Thursday, December 23, 2010

i think its amazing how we can be so good at wearing masks.

juz saw the pics candace tagged on fb. the cycling 1. it sorta amazed me how i seemed 2 b smiling so cheerfully, when its hurting so bad inside.



if it hurts so much; is it worth it?
but then again, i told myself once, i'll never gif up this frenship.
so how?

sidenote:thanks all(: i really appreciate(:
bt its v tough and trickyy.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

dont know why i juz felt like crying when i saw something on fb.
haha. owells.
seriously. yup. it hurts so much.


& i've been having some weird 'cravings' recently. cravings which haf got nothin 2 do wif food, which is rare.

as i was sharing 2 zoey (randomly) 2day; i haf this longing 2 b picked up at work wif a bike!! ok seiously random, but i really loved the bike experience!! missing it till now. like seriously.
but its okay(: i crave, but i noe its unattainable
(:
its alrighttt(:

& i 4gt my another craving. but its alrite, cuz i haf no mood 2 write anything now anyway. everythin is juz fake smiles anyway
(:


sidenote:happy 4months(:
..
wif work.






On the fifth day of Christmas,
My true love gave to me:
FIVE GOLDEN RINGS!
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

i've been thinkin 4 quite some time about my current parttime job.
sure, they've raised my pay (by very little, but a raise IS a raise); but something that happened juz makes me wonder..

owells. see how la ah?(:

anyway, this hols isn't really relaxing, 2 say de least. but at least after christmas i'll b a little free-er!!♥

hahas. but going KL on 29-31dec.
wif:
-jasper&cherilyn
-SP&mastura

and den de non-coupled people are~~
-deanna
-zg
-kisty

hahas=D
obviously de 2 couples are gonna link room while de 4 of us link room. & everything's already planned out. dat de 3 gals wake up earlier (tough 4 me) specially 2 brush teeth beside zg's ears cuz he hates the sound of brushing teeth.

according 2 him he himsself brush its diff (quite true cuz of de vibrations, juz like our voices are different from wad we ourselves hear)

anyway. im sorta kinda sad about KL tho. cuz i would haf preferred it wif there were siewping,sz etc!! bt siewping cant=(



& its so random. bt i keep thinking about my sec3 kl tip recently. thinking about it like mad. mayb its not the TRIP.
hahas. okay. its juz dat i miss some1. bt ok la. juz miss oni.





OK ANYWAY! 2day after work zoey & i actually went "exploring" chongpang. cuz kumon moving; and i had not a single clue whr de new place was gonna b.
so we decided 2 explore (and oso buy de delicious waffle nearby as well)

so we went exploring. HAHA!! was fun!! i love my colleagues♥
hopes my fav colleague doesn't quitt!! if she does i'll b like so sad=(

& kumon gonna haf seperate rooms or smt, i heard. different rooms diff subjects, abit sad sia. den wont get 2 see kids from othe subjects who i love as well. HAHA!! like my fav kid's BROTHER!

he super nice 1 la. always smiling & all. charming(:
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!



okay anyway, i haven written a single card.
OH NO.

Friday, December 17, 2010

After some time I’ve finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I’m searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I’m sorry ’bout the things I’ve done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s crying while she’s saying this

Chorus:
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I’m sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I’m going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
Friends

Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s cried while she’s saying this

Chorus

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

I can still hear what she said






love this song(:
& i stunned sarah by randomly typing de chorus 0ut 2 her, in caps. HAHAHAHA!!
juz getting a tad bit tired of everything.
tired of studying, studying things i dont wanna learn.

i wanna learn bio-related stuffs!!
like mcb;genetics;genomics etc.

please. dont make me learn stuff i dont wanna learn.



on a lighter sidenote; at least im signing up for sundown 21km♥




&! happy bdae ma!♥

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

thinkaloud:


what's the point of having such a cute face, of having such a cute smile; if at the end of the day, your attitude is crap?


like hello. sometimes i really feel like yelling at you, or showing VERY obviously my displeasure.
when i say it's wrong, IT'S WRONG. okay?! you think i'm dumb or something? hello. im how many years older than you? age is not the determining factor though. i'm working as a teaching assistant. don't you think i'll know what the hell 5x10 is? you keep giving me wrong answers and insisting with your irritatingly horrible attitude that you're correct and IM WRONG. o wow. so know you're the freaking teaching while i'm some freaking retard?

wth. it's not even the 1st time your horrible attitude was displayed to me.
how about the time you said i was your maid?
your attitude really needs some major change, asshole.

i think it's quite safe to say that noone here actually LIKES you. they might be neutral with you. that's probably 'cuz they don't know you well. once they take you, i think they'll dislike you as much as i do.


all in all, i hate it when you come. because i hate you.
so what if you're cute? you're JUST A PRETTY FACE. your inside is so ugly.




& on another note, i fail to see the reason to stay, other than some kids and my colleagues. seriously.
but, is it a good enough reason? colleagues are. but what if? what if they quit?
alot of things i feel like doing recently.

feel like going swimming
feel like going jogging
feel like giving up on my nus/ntu dream cuz its almost impossible



& on a random sidenote; i randomly thought of u.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

ok! seriously time 2 update abt my bdae then!! thanks 2 all who wished me happy bdae!! my initial plan was 2 list 0ut every1 who wished me happy bdae, along wif snipped 0ut pics from fb. bt dats like TOO SUPER TEDIOUS!! imagine snipping them and like ADDING LIKE SO MANY IMAGES!!



ya. the wonders yet horrors of fb. any1 who has u as a fren would noe its ur bdae even if they dun rmb. tho im always guilty of being reminded (ONLY BY FB) dat its a fren's bdae, but sometimes i find it sorta insincere.



OK ANYWAY!



by sms:

-Ruth (23:58:27 on 1st dec according 2 my hp)

-Lianjie (23:58:34 on 1st dec according 2 my hp tho he insists he's 1st and he sent it at midnight exactly)

-Deanna (00:002:06 on 2nd dec, technically speaking she's de 1st on the actual day?=D)

-Ziguang (05:39:49. think he's nuts. so early??)

-my aunt (09:32:01)

-my papa (11:37:40)

-SP (12:10:47)

-Sarah (13:24:49)

-Pamela craziest bestie (13:48:02)

-Ben tan (20:23:58)





And on fb its like super alot.

so i shall type out all. (copy paste from fb)
will type de 1st person till de last person

Mabel Tan: Happy birthday !!!

Yicong Faith: Happy Birthday!! :)

MelissaMonkey Lim: Happy birthday to the one who have same name as me! :)

Gerald Lee: happy birthday mel! :D

Sean Wong: Happy B-day mel :))

Kwan Shyan: HELLO MELISSA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ((:

Catherine Eartha Tan: helloheello dear melissa HAPPY BIRTHDAAY my dear silly girl~~~~:D:D:D

Sebes Luvv Electroo(sebestian): happy birthday!! =)

Jing Hao Ngoh: happy birthday :) Mel

Chang Yx: Happy birthday!!

Lee Bing Long: Hey:) happy birthday to you!:D

Braynard Kang: Happy Birthday Melissa! you know even though you're pretty short, but height isnt everything :D you've been a cheerful and caring sister to most of the brothers I believe. See you soon ^^ [BRAYNARD SO BAD!! HAHA!!]

Darren Ng Wai Lun: Happy Birthday!

Weiwei Loveyan: Happy Birthday :)

Rongjie Teo: happy birthday:D

Andrew Andrei Modric: Happie Birthday!

Fifi Yolanda: happy birthday Mel, no longer seeing you around school

Goh Bi Jie Manfred: HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

Lim Ying: HELLO MY PERFECT PARTNER! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :DDDDDDDD ♥ [hahas 1 of my favouritest colleague at work]

WeiKoon Calvin Zephaniah: Happy Birthday!! :)

Nicholas Ong: Xiao mei happy birthday. (:

Jul Tiong: Hey! Happy Birthday! Thanks so much for bringing so much laughter into my life.

Ethan Tan WeiLoong: Happy birthday buddy! I've know you for 4 years already! You've been someone really nice to me. One that is sensitive to others and always looking silly! Your silliness has brighten up not just my day, but many others as well. I pray that as you grow older, you will grow in G more and more as well. Experiencing Him in ...a deeper measure. Do your best in everything you do too! Jiayou and have a great one! =)

Rebecca Tian: happy birthday melissa! :D really glad to know you when we were serving in ushering ministry as well as X2 group. your cuteness really brighten your peers and people around you. wanna encourage you to serve and do your best, God will do the rest. jiayou okay? impact as many people around you! have a blast! keep in touch:D

Yeo Yiquan: Happy birthday (:

Daphne Lin Peiqing: happy bday melissa! :D

Tricia Tan: Happy Birthday Melissa! (: (:

Shreedhee Kyra: Happy birthday!

Vivien Paige Lim: Happy Birthday! :D

Bernadette Ong: Happy birthday!

Raymond Ong: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Shamini Raj: happy birthday babe(:

Siti Mariame: Melissaaaaaaaaa~ Happy Birthday! ♥

Yan Ying: Happy Birthday :)wish u all ur dreams come true...stay happy n smile always ^^hav a nice day ahead :DD

Ariella Joan: Happy Birthday, dear girl (: [i miss her like crappp=(]

Kristy Hui: Happy Birthday!!!!

Aaron Lim: hey Happy birthday Melissa. ask @tony tan to give u a ride on his bike

Aaron Morgan Chua: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOISY GIRL! HAHAHA

Edwin Angelo Ho: happy birthday melllll! ;p [after dat we actually talked on msn. after like years of not talking. ok. mayb abt a year la. HAHA!!]

Liying Ling: happy birthday melissa! =D

Loh Yurong: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR PUB GIRL ♥ YOU MANY MANY [note:PUB = public utilities board. my attachment. my beloved attachment. hahas=D]

James Ting Pin Yeng: happy birthday! 快高长大

Francis Huiyu: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ♥

Chee Guan: Happy Birthday! (:

Jason Fernandez Stanly: Happy B'dae! :-D

Kasmiranti Kassim: happy birthday!

Sun Chuanhuang: happy birthday................................But i though your birthday is over le lol..........?????????????????? [hahas i scolded him boxim]

Cindy Peh: mel mel happie birthdyyy =D hahaha. .. enjoy~ xD have a blast! ♥ [from fyp teammate!]

Doris Ng: Happy birthday Melissa! [from pretty girl doris]

Kenny Jedidiah: wah ni bian lao le!! =DD happy birthday fellow housekeeping dude.. [hahas my 1st church camp i did housekeeping under him. super funnyy! kept bullying him]

Jacintha Fidgity Fillmore: Happy Birthday dear, have a blaast and takecare (: [from another pretty girll!!]

Brendan Teo: hey, happy birthday! [jogging buddies!]

Kok Chin Yang: happie birthday!!! :) [from guy who was scared of me in secsch cuz i was too hyper! heard it from a fren]

Joan Yuen Zining: happy birthday! :)

Jie Bin: Happy Birthday to you, I know you will reply with thank you for so many time SO I will say it Welcome first...

Liling Cheong: Happy birthday!! :D

Ong Yu Ying: Hey! My dear galHappy bday! It's been a long time since we meet! [from my beloved wushu-mate(:]

Ryan Wang: happy birthday!

MelissaMonkey Lim: 生日快乐! [this little monkey wished me twice. once in chinese once in english. HAHA!!]

Meixiang Xu: HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY! :D [another fav colleague. actually, all my colleagues are favourites. so ya. HAHA!! bt ly is 1 of my favouritest!]

Jaslyn Esther: hey girl, happy birthday! Have fun, enjoy and God Bless :) [caretaker when i first entered hrp!(:]

Derek Chew: Happy bird-day! [from the guy whose name i thought was melvin]

Joyce Tan: happy bdae! [my biochem classmate]

Stephen Ng: happy birthday =)

Ronald Lum Pin: Hey Happy bday =)

Angelina Teo: haha we share the same date!! Happy birthday!

Cherilyn Lian: Happy birthday! Hope you'll enjoy your special day! Have a blast :) [from jasper's pretty gf(:]

Shareen Chen: Happy birthday my beloved dear... :) its a joy to always be with u!!

Candace Lye: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING SILLY MELISSA! ^^ queen of the day! ♕ hehehehe, last teen alr! hohoho. truly treasure you in my life, you matter to me my dearest! ((: cliche, but, see you at the end of the race okay! never give up! i love you! ♥♥♥ (ღ˘◡˘ღ) [from my pretty lgl!(:]

Benjamin Tan: Hey Mel!!! Happybirthday!!!!! Have a enjoyable birthday celebration ya?? i am sure u will have lotsa fun! haha!

Aryielle SingYee: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥

SinLih Chin: Happy Birthday! [from a guy whom i've never met in reallife b4!! HAHA!! met thru game]

Syafiqah Faruq: happy birthday dear! =) [from anther pretty girl!!(:]

Limei Peh: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! =)

Alson Qua: happy birthday!

Hazaelle Kristle Christiani: Happy birthday Melissa! :)

Keira Cheyenne: hey melissa... happy 19th befday.. hope ur wishes cum true.. mis u.. haha..tc [from suzie]

Siewping Eng: Happy Birthday Silly Mel~ haha ... hope u enjoyed the celebration with us :D

Pamela Syy: I'M THE LAST...HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY MEL [from my bestest bestie since sec sch tho we seldom meetup]

Chang Yx: Happy Birthday!! [beats me why he wished again. HAHA!!]

Jasper Lim: HAPPYBIRTHDAY AGAIN MEL! HOPE YOU ENJOY THE RIDE =pp hahahah. sorry ah was rushing home thats why, this time really is special case! anyway hope you enjoyed! haha.


hahas. loove!!



ok. & amy wished me in person. and alena=D


ok. den we went off 2.. erm. ok. i 4gt de place name. its purple line. & we ate some kinda steamboat!!(:

den suddenly deanna went off say go toilet
i ask her wan me pei her she say "NO!!"
so immediately suspect smt alr.
den dat dedrick ah. he said "u all never receive de sms meh?"
den every1 was like WAH LAU DEDRICK!
den he slapped himself. HAHAHAHA!!

den they came back & sang bdae song~~


OHYA. they gave me a blue backpack! LOVE!! ironic tho.
they bought on tues. on tues nite like super late, i went 2 google pics of backpack cuz i inteded 2 buy 1 for myself. den i sent 2 siewping, sz and deanna 2 see. & they shocked. dunno whether 2 tell me they buy 4 me bag anot, so i wont go buy myself.

in de end when we went kbox on wed they gave me!!
<3
hahahahas


den ok. back 2 story. after eating we took polaroids!<3

den jasper & cherilyn came(:

& they sent me home! (along wif SP and his gf)



& I TIED A KNOT WITH A CHERRY STEM YO! I ROCK!!
ok. pics on fb. im lazy
(:

Friday, December 10, 2010

MY BDAE POST IS IN THE MAKING!! ya. bt anyway i doubt people would really care much. its ok tho! when im old and gray i can read=D

anyway this is the "Things i wanna do in this lifetime"
-Stargazing; harvest moon and starry skies
-Shave for HFH at least once
-Learn unicycle
-Learn horseriding
-Learn bike; get a bike [if possible]
-Run and COMPLETE 42.195km [aka FULL marathon]
-Fall in love
-Travel to somewhere with snow
-Mountain climbing [abit impossible but its a dream. i can dream big rite?(:]
-Own a blackberry phone


and last but not least, i want to be CONTENTED with my life(:



Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

I NOEEEE I PROMISED 2 UPDATE ABT MY BDAE!!
bt ok. anothe day?=X
hahas

anyway. AI faci is reena moses. in p8 she asked for RJ qn is whr she would like 2 see us in 5 years time. sorta like 0ur plands after 5 years la.

so i said hopefully she'll see me at NUS!!♥

& here's her reply, which really touched me
"How nice it would be to see my student graduating from a university.Go Ahead Melissa.The world is open for you."

thankyou faci!!♥

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

i'll update abt my awesome bdae soon. i promise. (:

but for now, since i recently read thru my these few months' posts, i've gt something new 2 say. juz 2 rant 0ut.

look. when i didnt say bye 2 u b4 going offline u made such a big fuss over it, saying i ALWAYS liddat.
but hey. look at urself man. didnt u juz go offline wifout saying bye?
btw. im so not intersted in u & whoever u're wif anymore. i oni wanted 2 noe cuz i thought we were frenz, & could get 2 noe how u got her, since u liked her for so long.

but naw. i think its better this way. lets stay as acquaintances. though this frenship was 1 dat really blessed me previously, but mayb, just mayb, its a SEASONAL frenship. not a lifetime 1. good while it lasted.

& tho i appreciate u and always will, but mayb its time 2 let go.
(:

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

i really oughta blog. i haven blogged abt my VIRGIN BIKE RIDE!!
=D

initially it was juz after my ut on wednesday, go meet my sec sch clique(: (technically speaking tony aint from my sec sch bt he's still from the clique. HAHA!! ok who cares. knew him thru aaron in yr1 sem2. his class was like BESIDE mine. while pam's was 1 level below ours. den everyday after sch she'll come up & we'll bully tony. HAHAHAHA!!)

ANYWAY!
so we decided 2 eat chicken wingss(:
so it was me pamela aaron tony.

den after dat they play badminton. den suddenly pamela suggested 2 tony 2 bike me over 2 khatib dam thr, since i've NEVER sat on a bike b4.
i was SOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!! den dat pig refused 2 go get helmet. he go play badminton. so bully him. den he went up 2 get his helmet. dat kuku pamela, was holding on 2 her eeyore toy dat she bought from polyclinic-.- this girl ah..


DEN!! hahahahahaha I SAT ON A BIKE!! OMGGGGGG!! i ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE FEELING!! screamscreamscream. den at khatib dam thr rest awhile. saw an ABSOLUTELY CUTE BIKE!! gilera or smt liddat. according 2 tony

so! gilera took over vespa in my bike ranking. HAHA!! technically speaking, my bike ranking ONLY had vespa. owell. HAHA!! i dunno bikes well. i juz like bikes cuz they're so cool!

anyway!
den went back 2 de badminton place whr pamela they all were waiting. den take pics, den im off home!! i got a ride home too!! on the bike!!

ok seriously. im having bike fever since wednesday. i so totally wanna get a bike license!!
BIKEBIKEBIKEBIKE!! i really dunno how 2 describe the joy i had from the ride!! its like so OMG AWESOME!

been 1 of my wishes since young. ok technically speaking my wish was to RIDE A BIKE MYSELF, but since dat is still unattainable as yet, but its an awesome second best!! cuz i've never got 2 experience a bike ride before, & omg it was SOOOOOOOOOO FUN!!



okay! pics time!!(:

tony & i. dat's his bike. HAHA!! my virgin bike trip!


pamela & i! wif her silly little eeyore


PAMELA & I ON TONY'S BIKE!! HAHAHAHA!!


ok! den after reaching home i went crazy telling my mama abt my virgin bike ride!! she wasn't dat excited as me tho. muz b cuz she sit before. tsk.


HAHAHAHA!! ok. vows 2 get bike.


ANYWAY! den i went madmad wif deanna. she mad abt vespa i mad about gilera AND vespa. HAHAHAHA!! bike fever yea!

den recently i told LY i 1st time ride bike & she was like telling me she never before!! & she wished she could sit on a bike. aw. if i get a license & im confident enough i take u? HAHA!! bt mayb by den we oso kena *urhmphed* by *urhmphs* alr. HAHA!!



& yesterday at fyp i was feelin quite cui & all. like pissed and everything. & den i stormed outta de class eventually. & i was feeling quite guilty. i mean its nt een their fault.

bt i tought 7 myself "after work i'll msg them telling them sorrie etc"
den b4 work glenn alr smsed saying he was sorrie if he said smt wrong etc. i shocked sia!!
i was seriously unwilling 2 say sorrie u'kno. pride and all. but thanks 2 glenn!
ok. anyway.



korean kid might not be studying anymore on dec!! mx told me cuz she saw he dec no plans in de thingie. den i was SO SAD!! i told her "HUH? aiyo. i wanna see him!! nvm i tell them i pay 4 his fees. juz so i can see him." HAHAHA!! siao sia i.



ok! gotta go study alr. BYE! & icecream man's below. i should go down soon. HAHA!!