simple thing only, i told you the room number of the chalet which costa sands sent to me and you dont believe saying there should be an alphabet. i also thought there should be an alphabet but the fact is that THERE ISNT. and i cant do anything cuz the sms doesnt state the alphabet. means probably when my mum goes there then can know exactly.

but u insist im wrong and insist that i send it to you. so ok. then u find out HEY SHE'S TELLING THE TRUTH.

and instead of apologising u say i overreact. hallo.u didnt even freaking trust me. i shouldnt be angry/upset?
seriously? male chauvinist pig. and then u start raising your voice at me when i raise my voice at you. hallo. my fault that they never send an alphabet? like i can do anything??

basic trust leh. somemore say what cuz i always very blur so wan me 2 forward. forward alr im really correct one sorrie oso cannot. still say what i overreact. and always saying im immature, and stuff like if your fren starts avoiding you shouldnt you 1st think why they do dat? like OHWOW PLS. i do ok. i haf so freaking low selfesteem i immediately assume its confirm smt wrong with me. instead of consoling me you shoot me. then what's the point?

yes i have 2 rant out everything here now. cuz im so pissed. and feeling really quite alone.
i dont even dare 2 share much to anyone anymore. everytime i share i get shoot instead.

i juz need some comforting words before u start telling me all the cold hard truths. is that so difficult?

and they really didnt send me any alphabet.is that also supposed to be my fault?

im sick. really quite sick. fever-ed twice this week. and coughing my lungs out till i wanna vommit. often having the gag reflex.

but the thing i hear the most is "u're very noisy. i cant sleep/concentrate"

i feel the love.

more and more im realizing that being myself is not enough;it is not what others want from me.

when you've really tried your very best; but its still not good enough.