Wednesday, April 28, 2010

last day of de 2nd week of school. still a downdown week & stuffs
o wells
same reasons
studies blahblahblah
plus i feel so dumb in class. even tho i speak out its no point cuz my point is either not good, or my point has already been snatched by another person who is more vocal den me
o well.


on a lighter note, sunday was random outing wif dumbs!(:
met at 2pm at city hall 2 go out
initial plan was island creamery

but of cuz we wanted 2 eat lunch la=D

shitted 3 times b4 meeting them
=((((

den we went 2 eat newyork newyork.
service was -.-

hahas den we went 2 walkwalk & stuffs
lalala
den dat lianjie la
wanna watch movie
in de end finally persuaded us 2 watch
monga

niice(:
nothing much 2 say la, mayb cuz i gt no mood now=(

but den in de end no island creamery

den astons!!
yums(:

ya l0r
den
had fun!!(:


er ya
dats all

Friday, April 23, 2010

its been abit more than 1 week of scho0l so far.
& im officially burnt out

emo nicks all de time
seriously im feeling super down ab0ut scho0l & stuffs

i do enjoy my fyp tho(:
m i supposed 2 enjoy fyp? or is fyp supposed 2 b for us polytechnic students 2 complain about?
i dunno, but i can really seriously say i enjoy it!!

cute brine shrimps!! erhmph. unfortunately i had 2 kill them eventually.
& i was praying they'll die so i can count them easier
SERIOUSLY!! hyperactive little brine shrimps.
i bet i'll increase in my degrees. especially my right eye(which is ALREADY of a higher degree than my left, AND i found out 2day its my dominant eye)


anyway!
basically i've been having a bad week. my grades aint anything 2 be proud of, my attitude has been horrendous. sucky 2 de max
i think if i can see myself like a rewind & i can sit & see myself, i'll probably wanna whack myself
cuz i cant stand my own attitude problem.

school is wearing me down!!
burnt out.



logbook ah logbook~~
i haven started on my logbook at all.
dun dare 2 start. later ugly.
shall write in a seperate notebook wad i've done 1st
so dat i wont 4get(:


& attachment report & stuff is killing me
i cant get my forms signed by mu supervisor.
bet im nt gonna get my ce points
& mayb wont even haf acknowledgement dat i ever worked in PUB under attachment b4
darn=(

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Saturday, April 17, 2010

To You,

hey there. happy 21st!
really hope u're somewhere wifout pain. no more pain, no more tears. only peace and joy(:
its almost been a year yea? 17may2010 would make it a year already.

i still remember. microbio class. lianjie trying 2 contact me 2 get your address & stuffs
when i finally got the news it didnt sink in. michelle came over & i blurted out everything 2 her & she went 2 her class stunned where she eventually cried.

i didn't cry. i only teared. the news refused 2 sink in i guess.
but i couldn't concentrate anymore. i ponned that class. with lianjie & michelle.
we went 2 one stop centre. & den 2 canteen. we laughed & kidded around. trying 2 4get the news & stuff.

it worked 4 awhile i guess. but we eventually cabbed down.
& waited 4 de rest.

& i tell u seriously. i never expected it 2 hurt dat much. but when i saw u..
we agreed beforehand dat we wouldn't cry. we wouldn't make it worse for the others.

but when i saw u, i think i really couldn't help it.
it really seemed so unreal. u didn't look like you at all. not at all the lovely person i knew.
& i think i sorta lost it. i walked away b4 i cried out loud. cried of cuz. i miss u
you seemed so different. so lifeless. totally unlike u. u were quiet, but u were ALWAYS smiling, despite everything
i'll always remember you as a silly guy wif a smile for every1

& i remember dat random msn chat we had. really random!
kidding around & stuffs. asking random qns (like wad rj qn u haf 2day) or me calling u korkor, or u teaching me how 2 write my rj

but the one i'll always remember is the 1 who is always smiling.
who always greets every1 wif a silly smile & a wave
the one who would listen 2 wad everybody says.

& i'll always remember.
u led games during camp. ur very 1st camp. & u were sad cuz u couldn't participate. & we told u, nvm, still got next year!!

& i remember thinking. u'll never get 2 play in camp this year.

i'll always remember u, brother.
& if u could look at many of us' hearts, u'll see dat we all miss u

why did u bottle everything up?
we care. we really do.

i remember my rdna class talking about it a few days later. got so affected. but they don't noe anything.

i remember the news finally sinking in on a wednesday, where i told my classmate, who noticed i wasn't myself immediately after i stepped into class, about it & he consoled me.

i remember crying many nites.
i remember being very spacey everyday
not paying much attention in class

i miss u. i really do.
when i shared 2 de same classmate who consoled me last year (same class as him 3rd sem)
he juz listened
while i struggled wif tears in my eyes

while i went thru de whole of 2day struggling 2 be normal.
once in awhile of cuz tears will come.

but u noe wad?
i miss u.
& i love u, brother

rest well. i hope dat whereever u are, you're feeling fine & better


Love, Me

Friday, April 16, 2010

nuggets of wisdom from zhu ziguang: academic smartness is inversely proportional 2 relationship de

Thursday, April 15, 2010

VERYVERYVERYVERY LONG POST!!

genting trip!!
fun like siao
(:
really enjoyed it wif my craziest class(:

1st day
met at bukit panjang at like an ungodly hour, 615
& remember (in previous post i mentioned), i had attachment & chompchomp de day b4!!
till late

& so i woke
bathe
on hp
15 missed calls from 1 person
another 7 from another
another 6 or 5 from another
-.-
hahas but im sorta glad all de same, sorrie 4 making u all worried but its nice 2 noe dat im cared for(: & dat im remembered(:

cabbed thr
reached latest
den bags up on de bus & OFF WE GOOOOOOOOO!!
BYE SINGAPORE!!

did all de checkpoint & stuffs

kerenia is blur sotong(:
she put on de white card, date of expiry, she put de date dat her passport was renewed or something
-.-
kereniaa ahhhhhhhhhh~~
come back she almost 4gt her bag-.- KERENIAAAA!! hahas(:

den we reached hotel after 6 hours
HAHA
lunched
cuz 2pm den can check in or something
so we slacked outside
did alot of jumpshots(:
check out my fb if u wanna see
i jumped quite ok in all!! *pats back* good job mel!!(:

after dat we got our hotel cards
siewping's sis wif siewping's sis 1 room
beside is mable & kerenia
beside is jasper & his gf
beside is brendan & songzhi

link roomies!!
siewping & me wif deanna & ziguang
super funny!! initially deanna & ziguang gt de DOUBLE BED
HAHAHAHA they faster knock on our door. saw we got singles. so change wif us
aww~~ HAHA!! fate la, dat they gt double initially(:

hahas link roomwas fun!!
mable & kerenia super funny
they beside both couples
den she knock on jasper's door
jasper open de door wifout shirt

she was like ook.. she feel bad
den she knock on siewping's sis de door
de bf open de door hiding behind de door
HAHAHAHAHAHA

funny!!

den after dat we had dinner, i actually sorta 4gt wad we did on de 1st day cuz we did nothing much
except de bathing part
*winks*
dat was at nite

nothing stumbling ok!!
bt we're close frenz(:
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

anyway
we link room
so 2 toilets 2 bathe in
siewping went in 1
deanna went in another

initially deanna & i say alr, we like take turns
when she bathe i sit on toilet bowl & talk 2 her etc
with de curtains drawn of course!!

but!!
dilemma
de 1 siewping went in, haf curtain
de 1 deanna went in dun haf
cannot expect me 2 sit there when she bathing & like no curtain 2 block?!

so deanna OPEN DE DOOR & BATHE!!
hahas
so mister zhu ziguang, being de GUY
all de more muz make sure he cannot see etc rite
so he sat inbetween de link room, facing siewping de bathroom cuz she gt close door
i sat at the toilet entrance

& we bathed liddat
HAHAHAHAHA
i oso bathe wif door open, but ziguang bathing, so no fears

2nd nite was funny(: but 2nd nite is for later(: talk abt 1st day 1st ma!!

after bathing etc, mable & kerenia came over 2 find us & we chitchatted abt relationships.
mable's kerenia's deanna's
siewping me & ziguang juz add personal opinion etc oni
HAHAHAHAHAHA

in de end i was so tired i lie on the bed & listen
den they shoo me off 2 bed(:

sleep~~

2nd day morning
my alarm clock?
deanna & ziguang


deanna: *JUMPS ON MY BED* MELISSA!! WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!
zg: *singing* SHE BANGS!! SHE BANGS!!
me: -.-

after dat i pulled my blanket & tried 2 sleep again
deanna came & pull my blanket

hahas im de last 2 wake up in de link room
siewping 1st sia
she power


finally woke up, prepare & stuffs
2nd day is for
THEME PARK!!

went brekkie at the hotel de brekkie place
lalala, blahblahblah

den went 2 buy tickets
WHOOTS!!
happy can!!

bought & we sat de indoor ride 1st, cuz our dearest mable & kerenia, known 4 dragging, woke up late
HAHAHA

after dat we went 2 play bumper car!!
fun 2 de max!!^^

especially since its wif my lovely clique(:

when the outdoor 1 FINALLY opened, we were like de 1st few 2 get in?
most of de rides were still close can-.-

the crazy bunch decided 2 play some ride which goes UPPPPPPPP den down v fast
something liddat
4gt de name.
they play twice-.-

i didnt hahas
i confirm will cry de l0r
scary can!!
naw, rather not
stay below
brendan oso stay below
take video 4 them!!
my card no space-.-

take twice somemore
siwping sis & siewping sis' bf best
her sis scream abit oni
her sis' bf looked bored
OMG?!

after dat we went 2 play karts
fun can!!
my 1st time!!
hahas
really fun!!!!!
faster would haf been better
*pouts*

nvm!!
den after dat we rushed off 2 play corkscrew
hates!!
HAHA
it got go 360 degrees!! but not the typical kind dat u'll think of, de 1 round 1. its de track turns, den become upsidedown, den 360
ya la, dun get it nvm
go genting take!! (& bring me along!!)

go in, KOK!! my kneecap hit de seat-.-
pain!! now blueblack alr

put my bag
strapped myself
sat wif songzhi
HAHA
last row sio

den ride started
SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMED ALL DE WAY!!
scary!!!!!!

but hey, its fun after riding it yea!!
went toilet etc

den off 2 de mine 1
dat 1 oso vvvvvv fun!!
but seriously, the operator's attitude sucks
songzhi's strap was super loose & really cannot tighten
i tried oso ma
his really cannot
den our WHOLE grp shout 4 her 2 wait
every1 infront turn back 2 look at us
she press de button 2 start de ride

super bad attitude. when going by we jitao black face her
bt noeing ppl like her la hor, she ignore us
& we spent de ride discussing her attitude

& screaming of course(:

took it afew times

den off we went!!
took de dragon 1 which wasn't scary

den went off, mable wanted 2 take de teacup 1
so a few went wif her

after dat was the swings 1!!
i REALLY like dat 1 tho it made me headachish
cuz i ALWAYS wanted 2 ride dat
(: (: (: (:

after dat lunched at marrybrown. not nice=(

went back hotel 2 slack
den met up again, played de outside 1, need 2 pay
worth it!!
dis 1!! it goes 360 oso!! & its like superman liddat (like how mable described it on her blog. koped de pic from her blog too!!)
played it twice!!
screamed all de way!!
& cuz its loose, my hip is now blueblack=((
.
but its REALLLLLLLLLLY fun. never ride is really wasted!!
lucky my clique managed 2 persuade me 2 go(:
played it TWICE(: once is NOT ENOUGH!!
.
den ate sweet potato!! real nice!!
.
den was dinner.
the person didn't take my order-.-
so ended up i bought cup noodles back 2 eat at hotel
bugged zg 2 help me take hot water=D
their water nt v hot so err..my noodles nt nice
hmph!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
.
b4 dat was 2nd nite's bathing
HAHA
awesome!!
siewping again in de bathroom she bathed in previously
deanna oso
deanna still open door
this time better
zg slack on his bed
i slack on deanna's bed (which is beside zg's)
.
den deanna came out 2 wear her shorts i think
so we need 2 cover rite
used pillows 2 cover our face tho we already face away from her, bt reflection from window ma
.
den i rmb zg infront of me
me: *kicks*
him: *kicks back*
so we started kicking & laughing
.
then
deanna: OK! done alr!
me: oi ok alr la!! can put down de pillow alr la!!
then kicks zg again
.
& den zg grabbed my leg
him: say sorrie korkor!!
me: NO!
.
*he repeats himself*
me: SORRIE DIDI!!
him: *tickles my feet*
i am VERY ticklish
me: SORRIE KORKOR SORRIE KORKOR!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
.
& den deanna piggybacked zg
POWER SIA!!
strong gal(:
.
den my turn 2 bathe
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i juz took out my bra from my bag, even tho zg & sg is like looking in my direction cuz i was standing near de tv
HAHA
im comfortable wif them
decent guys(:
.
.
bathe, & jasper & his gf came over 2 play uno stacko
den playplayplay
they went back
.
we prepare 2 slp
mable & kerenia came
siewping & i slp
mable & kerenia chitchat wif deanna & zg l0r
.
.
den 3rd day nothing much ba?
siewping woke up 1st again!! she's power man!!
4 me i confirm laze until i shuang(:
.
last min shopping
(bought boxers & bag)
.
den pack
lalala
nothing much
.
home sweet home!!
.
ahs
zg v sweet l0r
he see kerenia gt alot of packages
he offered 2 help her, tho his hands alr gt like 2 packages
hahahas
.
den deanna & i were saying he's a v good guy
whoever get him v lucky
.
wah he super kaypoh can!!
he turn back & "whatwhatwhat??"
.
& super thickskin=p
deanna said we talkin bad abt him
he replied" i where gt bad thing 4 u all 2 say?"
HAHAHAHA
see? proves my point
(:
but he was joking la
hahahahas
.
den home!!
.
motion sick. siewping bought sour plums
NIICE!!
like them alot!
& made me better!!
after dat de ride gt better
slept
.
den
HOME!!
(:
.
.
.
.
ithe genting trip & de ppl i went wif!!(:
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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.
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.
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update:
chatting wif siewping & zg, & reading sp's blog reminded me of these incidents:
.
we sending mable & kerenia back 2 their room after 1st nite chat
zg: peeks under sp's sis' room
we curious
we noe he peeking under sp's sis room
suddenly he come running 2wards us
we clueless dunno wad happened
so we ran along
HAHAHAHAHA
.
after dat we stopped & asked
he say nothing ah-.-
.
den we walking back 2 our room
suddenly he start running AGAIN!!
& we follow suit
all of us barefoot-.-
& he ran all de way 1 round, till kerenia's room outside again-.-
we faster push him back 2 our room
stupid zg-.-
HAHAHAHAHA
.
& another thing
3rd day he went 2 wear his shirt over a pillow-.-
& its his gf-.-
stupid la he
HAHAHAHAHA
.
silly zg
really brought alot of joy into my genting trip!!
.
.
.
CLASSIC
de best 4 de last
mister zg went 2 ask deanna: eh flasher is how 1 ah?
.
den he comes into our room
walks 2 de window
back facing us
suddenly he turns & flashes at us!!
(top oni)
.
& we're both not shocked-.-
no reaction
.
hello? we see u half naked de whole time?? HAHA
den he walked back into his room
HAHA
poor zg
flash at gals OSO FAIL!!
HAHAHAHA
.
but ok la, he's a really really reeeeeeeeeeally nice guy(:

Monday, April 12, 2010

long blogpost.
from thursday

thursday as in the APRIL FOOLS thursday
yayaya i noe, i v lag i v slow
bleh=p

had 2 work ma, attachment
den after work met my jiejie at bugis
she miscalculated the time so she was late

slacking away near de mrt, bt near de escalator there, cuz the mrt there no space 2 wait luh
a guy came up asking me whether i interested in being a freelance model!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! i laughed & said no
wakakakakakaka
*honoured*
hahas im kidding=D
& i noe its confirm nt true de l0r
& i was in an unglam position when he approached can?! scratching my head(:

anyway sis came & all, told her etc
hahas
told ruth lianjie & weiloong oso!!
weiloong say its an april fool joke-.-
HAHA

anyway
den shopped
i bought
err
1 tank top?
& 1 more thing. but i 4gt wad i bought already


friday was good friday
shepherd's class & met ting
heehee(: enjoyed the time wif tings! tho it was juz an informal time(:
she pulled me 2 little india 2 pluck her eyebrows-.-
HAHA
den we went back 2 dhoby 2 eat at le meridian (which is actually called concorde hotel now)

anyway
den went home


saturday didnt haf service cuz service was on sunday cuz easter
but i juz confirmed dat iw as serving on saturday so i needed 2 get my dresscode
so i planned 2 go alone
but i was really dreading it
den after dat i smsed ruth & she pei-ed me!!
(:

hahas den we went bugis 2 shop

i bumped into benson on the train!!
shocked super much!!
its like i wont see him again den i randomly saw him on de train

den he came over 2 where i was standing & talktalk abit l0r
he was going 2 church & he is something like support singer or something
lalala
told him i was going 2 buy clothes 4 my ushering

den after dat he went off at dhoby den i slack till bugis
was late
=(

den went off bugis 2 shop
den ruth bought a dress she had been eyein since dunno when
den i bought my ushering clothes

den we actually intended 2 buy a particular shirt 2gether
den dun haf-.-

den we decided 2 randomly go somewhere where there's a christian shop cuz we wanna find cross necklaces

den we decided on raffles place, but in de end its CLOSED
so we slacked at the stairs thinking where 2 go etc
initially was like city hall's christian shop
den became food
long johns
den astons

den finally decided on cathy astons
but inbetween we shared some opinions on stuffs & all dat
really had a good catch up!
den went 2 cathy astons
bumped into deanna there!!
screamscreamscream
den she remind me genting trips coming up
lovelove!!

den we lined up
super long cans
we decided 2 tauhuey after astons

finally got into astons!!
super long queue
we jumped queue cuz we oni 2 ppl
*winks*

ate
den the songs there were really nice
we refused 2 leave & ate vvvvvvvvvv slowly cuz we wanted 2 listen
heehee
den gt 1 song we keep singing 2 each other
FUNFUNFUN!!

finally de song we dunno 1 den we leave
hahahahahahaha(:

wanted 2 tauhuey de l0rz
bt den it was raining & we guessed confirm alot of ppl there de
so in de end didnt go

went ps slack awhile den went back home cuz early morning de next day we were meeting wif de rest of the ushers 2 brekkie b4 ushering

so went home sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
(:
had an awesome catchup wif ruth!!(: really great time!!


sunday!
we met at cityhall & had mac brekkie
den after dat we slowly went 2 suntec convention hall
i regret not asking u & u
owells=(

ushering was not bad ba i guess
hahahahahas was under james
saw james AGAIN!!
like everything cans?
HAHA

anyway
den after dat we celebrated weiloong's bdae
den went home.
cuz i still had attachment de next day & my report was supposed 2 b submitted on monday, so i had 2 rush home
cabbed wif weiloong
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
he v bad ok
keep trying 2 scare me

den reached home
did abit more of my report
den sleep


monday went 2 work & finished up my report
& submitted it 2 my supervisor
after dat nothing 2 do.
-.-

did some checking stuffs
den slacked de rest of the day away

tuesday was oso slacking ok

but tuesday was my last day & i was really sad lehh
& my cutecute ucle wasn't thr=(
hahas
de cute uncle who i told clumsy ken abt

he super cute 1 l0r!!
always smiling
den plumplump 1
cute man!!
gt 1 day i went toilet came back
jumping around
saw him siting at his desk
hahas he seldom in office 1 ok!
den he gave me a huge grin
& i gave him back a hugr grin
OMG
he brightened up my week!!
amir(:


chompchomp wif my excg(:
ting's cg la basically
has a great time!!
eating, sharing stuffs, & tutorial 101
*winks
those who noe, noe la uh(:

& i was going genting de next day
& i ate stingray, lala, etc etc
-.-
but i really had fun(:

genting post in next post!!(:

Friday, April 2, 2010

ok mayb i gt no sense of humor
or mayb im fierce or wadever

but yes
i didnt get pranked dis year
& tho i feel sorta..4gotten & left out

but at the same time i noe its cuz of last year's thing

i dunno
should i be happy?
should i be sad?

how come i feel so tempted 2 really really ___ ____?


& yes, i feel like im losing u all, despite all my attempts 2 convince myself.

because cant u see? we dun spend time 2gether.