i realised dat whenever im sick i always haf a "i wan a bf!!" feeling. seriously. & when i was feeling like cui oni yesterday (fever, my mummy say quite hot) den i went thinking and i realised why.

its cuz i wan some1 who'll b thr 2 like take care of me, pick me up from work when im feeling blah, put a cold towel on my forehead, accompany me till i sleep. hahahahas. i think too much la hor? kinda impossible. yea. i always wan a bf bt. always gt bt. hahas. guys i like never ever like me back. currently no guy dat i like. feels good cuz i dun cry abt guys nt liking me. but yet sad cuz i wan a bf but no name 2 insert in. hahas

de feeling is like on and off. makes me kinda wonder tho. when will i ever get a bf? like suree, my sis says i'll probably settle down and get married before her or haf kids before her but still. NO GUY, DAMMIT!! HAHA!! even if im more likely 2 settle down before her, still gt no guy rite. plus she gt stable bf alr leh. nvm la. at her wedding i make sure i catch de wedding bouquet can alr. they say catch alr will get married next rite??? HAHA!!

aiyeer. im getting real despo. HAHAHA!!

but actually not really. after i recovered i ok alr. keep wanting 2 exercise. mayb i like exercise so much cuz its something i can really control. studies i cant control. gt external factors like other students(competitors), grading systems etc, falling in love/getting attached i cant control. guy muz like me back 1st den gt ending rite?

but exercise i can push myself and challenge my limits and beat myself. (: