hellos its been a long time since i blogged..actually im still lazy 2 blog but vivien said she would flood me..but dats not the point im blogging coz i've got somethings 2 share about^^ (of course,duh! if not i wouldn't even bother 2 blog><)

anyway let's get started^^

hmmm i was doing the online application 4 poly admission & trust me i really thought very long & i did pray...i told liyan as well & she prayed 4 me over the phone..was so touched i cried..thanks liyan^^...i was so blur i actually thought all 12 choices HAD 2 b filled up..serious..it wasn't until at night when pamela told me she filled in oni 4 dat i realised how dumb i was...but nvm..dats melissa tan..u all gotta get used 2 it^^

anyway the thing is when i finally finished thinking about the choices,i went online 2 put in the choice thingie..ya..den guess wad? this com im using right now,THE INTERNET GOT PROB!! dun ask me y but it always screws up at the most crucial time..ya..

i PANICKED BIG TIME!!! & den since i had time,i went 2 bathe 1st,thinking perhaps the internet will b ok after i bathe..haha i was so worried i cried lehz>< anyway dat was when i was bathing..

den after dat still cannot..den i was so angry wif the com dat i scolded it(yes im liddat de..i mean u can't expect me 2 throw it right? so i had 2 content myself by scolding it)..den i suddenly remembered my sis' laptop password!!! YAY!!! but dat was after many unsuccessful tries lahz..but den i succeeded in the end!! YAY!! den i used my sis com 2 do my online application..^^ yay happy ending^^


a very different topic now: I WENT JOGGING YESTERDAY WIF MY SIS!! coz i didn't dare 2 b alone at home..haha^^
im sure if my coach saw me he'll b happy^^ i was in track last time btw^^ a while oni>< but i really enjoy being in track..the coach is very naggy tho..but sometimes i do miss his nagging dunno y lahz...juz because lorz..

but if my coach saw me 2day he'll sure shake head de...i couldnt even sit down fast lehz coz now my muscle very tired..>< sigh..but coach! im sure u're happy i actually went jogging right?! haha^^imagine i said dat 2 him...he'll kill me..jog 1 time pains all over still so proud?! haha^^ but nvm he dunno wad :P


yet another very different topic!!

i really love my sisters in christ & my very own sister!!
they r my blessings..ALOT of coz there r alot of them..yes even my dear sis..tho sometimes i think she's a blessing in disguise..too well disguised dat she dun seem like a blessing at all..but nah! I LOVE YA,JIE^^

i think i've really been blessed alot lahz!! really..

my own sis ah..when my Os she wished me good luck she gave me good luck charm & even helped me in my choosing courses time...THANKS JIE^^ heehee:P

heys..got back my Olevel results 2day..

i dunno whther 2 laugh or 2 cry.....

my prelims & my Olevels L1R4 & L1R5 r BOTH 18 & 24 respectively..

i improved in a few subs but dropped in others..dunno lehz i really felt like crying when my mom talked 2 me..tho i oso felt like laughing(my mom was so blur!! i had 2 tell her a few times b4 she actually remembered wad L1R4 was lahz..she thought it was 4 jc admission de..she was so happy she thought i could go jc..sigh><)

im so touched by my sis!! she gave me an anklet yesterday as a 'good luck charm'..so nice anklet somemore^^ thanks^^ & 2day she told me good luck..i feel so bad i never wished her good luck nor gave her anything during her Olevels getting results time..sigh..><

HAHA MY TEACHER GAVE US CHOC!! toblerone..hahas^^ but it was a bit melty..><

i think i most sad is my comb humanities!! i mean i really worked hard 4 my lit & i can seriously & truthfully say dat..but i didn't do very well..i hope its bcoz of my ss & not bcoz of my lit dat i got c5...so pathetic..i oso hoped my english was better coz i love english..><

here r my marks:
ENGLISH B3
COMBINED HUMANITIES C5
MATHEMATICS B3
ADD. MATHEMATICS C6
BIOLOGY B4
SCIENCE(PHY/CHEM) B3
CHINESE C6 (i take 2 times oso same grade..waste my time..but i enjoyed getting taught by mdm ho^^)
CHINESE(ORAL/AURAL) PASS

yups dats it..pls keep bad comments 2 urself but helpful comments i dun mind^^

MY RESULTS R COMING OUT 2MORROW!!

im scared..

oh ya! my sis bought me a cross anklet 4 a good luck charm^^
was so touched^^ but nopes i didn't cry..dun wan lahz she c me cry so many times..i think she c me cry c until sian liao..hahas^^ but really very touched^^

yuppsie 2morrow's D-DAY

dis com ah..on more den 30mins den can use lahz..so lag somemore..all the stupid virus stuff..dunno lahz dis com is gonna die soon lorz..

anyways 24th jan..muz write down in diary!!

my Olevel results r coming out on the 24th of jan..

dunno whether i should b happy or sad..i mean i've been waiting 4 quite some time 4 dis so i should b happy its finally here but den im sad coz i noe dat im getting my results & my parents & everybody is gonna nag..

i hope i can go out wif pam on dat day but she says c her mood..sigh..

its like im so far from her lahz..when im free she's not when she's finally free im seldom free..SIGH..T.T

but she's my only best fren & i dun wanna lose this best fren..........

heys there!

i hate the fish tanks at home!! i think they r breeding mozzies or something,& NO IM NOT JOKING..i've got 8 mozzie bites on 1 leg..lucky the other leg oni got 1..mayb my blood is sweeter on my left..hahas^^

anyway the thing is any1 in their right mind wont ever buy so many fishes and:

#1-stink up the whole house..seriously it stinks..& once was worse,the stupid & ugly & big catfish jumped outta the fish tank & stank the whole place & anyway my dad had 2 carry it 2 the near pond,the big big 1 near the safra..haha i think its just retribution i seriously dun like fishes they juz plain dumb but they got a life as well..poor things,i feel dat my dad tortures them in their tanks..

#2-breed dumb mozzies..seriously it's not oni me..mayb u think its coz i go out & all dat but NO my sis oso..it's too much of a coincidence right?

#3-flood up the house sometimes..really lahz it floods at the worst times,when we're sleeping,when HE isn't home so my sis & i haf 2 clear up 4 HIM..anyway my sis suffered more den me coz once i wasn't home..

#4-& haf me & my sis hate those poor lil fishes..i've got nothing much against those fishes actually it's not their choice 2 b caught & imprisoned in a bigfish tank,but wif so many others dat it seems small after dat..geez..><

im gonna scratch myself 2 bed man..><

& GUESS WAD?! EVERY SINGLE MORNING I WAKE UP I GOT STOMACHACH!! so dumb..wad a dumb thing 4 my stomach 2 do..acting up when i could laze in bed..><

but hey dun get me wrong i love my own family as well tho sometimes i feel like i really really hate them but its oni temporal & i really love them

my mom she really really cares alot..the thing i rmb most about her is the fact dat when im VERY sick she sleeps in the living room wif me coz i cant sleep aircon..& i really really love my mom's cooking^^ i dun enjoy her nagging tho><

my sis she wans 2 help me in my studies but my pride stops me from going 2 her 4 help..tsk>< & she cares as well..she asked me 2 find a job so i wont b lazying ard everyday so i asked joan if i could work at her workplace but i haven ask her if really got space anot

my dad he often buys stuff 4 me tho outta 10 things perhaps oni 2 i need/want..but i rmb him the most is scolding me><><

but i muz say sometimes i tend 2 take dis family of mine 4 granted & not appreciate them><

I LOVE MY FAMILY!!! APPRECIATE THEM ALWAYS!!!!

its 2008 n im almost 1 year old in christ le..

in 2007 alot of things happened..like really alot..
i 'quarrelled' wif pam..actually didn't really quarrel..i like 2 think its cold war coz she never talk2 me at all dun ask me wad we 'quarrelled' about i dunno either

but anyway in 2007 i think i really grew up..no im still short & still childish..makes me feel younger perhaps?^^

anyway in 2007 i learnt alot from yhope & the wonderful people there

i learnt 2 depend on God & not on my own strength..really..i remember i prayed 4 bus alot of time..& i always c the bus when i open my eyes^^

i learnt how 2 speak up..really..i dun like people 2 look at me when i talk nor listen 2 me unless it's like crap lahz..but sometimes got testimony 2 share or all dat or lead 1 cg role or something den i always very scared but always i will haf encouragements b4 dat de..thanks people^^

i learnt a bit 2 talk 2 contacts & newbies..coz i dunno them very well usually i dun talk 2 them but den sometimes haf 2 take care of them i always at a loss as 2 wad 2 do but den luckily always got some1 else 2 guide me..heehee^^

i learnt 2 outreach..i last time dun dare outreach de coz i think very scary..dun get me wrong lahz i still think its scary but its a different fear now..last time is i fear wad the ppl would think of me..but now i fear rejection..which leads me 2 my next learning point......

i learnt 2 take rejection as something normal..although i still get very disappointed when i get rejected when i ask ppl 2 help me do the survey dat the cg members made..

i learnt 2 open up & not bottle up my feelings..i haf my beloved shepherd & cg members 2 turn 2^^ & i really appreciate them 4 the help they haf given me

i learnt 2 crap more..uh oh! hahas but it's all learnt from northa1!! hahas^^

other den learning there r some other stuff:

i noe dat there r alot of lovely gals out there who used 2 b totally unrelated 2 me but now we r sisters in christ^^

i had alot of fun wif the silly gals in northa1 & i enjoy all our outings/events

i haf a ministry & i REALLY LOVE IT!! it's real fun^^



I LOVE YOU ALL!! APPRECIATE U ALL ALWAYS!!

i've been pretty lazy 2 blog but well..hahas..i've always been lazy

going escape wif pamela 2morrow..im drifting further & further away from pamela & as much as i try it doesn't seem 2 bring our frenship closer nor like the last time..

when she suggested escape theme park i was like "WOW! finally i can spend some time wif her juz 2 do wad we did last time!!"
DON'T GET ME WRONG
melissa tan is not a lesbian & never was,so if u're entertaining such thoughts in ur mind..
trash them

but she dropped a bombshell onto me: no it was not gonna b juz pam n me it was going 2 b pam,yb,wh,perhaps aaron n den me..goodness i think my heart juz stopped beating then..

much as i would like 2 deny it,i admit..yes i AM jealous dat pam n yb is getting on so well..n i dun seem 2 b in her plans 4 2008..its like she was my best fren & yet now im juz another fren 2 her,1 she contacts juz 2 ask if can go escape anot,juz so dat there will b more ppl going..i dunno if dat is true anot..but i doubt it

but once she called me she said something dat i doubt she rmbs but i rmb it VERY clearly..
she called me n said: i've got bad news 4 u..ur good fren has bcome a flirt..i immediately noticed the word GOOD..not best fren,good fren..
so is dat all i m 2 her? i dunno & i hope not bcoz really..i really love her as a fren

as a matter of fact,i love yb alot as well..sure im jealous of their frenship getting so close but dat dun mean i haf 2 b jealous of her..

no,she's 1 of the warmest person i've ever met,& in my whole entire life she was the VERY 1ST person 2 ever hug me & i'll 4ever appreciate her n rmb her 4 giving me dat bit of show of love n care n concern,coz it was at a very nervous time

but im really sad,each time everytime we plan 2 go out pam will always include yb in..& each time it hurts a little,a little,a little & the pain adds & adds & adds..

i really dunno y im saying dis now,bcoz i noe i'll always haf my shepherd 2 turn 2 4 help,but somehow it's hard 2 tell her coz it's juz so complicated it would start from my quarrel wif pam & it would continue wif alot of '& den..& den..& den's

sorrie shepherd..

im going escape wif them 2morrow..will i b left out? i can't help but feel dat i will,& if the rides r 4 2 ppl im gonna b e 1 left w/o a partner & i'll sit on the ride alone,crying 2 myself yet hiding the tears..

i got hungry 2day at around 5 plus..& i knew dat there were frozen packets of seafood gyozas in the fridge but i had 2 fry them up myself

i've always been scared of fire & there are oni 2 reasons y i ever go near fires(im talking about tiny ones here,not those dat can kill)

reason #1:
practicals of course! it's terrible dat we haf 2 on the fires & heat stuff up,couldn't they haf some other way of finding out wad the substance is? anyway they already noe so y need us 2 do it?
im VERY scared of fire..

reason #2:
when im hungry,& the fire is limited as well,limited 2 frying eggs,coz eggs dun splatter oil ard..ask my sis,sometimes she even has 2 fry eggs 4 me coz im really scared..

but my sis wasn't at home when i was hungry & anyway when she was home & i said i was hungry she asked me 2 make food myself T.T
my sis went 2 watch the countdown,liyan asked me 2 go but i dun feel like going i'll rather stay at home & haf lots of space 2 run ard in,coz i dun exactly like crowded places,dats 1 reason y i dun like shopping as well,but anyway dats not the point..

so i was hungry & needed food & i did NOT feel like eating fried egg,juz bcoz i didn't feel like eating egg..cravings 4 the seafood gyoza i guess..dumb stomach of mine..

so anyway i had 2 do it myself & i was really scared..
after placing the gyozas into the pan i turned on the fire,and den i crawled up my sink so i could see my food & b a good distance away from it at the same time,yes dats how scared of the fire i m
den of course u gotta turn the gyoza so it wont b burnt 1 side & uncooked the other 2 sides right? armed wif the lid of the pan as my shield from flying oil,i turned the fire smaller & den i slowly turned the gyozas,& some splattered..which made me run far away..b4 i went back 2 turn the others,thus some were burnt on some sides..><

but the thing is i managed 2 do it!! omit the part where i almost shouted & many times i ran away from the pan..I AM SUCCESSFUL!!

the oni bad thing is dat by the time i actually finished cooking it(i used the small fire almost all the time),i wasn't really hungry anymore..
wad's worse,the gyozas didn't exactly taste good & the chilli was very hot so i had 2 drink alot of water & the water bloated me up more den the gyozas did..but oh well..

my debut attempt at anything other den egg..yay!!
would love 2 reward myself wif choc but im having cough so cant T.T

MELISSA SUCCESSFULLY COOKED HER FOOD!!