM!! seriously, they're so cute!!
they're both very soft spoken kids, & i love them(:

all these time, for a longlonglong time, i've always been the one crying out, ranting and all sorts. u've always been my listening ear

but u noe wad? my ears are OPEN.
wont u let me noe wad's going on in ur life?
ur struggles? ur problems?

i cant help but feel dat it's so 1-sided..
i throw everything out 2 u & u try 2 help me. but i cant help but feel useless and helpless when i noe nothing about wad's going on in your life, and when i cant help.

friday i was sorta down=(

ok i wasnt SORTA down. i was VERY VERY SUPER DUPERLY down

but dats ok cuz after a good cry, a warm shower, nice comfy bed, and a good nite's sleep, things looked sooooooooooooo much better in the morning(:
EVEN THOUGH i had 2 wake up early on a saturday 2 go work.


anyway~
jinghao msned me on friday nite saying he readmy blog AND he went 2 emphasize dat i felt loved cuz dedrick smiled at me (SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE MADE ME FEEL LOVED HE GO ZOOM IN ON DEDRICK-.-)

& den so now, im gonna blog abt wad jinghao did dat touched me, OKAY?

HAHA!!
this is so super random?

cuz i went offline & 4got 2 say bye 2 him & my another fren
so i smsed them saying sorrie etc, dat i 4gt 2 say bye

(keep in mind i was feeling like crap already, wif my sickness & emotionally really down)
& den jinghao replied something along the lines of "its ok" and wif a smiley face and then a "take care"

HAHA!! JINGHAOOO!!! DO U NOE HOW MUCH DAT MSG BRIGHTENED MY NITE?! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
& u had better see this post. HAHAHAHA!!

ok but seriously? i really appreciated it. cuz he didnt at all noe dat i was down. bt his reply really cheered me up(: his simple msg telling me its ok & 2 take care really touched me!(:

thank you iceman!!(: seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? u cheered me up leh? honoured anot? ur name ONLY LEH! no1 else's! HAHAHAHA!!




his reply really cheered me up especially since my fren replied me something else which made me really feel like crying even more. but its ok, im gonna stay strong, and i'll not contact my fren unless he contacts me(:
and no, i was thinking of him recently but after dat sms, i think i'll leave it as such. tho he's always been a source of encouragement 4 me when im feeling the down-est. its quite ironic isnt it?
dat he's always there JUST when i needed some1 2 talk 2. when im real down suddenly he juz pops up. & when im okay again he drifts away.
im really thankful 4 all de times he listened & gave me advice & such.

but ya. this time it really hurts, so. ya. i wont be contacting you in awhile(:
u wouldn't even tell me anything abt ur new relationship status when i poured my heart out 2 u abt who i liked.
hahas. guess this frenship is 1 sided. whereby u juz wanna noe "gossips" abt me & den when i ask u u tell me "not telling!"
i dont noe whether its 4 fun or not. but im taking it at face value. dat u're not telling. since u caps ur words anyway?
& no, i dont think i always sign 0ut wifout telling u. & u said "always"
i dont think so. even if it happened most of the time, it does not fit "ALWAYS"

& u'kno wad? caps-ing ur words might give the wrong impression. u might not have meant it in a rude way, but dat's the feeling i get when i read ur text, okay?

& the reason why i dare 2 say so much is cuz he doesn't read my blog.
if he does, i think de frenship's gone. cuz it would be obvious 2 him.

anyway, its not dat i dont treasure the frenship, cuz i do.
its juz dat he happened 2 kick me when im already down, albeit unknowingly.
but still, the tone didn't sound jokingly

oh well. who noes?




at the end of the day,
thanks jinghao! felt so loved!

& thanks 2 my colleagues(: i love them & im really thankful 2 work wif them!
they're mostly younger den me, but they tell me not 2 eat fast foods etc. 2 drink more water, 2 try de sea coconut thing etc.
& yes, i really love them(: