week4 juz started!
:(:
can be both a smile and a frown

anyway~

ushers camp is coming!!
excited!!(: my eyeballs wanna pop 0ut already,so excited(:


been a l0ng time since i slacked wif silly bestie
cuz 2day was walking 2 canteen & saw sec scho0l kids racing each other,see who get 2 their fren infr0nt 1st

aww(:
i really miss racing ar0und rp wif pam sia
& lunchin wif her
but 0ur timing always clash leh
oni get 2 g0 sch wif her on thurs&fri oso
=((((

anyway,env sci was quite b0ring seh=(

my new nickname!
emo small brained baboon juvenile

=((( hahahahas
long story(:

i super miss my didis!!

i am SO EXCITED FOR USHERS CAMP!!
omg this camp's excitement will fuel my dis week, & next week,after camp!!
its dis sat-sun
super duper excited!! i love camps!! plus wif my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ministry pe0ple!! silly people wh0 are really crappy!!(:
yea man~~ im so lo0kin 4ward 2 it!! plus gt usher tee!! all de more im excited!! omgomgomg!!(:

yesterday during service sat beside binghong,cuz ushering

pastor jasmine was asking:do you haf pe0ple who irritate u? frustrate u? impact u?
den binghong say irritate & frustrate him is ME!! sobs=( hahahas(:

den pastor jasmine talk abt random
ruth & i turn back 2 laugh at cedric=D
cuz we dubbed him mister random(:

& den ruth smsed me
juz as pastor jasmine had juz finished talking abt distractions
binghong say i easily distracted & suan-ed me
suan-ed him back cuz HE was distracted by me smsing
yea! i g0t de last laugh heehee(:

fun talking 2 him luhh..2nd time sitting beside him,b0th times oso ushering,both times oso kena suan-ed & suan-ed him
HAHA(:

my row was ns gr0up dat side
den g0t whole polyDINS pic
EVERY1
the photographers took pic from de stage,2 de whole auditorium
means they nt in
sad sia

anyway
i was at de ns side
den augustine & donald from de front rows came 2 ard de middle where i was, 2 take pic..i think cuz they were sitting at the sp gr0up side or something

saw me & they were like "eh? how come u're here?"
=(
den stand on de chair 2 take pic
whee!!

yesterday helped 0ut,carrying stuff fr0m w4 there to w1 student forum there..brendan la! say g0t ce points..g0 there w0rk so hard=(
kena called by him pea sized brain somemore,& monkey

hahahaha

brendan managed 2 pull me jasper jiawin & ks
didnt succeed in pulling songzhi
HAHAHAHA(: he try 2 persuade him dat time so gay~ hahahaha(:

pulled ruth 2 g0 wif me hahahas so she oso carried stuff ar0und heehee(: after dat played trolley & toys,instead of putting de toys nicely heehee(:
den dinnered wif ruth & went back

tired dao~~

& 2day morning had 2 wake up at 630 cuz was helpin 0ut at the hope bursary thingie
had 2 reach by 745

helped out 4 de registration!! funfunfun!!(:

but its really very tiring

now im at home resting,g0ing 0ut abt 3++

ushering 2day

long tiring two days!!

i seri0usly miss my last sem classies!!=(

dunn0 luh,but i do prefer changing classes everyday(: seems 2 be easier 4 me after i g0t used 2 it(:

& i superly miss my didis!!=(
shall bug them soon(:
didis i miss u all!!
hahas none of my didis read my blog 1 luh!=D

yes i n0e dis is random
this pic was taken donkey years ag0
[actually last year,when we were year 1,sem 1 i think]

but anyway~
among all de hairstyles i've had
this is my fav(:
its concave(:

&&& i like this hairstyle de most

random!!(:

haix scho0l's getting t0ugher 4 me,simply becuz i haf too high expectations of MYSELF
cuz i expect myself 2 get it at the snap of the fingers
i expect myself 2 understand quickly

but the fact is dat i CANT
the fact is dat im not a sponge
the fact is dat every1 makes mistakes once in awhile
the fact is dat im a very careless girl

i did get the theory c0rrect
juz dat i g0t mixed up when doing the table
& dat sucks
becuz i g0t the idea, but den i mucked it up

shucks=(

getting down-er
cuz i take things quite personally,so i take the failures quite personally de

its so easy 2 tell 0thers "its n0t ur fault, dun take it personally"
but its so hard 2 tell dat 2 urself
its so hard 2 believe it urself
its so hard 2 tell urself dat "hey its a team effort"
especially when you n0e ur team is c0unting on u cuz u haf the bio background
its s0 hard especially when u're so c0nfident its c0rrect
& den find 0ut its wrong

so so hard

yups

(:


hates-
brendan
dedrick
jiawin
ks



i wanna watch my sisters keeper!=D

mcb was horrendous
i love it yet i hate it
the problem is easy but the task is hard
contradictory?
ironic?
actually not really

oh well

succesfully survived 2nd week of scho0l alth0 during the week i really g0t veryveryvery tired
as i t0ld dumbdumb,ever since scho0l started i've been the scribe 4 ws & ppt alm0st everyday,& its really taken a toll on me

its really draining
but de again,i quite enj0y being a scribe cuz i get 2 understand & noe exactly wad the content page is,etc etc
but i dun deny dat its draining

my classies are nice,i dun deny dat
in fact i str0ngly believe dat alm0st every1 in rp is nice
*note:ALMOST every1
not every1 is

anyway
i guess sometimes i juz feel,i d0nt belong
i dont belong 2 this class

& i haf a really nice classie,& when i see her patience & everything,i feel so..
inferior
i feel like..hey,there are so many nice pe0ple 0ut there
who says i haf the chance 2 be a fren 2 people
etc

i dunn0

& seeing her rite
really makes me think
who are we 2 judge?
so wad if some1 is different from us? she treats him the same
even when 0thers see him & laugh at him behind his back, make fun of him, provoke him, she treats him as a fren, no difference at all
oh my gosh

i cant do dat
i cant do dat wifout feeling weird, wifout feeling dat pe0ple are gossiping ab0ut me, wif0ut feeling dat people think I am as weird as him
but the truth is she is so accepting
she accepts every1 as they are
& why cant i? why am i so judgemental? egoistic? attitude problem?
who says he IS weird? he might be,he might not be,but he's human all the same,& he's still God's child
wh0 am i 2 judge others?

& she's pretty & hardworking
its like s0 w0ah
as i was saying dat time
it makes me feel even uglier den i normally think i am
even dumber & even lazier den i normally think i am
even more nasty den i already think i am

& i think
she's sorta like my role m0del ba
i wanna be m0re like her(:


im really missing my classmates
my beloved classes last sem
the thing ab0ut an everyday-same-class class?
[in my case, 4 day same class 1 day diff]
when there are cliques, & u're n0t in it, u feel so..
..inferior
..small

yea
n0t yet,but i predict
soon,soon

i prefer everyday change classes

but i like my class too
juz dat im really n0t close
& n0t so comfy wif them yet
even if i AM noisy in class & everything
im juz trying 2 hide my discomfort

everything i d0, i wonder:
how would my classmates think of me?


&
sometimes i can talk so well on msn wif pe0ple etc
but face2face
its silence
& sometimes i can even confide in them
tell them my deepest darkest secrets
& yet
i cant talk with them normally,normal conversation
is there something wrong wif me?
interpersonal skills not developed?
communication problem?
i dunno

but i really wonder
why i can tell my close frenz ab0ut my secrets etc
yet sometimes i juz cant find anything 2 talk ab0ut in a normal conversation

why?

mcb 2day
i like mcb,cuz i n0e quite abit,thanks 4 rdna previously where teammates & classmates really n0e al0t & share al0t,so can abit say im abit ahead of some of the pe0ple in class
some oni la,g0t others who to0k rdna & probs smarter den me=(

anyway
after scho0l was meeting big dumbdumb [lianjie] & medium dumbdumb [ruth]
anyway~
went 2 buy sis' lapt0p case cuz ruth gt fyp meeting etc so went wif dumbdumb
after dat went 2 eat
appeared dat andrew was in sch
so he came over 2 find us
talk talk wait 4 ruth etc
den ruth come we went 2 causeway library & den longj0hns-ed

when walking 2 causeway lianjie bully me
den i sh0ut very l0udly
"ANDREW U SEE LIANJIE BULLY ME!!"
HAHAHAHA always use leader's authority 2 shoot back lianjie
=D

den eating at longjohns
den lianjie super funny
his fren called him
den he say "i meet u at de perform"
den ruth was like huh?
den he say quite long
den after dat finally realised it was platform
HAHAHAHA den we keep kajiaoing him
damn funny!!=D


lalala was singing in the bathro0m
whee~~
i l0ve singing in the bathro0m etc
crying in the bathro0m
spacing out in de bathro0m
anything

heehee(:

had a great time singing in de bathro0m(:

learning about science really opens up mind eyes
its like im dumb & blind & everything & learning ab0ut it helps open my eyes(:

yesterday we learnt about environmental science
alth0 i dun really like environmental science,but it really like hit me
yesterday faci sh0wed us a video about deforestation
& den u see thousands of stumps
nothing but stumps
the whole bare land wif stumps

in a sense it really hurt me,i dunn0 y
it juz seems so sad & everything

& den it oso opens up my eyes 2 de deforestation happening ar0und us..its really very sad,juz the scene of the stumps,like never ending stumps
=(

& another 1 is 2day
whereby faci was saying dat DNA replication
there are usually little/very small/no mistakes during replication
wow
im so blur & everything
but my body n0es(:

really opened my eyes oso..how dat my DNA & stuff are so awes0me & all dat(:
so detailed(:

watched 500days of summer wif medium dumbdumb,ruthie!!(:
heehee
n0t as go0d as i expected actually=(

oh well(:
ate shihlin crispy chicken & couldnt eat much dinner
ruth satisfied her mee sua craving

never ate their mee sua b4
quite tempted 2 try but i always buy crispy chicken cuz i noe its niice(:

but c0z al0tta pe0ple oso eat de mee sua den i very curi0us uhh~
hahahas nvm ba(:

next up:
i wanna read my sister's keeper & i wanna watch de m0vie!! its in cinemas 22oct!!(:
shall jio pe0ple 2 watch wif me!!
& i really wanna read it to0!!


blessing of de day!!
ruth!!
hahas i didn't haf lunch buddy cuz pam n0 sch on monday
so i was tellin ruth i v hungry
its true cuz my st0mach growled in class during 2nd meeting, & raja, sitting opposite me,actually heard & asked me "was dat ur st0mach?"
so paiseh!!
hahas but ruth invited me 2 eat wif her & her fren(: whee!!
subway-ed
hahas her fren dun gimme th0se kinda very awkward feeling
niiceniice^^

ess this week!! jiayous mel!!
heehee(:

movies/upcoming moves dat i wanna watch(:

-500days of summer
-paperheart [dunno wad its abt but wanna watch it anyway(:]
-the time traveller's wife
-cloudy wif a chance of meatballs
-my sister's keeper [out 22oct,i wanna watch!!]

& im b0red
so tempted 2 msn pe0ple

environmental science & chemistry are the modules i dun like so much dis sem
mcb & genetics are fun cuz i like these kind
psychology is fun cuz its nice & its andy sim,so im abit more noisy den normal(:

i survived 1st week of scho0l!!
i survived phot0taking after scho0l on friday!!
i had great fun on friday!! happy on friday!! superly!!
i had great time on saturday b4 ushering wif rp gals celebrating dear yuqian's bdae!!
i had great time ushering!! assigned 2 rp gr0up ma!!
i had a great service!!
i had a great dinner!! [my longjohn's craving]
i had great talking time during dinner!! [wif ruth emily yenc joseph]
i had a great sleep!!
i had a great sunday wif my sis!!
i bought my long wanted bagpack!!
i ate yami yougurt!!

whee!! all my happies!!
week1 is 0ver
week 2,来吧！

(:

MY FUTURE'S IN YOUR HANDS

My Jesus, I've found in You
You're my Saviour
You've chose me before the world
And You called my name

I will walk with You through the valley
I will soar above every mountain
I will trust Your word deep within my heart
I will live for You

I know my future's in Your hands
All of my hopes and dreams and plans
You gave me strength to live
And faith to succeed
I believe in You
Because You believe in me

谢谢GOD
(:

2morr0w's chemistry
sucks

anyway
i think my class will either love me or hate me
serious!
if they like noisy pe0ple [which would be quite rare actually,sometimes it gets irritating especially when im in class,but i AM a noisy,irritating girl]
then they would probably love me or something

HOWEVER
if they hate noisy people [cuz its disturbing somemore we need 2 d0 research, not PLAY,unlike me]
they will hate me too

i think the hate should be more than love ba?
heehee(: better not be to0 noisy in class,i'll haf enemies

read on fb:
You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life. - Winston Churchhill

anyway,my psychology faci is andy sim
hahas
HAPPY!!
my last sem material science faci
initially was worried abt psychology,but after seeing the faci is him i feel so relieved(:
cuz he always gives notes etc
& he noes me,so its an added benefit cuz i dare 2 speak up more in class(:
heehee(:
enjoy being taught by him cuz he's quite comical but he often g0es the extra mile 4 students
he scanned de bo0k 4 us previously & sent the pages 2 us
& he makes fab cheesecake!! hahas!!

2morr0w's chemistry
wish me luck!! HAHA!!

i hope my pp dun need rework!!
plagiarism status 3% hahas
cuz oni gt 1 website wad! & its so not well kn0wn,plus i crapped thru
wakaka(:
i think i will kena rework,my details very shallow

worship & qt was awesome(:

because You believe in me~

i freaked out 2day

i juz finished bathing,& was walking 2 my parents ro0m 2 do rj
walk walk walk,my hand reach 0ut 2 open de door using the handle

GOT A COCKROACH ON THE HANDLE!!
omg i jumped back a few steps & screamed
& kept screaming
& check whether it was on me

LUCKY I HAVEN'T GRABBED THE HANDLE! lucky i see b4 i g0 grab..omg its feelers like movemove

& apparently it shocked my mom,my screaming
& my dad came out irritated from my screaming

ex-cuuse me??
its a cockroack
my FEAR

anyway he caught it in a plastic bag & i dun care wad happens 2 dat stupid dumb cockroach
wad a place 2 perch itself on

2day saw 2 cockroaches already,once wif ruth

poor me

& schools wearing me down
i went home
& promptly fell asleep from 7 till 9

im feeling kinda down rite now
naw
kinda is an understatement

im feel super duper extremely very very very very down

seriously bad case of monday blues; seriously very very down
=((((((((((((((

de slide i kena? definition

whee!!

new sem,i juz managed 2 check my classes!!
same class as ks & jiawei
hahas
cannot put on msn-.-

cuz 4 the WHOLE of year2sem1,i kena dumb rumors saying im wif ks
-.-
oh well,turns out we same class again
actually im quite ok wif it,since dun haf the rumor spreaders in dat clas(:

& de 2 of them often help me out
whee!!

but i dun wan sch 2 start so soon=(
2day's my last day of hols!! sobs=(

my msn is experiencing some dumb problems again,so decided 2 bl0g instead

i b0ught new sh0es!!(: happy dao~~~

hahas my mom sh0uld be REALLY glad i finally g0t my sh0es
cuz if we didnt get any sh0es she'll probably kill me

1st we went 2 n0vena 2 lo0k 4 sh0es,my mom complained al0t of de shoes de base very hard,n0t go0d 2 stand on for long,so we had a hard time finding th0se dat had a go0d base,PLUS i muz like

wakaka

in de end f0und 1,den dun haf my size
*sobs*

so we decided 2 g0 bishan instead
den walkwalkwalk
in de end oso dun haf!!

so in de end we went amk & i finally b0ught my beloved shoes!!
love them man!! who0ts!!

开心死了！！

heehee(: rand0m post(:

g0ing cg 2morrow,den x2 thing,den cousin's 21st bdae
LALA!!

this is my sem2 classes!
SADDED!
see?
almost everyday same class!! except psychology!!
wah lauu=(
i wan everyday diff class..i actually prefer it seh=(

i juz had a haircut!! =D
oh

but anyway i dun think its nice=(
my hair lo0ks very..hmm..puffy?
like very thick den like mushroom head

yea=(
haiix
dun like it=(

lunched wif my sis!! hahas im getting al0ng better wif my sis n0w,i think(:
niiceniice lunch!!=D

went h0me & immediately rushed 4 de t0ilet..wakaka^^

oh & went 2 see d0ct0r yesterday,after countless naggings from my m0m=(
& den mom & doc had a great time talking ab0ut me n0t drinking al0tta water while the thermometer was stuck in my m0uth so i cant deny & fight back..=(
hmphs

& my mom wanted 2 buy ribena!! hahas managed 2 persuade her 2 buy de big bottle syrup 1,c0z previously i saw they haf a cute free water bottle!! so super cute!! wanted 2 get it!! but unf0rtunately i think de promoti0n over liao lor=(
so couldnt get it,c0z no m0re=( sad sehh

managed 2 persuade my mom 2 buy oreos & choc chip co0kies too!! who0ts!!

&&&&&&&!!
NORTHPOINT IS GONNA HAF FAMOUS AMOUS!! OMGOMGOMGOMG!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
HAPPY SEH!!
i abs0lutely LOVE famous amos!! yummilici0us!!(:
hahas cant wait 4 it 2 open!!

oh.
& i still haven completed my pp-.-
stop procrastinating!(: