seriously, im just feeling quite burnt out
not from fyp tho.
tho im abit sian-ed about having fyp, but seriously, i cant help but enjoy it when the work is fun(: its tiring but then its satisfying(:

but anyway. im really feeling burnt out.
i know why, but i'll kill myself before i say it here. not safe, i guess.

2day, planned well and good, to go swimming wif zg&sz already. after fyp. so was really quite excited and looking forward to it.
then when i reached school and went toilet, i realised my period came. pissed me off bigtime. seriously. cant even lemme swim before coming.
i noe its irrational to be angry at my body for something that is so routine but im in "that mood where every little thing pisses you off"

seriously. for the whole of this week, when everything seems to be dumped onto me or smt. or so i feel, tho i know its not true.
but seriously, no i don't wanna do any of that, can i say that? no i cant anyway. shit.

yes im really quite pissed.
okay shall not think too much cuz, it'll juz piss me off more.



anyway yesterday at work, a cute kid who came in came straight up to me (instead of preparin 2 submit his hw) and told me: "i know what is 3-1! 3=1 is equals to TWO!"
den he grinned at me & was ushered by the teacher back to put his hw in his folder & hand it up 2 me
hahahahahas

den he went 2 take a pencil & came 2 me again, telling me "i got 2 fishes at home!!"
then he was (again) ushered back (this time by me) to do his work, but i smiled at him and nodded 2 his statement before ushering him back

he is soooooooooooooo cute!! always spacing out tho. needa call him once in awhile

he was playing wif eraser dust. den i was like "(name), do your workk~" and smiled at him
den he pulled up de eraser dust 2 lemme see & den grinned at me
hahahahahahas, super darn cute(:

den another kid told me she going malaysia, to see fireflies!! im super envious=(

& there's 1 really goodlooking boy in the class, who is really smart oso. enjoy seeing him cuz he's very vocal(:
& another girl oso, she's like 1 of my fav(:



okayy, at least i know 1 thing's for sure, kids make my day(:


but it doesnt help still.
ohwell=(


i needa exercise more. but no motivation, no discipline.
& de run's nearing.
18days to realrun, 25days to nike run

maybe it's just not meant to be?

wednesday went out wif 3 crazies!!
pamela, tony & ch.

went chinese garden 2 play lanterns!!(:
met pam 1st, buy stuffs(:

den met ch. den tony came over in his RENTED car
=D
HAHAHAHA

he rent so can send us back. wahaha so nice?
anyway so we went 2 chinese garden & played candles!
they played sparklers, i scared, so never play dat

some dumb worm or smt crawled onto my leg. gross max.
HAHAHAHA

den after dat we went 4 MIDNIGHT roti prata!!
ok 4 tony & i its roti prata
4 pam & ch it was 小锅面
i think dat's how its "spelt"?

oh! before that was icecream. even tho i was already freezing cuz dat tony was SPEEDING & left de windows open & de wind like super duper cold?!

anyway, den it was send me backie
cuz late, cannot go home too late

so anyway~ den ch sat in the car while pam&tony pei me up cuz i scared(:

they say my block here siao 1, cuz midnight 1plus den gt those traffic police? come & put ticket. siaooooo

den home sweet home & zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~



2day had work. gt 1 girl suuuuuuuuuper cute!!
she help others sweep table. even tho she dun haf to. so sweet(:

& den got this little boyboy, my colleague said he look like wellington bear. HAHAHAHAHA!! seriously quite like sia.

so gt wellington bear&chicken little

OMG CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!(:

all of us chiong de stuffs so dat we can go home earlier (than usual) & we did!! okay sorta la.
& me & another colleague were like gossipping about a fulltime staff there.
HAHAHA!!



den home & headache.
=D

2day, i woke up at like 7.45 AM to go downstairs for jogging. like omg. craziness.

anyway, initial plan was 7.30AM. but obviously knowing me, i cant wake up at dat time. i needa laze in bed. so i lazed till 7.45, daydreaming all the way

den i dragged myself outta bed & went 2 prepare 4 jogging!!♥

jogged about 3km+
dun really noe the time leh. cuz needed 2 walk etc.
my limbs are aching now!!=(

seriously, getting old

i wanted 2 go swimming at safra. but sis dis week study week, so cant drag her 2 safra 4 swimming.
& i juz didnt wanna go alone. so reluctant. so had 2 settle for jogging downstairs
=(

i would haf preferrred swimming tho=(

either 2morrow or friday morning i gotta wake up early early 4 jogging again i guess
cuz im really determined 2 exercise at least twice a week!
which is not easy for me, i enjoy exercise quite abit but owell~~


but anyway, i really did wake up at an ungodly hour 2 go jogging & i really did jog!! 3km+!!

the sense of satisfaction(:

2day a veh veh cute girl told me this:
i saw someone in my school who looked like you!

me: really? u sure anot? look like me?

she: YES!! look like you! wear specs 1!

me: HUH?! den everyone who wear specs look like me den alot of people will look like me?!

den she juz grinned at me

(all this happened in chinese)

CUTE SIAA!!(:
& the fact that she actually "saw someone who looked like me" means dat she remembers me? i dunno, bt it sure feels nice & i felt so touched then(:



& also,

happy monthsary with work!!(:

a kid at my workplace, looks like chicken little!!
SERIOUSLY CUTEEE!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

ok i didnt really realise it till my colleague(sitting beside me) commented: 他很像chicken little hor?

den i was like
*looks*
*stares*
*bursts into laughter*

HAHAHAHA!!
he is sooooooooooooooo cute!! seriously innocent looking!!

i have quite alot of random fun moments at work!!(:

& de cutest colleague of mine looks like dine!!
omg makes me miss dine like siao.

as a friend, how much do i really mean to you?

cuz everything i know, it's from others? it's what i others tell me, then only do i get the news?
what happened to the friendship? where's it gone? or maybe i just don't mean that much to you, compared to the others?

(im not expecting a response because the person i'm directing this to probably doesn't read my blog.)




on a sidenote, i realised that i really have alot of areas i need to grow in.
especially punctuality and pride issues.

yes i DO have pride issues. but they aren't immediately obvious (or so i hope?)
but yes, as i reflect these past few days, i really have pride issues.
but it happens within me.

i have a very competitive streak in me.
sometimes i JUST CAN'T let anyone win me. or something like that.
but of course i know myself, that some things i just can't do well.
but in things that i think i'm quite okay in, most of the time i just can't let people win me.
so yes, i think i'm really quite a difficult person to live with and all that.

and another thing would be, i never like to say sorry.
& it's my pride that stops me.
although i'm okay with saying sorry to my friends, but seriously, when i need to say sorry to family, it's a whole different kettle of fish.

i need to muster up a whole lot of courage to say sorry, and to battle my pride.
of course another reason why i don't like to say sorry to my family is because its embarassing, sort of. because my family seldom?



okay, anyway, that's all.

this is so super random. & gonna be super short.
juz no mood 2 blog these few days

anyway, here's a song i like!!(:

There she goes by The La's
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xX9TDQcCyVE&feature=related&fmt=18

anyway apparently according 2 wiki, it sorta refers 2 a drug?
dun care. i like de song.
& i like guys who have veh smooth voices!!
HAHA!! ok this is so random.

there she goes~~

Sheila took down the hand bracing her cheek and folded her arms across her chest. Blowing the hair out of her face, she turned her head and looked over at me. "How come you did this? Came all this way out and got me?"
"Because I love you. Simple as that."

i wonder whether im breaching any copyright rules here tho. by typing 0ut a small paragraph of the book.

but i really like this part! & de previous one about the kiddo/lovey/tiger/sweetheat part.
seriously.
this book touches me.

current cravings: roti prata wif sugar; curry noodles; XIAOLONGBAO; icecream; a good book and a comfy chair to relax in(:and last but definitely NOT the least, EXERCISEEEEEEE!!♥
seriously!!
my world revolves around food!!
HAHA!!

& currently im very into exercising cuz seriously, exercise is so addicting!!
juz dat i always need people 2 accompany me. which is sorta weak.
owells

hahas 2 stalker songzhi, who commented "For awhile now, you had quite a few short posts. Something is bothering you?"
hahas

my reply!
i dunno. juz these few days like veh no mood liddat 1 leh. its not about uts tho.
dunno wad its about.
its the whole "I WANNA GO OVERSEAS!!" feeling all over again!!
& its de whole "moodless" kinda mood all over again. u'kno? juz totally dun feel like doing anything except eat & exercising & hanging 0ut wif beloved frenz.

& not 2 mention having bad stomachaches=(


hahas anyway
2day a bunch of us went 2 watch resident evil after our VERY LAST PAPER!! FINALLY!!
sat beside SP
who teased me abt my being scared after the movie.
he keep imitating my gasps when i was scared
EXCUUSE ME? i seldom wactch these kinda movies wad?!

hahas but owell
enjoyed it(:

2 my dearest craziest deanna, dun think so much okay?(:
but dun push urself 2 4gt. cuz by trying 2 not think, u're thinking!! (:
i haf awesome logic(:

& 2 my dearest siewpinggg, takecare ok!
no ice horlicks & such for u!!
nt till u get well!!(:
takecare girll!!(:


& 2 de 2 people who are going overseas for attachment; SP & eileen.

SP! he's a pig. who doesnt noe my blog so i can totally say bad things abt him!!
he asshole 1. oni gentlemanly when tipsy!!
but ok larh. caring all de same. a pig, but caring pig. at least i praise him!
takecare there!

eileen!
hahas japan. so gooooooooood. take care there & enjoy & haf fun there!! dun think too much larh. its gonna be a good experience(:
takecare there too!




hahas okay, bye again.
& my previous post really touches my heart.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!
seriously, i love sheila even tho it didnt turn out the way i wanted (life never does); even though she's not really the same person anymore; tho the book was quite a disappointment cuz i expected a happy ending.

but still, her childlikeness & her sincerity in juz wanting people 2 like her, juz touches me.
at the end of the day, even in the very worst kids, is someone who longs to be loved.



anyway,
there's a kid at work whom i really like.
cant name names etc-.- signed de contract
but i guess its ok 2 say y i like her?
she's reallllly smart!
as in she's really bright
& she's definitely gt high eq!! she can express herself very well. & she's smart. she's a very bright kid! dats y i like her alot!! cuz she speaks 2 every1 de same. she aint scared.

but i muz admit some of de kids who are very shy are REALLY CUTEE!! like they'll look so blur & totally "pinch-able"!! HAHA!!
ok. seriously. i do like kids!

was re-reading "THE TIGER'S CHILD"
which is a sequel 2 "ONE CHILD" which i loved

anyway, i read & this part hit me again
de last time i read i could really feel her sadness & i feel it again now

"That was different, kiddo. I was explaining," I said. "It wasn't just conversation."
"Why do you call me that?" Sheila asked abruptly, looking over at me.
"Call you what?"
"Kiddo. When I was little, you called me lovey. And tiger. And sweetheart.

What was I then that I'm not now?"

that portion i really felt her hurt and all. seriously.
haix.
ok! enough.
byeee(:

sometimes i cant help but to just feel a lil left out.

its 11:11. i wish i wont feel this way

i like really should update hor?

so ya, here's my swimming pics, from wednesday!!(:
i love swimming!!!!!♥

anyway, i wore my "im the evil twin" shirt. & zg wore "im with stupid"
never saw him wif dat shirt b4. new?

anyway den i wanted 2 take pic standing on his left (where the finger points to)
& tadah!!

zg & i
dun ask me y i so sot, wanna take dat. i find it funny tho!!(:

& den we changed & went 2 swim!! (we=me deanna zg)
de rest nt swimming (the rest=eileen SP dedrick liling)
anyway
den we decided 2 do jumpshots into de water, wif eileen as our cameraperson

ALL THE FAILED JUMPSHOTS!! HAHAHAHA!!
pics koped from deanna. & this pic oso compiled by deanna=D


finally a passable 1!! me & deanna oni=D


finally gave up & decided 2 haf a small competition between de 3 of us
see? dats us swimming

see? dats us stopping.
HAHAHAHAHA!! apparently zg's lane gt cut by deanna,whose lane gt cut by ME. HAHAHAHA!!
so we stopped & went 2 de other side of de pool whr we decided 2 CHOOSE 0ur lanes before swimming. so i took de 3rd, while zg took de 2nd & deanna de 1st

dats us finishing!! & YES I WON!! names in the picture courtesy of deanna again!!(:
see, IM FIRST!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!


& finally a passable zg jumpshot!


den went swimming. like REALLY swimming. i swam a total of 10laps!! excluding the race lap!!
yay!!
hahas really feels good!!
next times i go swimming its gonna be 15 laps!!
& den 20!!
hahahahaha!!
seriously, swimming aint dat tiring. nt as tiring as jogging

but when i finished my 10laps & went 0ut of the water 2 go over 2 de rest, my legs almost buckled under my weight!! like jelly-jelly
=D


& den we took pictures!!(:

me wif deanna=D juz realised dat both our upper thighs are really quite white. dun like. bleh.
HAHAHAHA!!


me wif zzg.


deanna wif zg, making funny faces HAHA!!


& here's de 3 of us, de 3 who swam!


another pic wif de 3 of us!! zg short. HAHA!!


& de 3 gals!! cuz eileen went suntanning=D


& another of us 3!!


deanna & i=D


deanna & i again, but i moved further behind=D


SP & i
SP is deanna's DARLING, my DEAR, and zg's BABY
HAHAHAHAHA!! long story. wanted 2 kajiao him. he said we're mad
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!


SP wif deanna=D


camwhoring in de toilet♥


TAN LINE!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ happy loads!!
deanna's expression is so cute!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
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ok i totally feel like going swimmming/ jogging. juz not working. damn. i hate work. im gonna try 2 persevere. but if i cant its goodbye work. won't care already la. u treat me like dat i'll treat u back like dat, my darling work.
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& i mixed up UT dates. thought wwt&genomics was wednesday.
WTH ITS TUESDAY!
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mixed up. now gotta ask 4 last min going 2 work late kinda thing. damn. i hate it. if they fire me im gonna be speechless. but i'll probably celebrate.

HAHA!!
OK! *stops*
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all in all, i wanna go swimming & jogging.
as zg aptly put it: exercise is addicting

I AGREE!!
(: