not in a mood to be trifled with.


Dear sickness,
Why don't you just kill me? I personally feel that it is a better option as compared to torturing me.
Love, Me.


i HATE my cough ok. it's really getting on my nerves. i hate my body.





on a sidenote, i really felt very loved yesterday

was after school & i went wif brendan (he same class as me) 2 find de rest.

so they were at e5 thr. & i went thr 2 find them

den when i reached & saw them (they hadn't seen me) i shouted "HELLOOO!!"
& den kerenia & dedrick heard & turned & gave me smiles!=D

den siewping saw me & she shouted "MEL!" & waved frantically (ok i wont really say frantically. but i dont know how 2 describe. waved energetically?)

& den deanna saw me & said "MEL!! I MISS U!"


yeps, i totally felt loved by all their random actions♥

saw this on weiloong's fb status.
totally agrees wif it!!

Age 4: we think: Mom knows everything!
At 8: Mom knows a lot!
At 12: Mom doesn't really know everything..
At 14: Mom doesn't know anything.
At 16: Mom doesn't exist......
At 18: She's old fashioned.
At 25: Maybe mom does know about this!
At 35: Before we decide, let's ask mom.
At 45: Wonder what mom thinks about this.
At 75: I wish I could ask mom about this..

i have the best mum in the world!! to me anyway!♥

i loooove my mama!!♥

but seriously? my mom doesnt fit EVERYTHING. my mom's 1 of my closest confidants(:

currently listening to 3 songs on repeat

你不知道的事, Only me when i'm with you, you belong with me


hahas
seriously, i really love them!

你不知道的事's cuz i heard it being played in the library piano 2day. & had a bad craving 2 listen 2 it. hahas. so listened 2 it on repeat


den i missed taylor's songs. especially those 2

ESPECIALLY only me when i'm with you!!
brings back fond memories(:

whenever i listen 2 dat song, it brings me back 2 when i was having attachment at PUB
when i was still in tings cg
when i had a crazily awesome time in genting wif a crazily awesome clique
when i went out alot wif my dearest dumbs!♥
when i went out wif my bestie pam too!

miss those times like crap.

when i felt like myself
(:

been randomly liking lotsa stuffs on likilicious, some fb page.

i think some things really make me go "aww"
or nod in agreement

so since fb page will change everyday, so i decided 2 blog them up, so when im old & grey i can look back and nod again. HAHA!!


It's impossible." said pride.
"It's risky." said experience.
"It's pointless." said reason.
"Give it a try." whispered the heart♥


Dear Brain, sorry for overloading you.
Dear Tummy, sorry for the butterflies.
Dear Pillow, sorry for the tears.
Dear Heart, sorry for all the damage..


We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart?
Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find♥


Someone asked me,
"Why do you love him so much?"
But before i could even reply
My best friend put her hand over my mouth, and said..
"Don't even get her started."


There's always gonna be that one boy, who drives you insane, is a huge pain in the ass, you get angry at him for the stupidest things, act like a bitch towards him for no reason.. but deep down you'll always love him♥


me: i don't like him, i don't like him i don't like him, i don't like him, i don't like him.
friend: yes you do.
me: (sigh) i know:(


What is love?
In math, a problem. In history, a battle. In science, it's a reaction. In art, it's a ♥. But to me? Love always will and simply be YOU. ♥

24oct was nikerun!!(:

LOVE IT!! HAHA!!

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woke up super tired. like super no mood 2 run sia. bt den mom dragged me outta bed. had 2 wad. i paid 27bucks leh. if never go super not worth?

.

anyway, took 1st train 2 cityhall 2 meet dat pig zg. SO MANY PEOPLE ON TRAIN WEARING DE BRIGHT YELLOW SHIRT!! HAHA!! i see already i quite paiseh, cuz im nt a good runner den see every1 like professional runners liddat.

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msg zg telling him dat. insecure ma!
den he tell me nvm, he see alot of potential big walkers.

HAHA!! damn mean. he call them big walkers.

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met him at cityhall. he wanted 2 go SHIT. bt den i reached. so met him 1st. den went toilet. i had 2 wait 4 him. tsk. ungentleman sia he.

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den after dat we follow de crowds 2 de starting point, cuz i didnt noe how 2 get thr.

put bag deposit etc already, den off 2 de starting point!!

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stupid zg. say take picture, he keep missing. den blur. den oni take de top of our heads. or oni take his face cuz he angle wrongly. in de end de people behind us offered 2 help us take. he stubborn. dont wan. make me smile so long. HAHA!!

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FINALLY AN OKAY PICTURE!

den de race started!! ran off. den zg suddenly stop. his pants loose-.- hahas so he stopped 2 tie while i ran off. he gonna overtake me anyway! might as well get a headstart rite!

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den after dat ran. had stomachache throughout. stomach churning all de way l0r! stopped at abt 4km there. after dat was walk run walk run already. bt i really enjoy de entertainment!! they really motivated me!! especially de hiphop 1 and de ard 7km there dat 1!! de afro hairstyles~~ hahas!!

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den finally reached de ending there. sprinted de last 200m again, bt got blocked by others JUST BEFORE THE FINISHING LINE. DAMMIT!! made me pissed.

HAHAHAHA!!

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den wandered off 2 collect de finishers stuffs, de drinks, and 2 find zg.

i went wrong place-.- i thought de grassy area was de bag deposit area-.-

finally found him, nua there veh long.

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den took pictures! again alot of blurred and misfocused and wrong angle

ME!

yes im totally proud of myself!! HAHA!! & i got my timing. ITS FASTER!! damn happy!!

1 hour 12 min 25 sec!

HAPPYYYYYYYYYYY!!(:
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den we decided 2 go like ALL DE WAY 2 suntec 2 eat.

bt 1st, change and powder bath!!

i put lotsa powder & i think i smelt awesome!!(: HAHA!!

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i kept telling zg "i smell very good!!"

after sniffing myself.

den after awhile, "i REALLY smell good!"

HAHAHA!! he super sian diao. cuz i keep telling him

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den cuz we didnt wanna eat mac brekkie (i had craving for fries), so we literally sat on a bench and stone.

talk super random stuffs

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den went carrefour cuz we were really hungry. bought sausage & zg bought 100plus. siao 1. wont sick of 100plus. run alr drink so much 100plus alr sia.

den nua awhile longer on de same bench & den went off

ate mac, bt no appetite.

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i won an instant prize in de monopoly thing!! 1-for-1 4 singapore flyer. den zg say"i thought student price its oni like 10bucks?"

make me so sad. 2 students price is cheaper den paying for 1 adult price-.-

bt nvm. nt like im gonna go take flyer anyway!

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den we went home!

walked past de area wif de fishies

& zg took picture of hermit crab-.-

& tagged me on fb. he tagged me as a crab-.-

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den yesterday, he told me his "strategy" for running-.-

& here it is:

i see already i KEEP LAUGHING!!

like seriously dumb?! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

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so i told myself i MUST blog abt it. cuz he so kuku.

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okay! im supposed 2 be like doing ws. bye!(:

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all in all, i loved the nike run(:

& i hated de tee at 1st sia! bt now i love it!!(:

i should update(:

so i shall(:

anyway, sunday (17oct 2010) was my realrun!! 10km!! my 1st 10km run!! so proud of myself!! *pats back* goodjob mel! goodjob!!(:

anyway~
it was really tiring!!

but here's my timing!!

Rank:
377

MELISSA TAN
SINGAPOREAN

Start time:
07:36:01

1st checkpoint:
00:33:41

Rank at 1st checkpoint:
456

2nd checkpoint:
00:57:01

Rank at 2nd checkpoint:
393

3rd checkpoint:
01:23:22

End time:
01:31:04


seriously!! HAHA!! (okay anyway "3rd checkpoint" is basically the net time taken. means my end time minus my start time cuz we started late cuz we were waay behind. so we heard de race start & den we were stuck behind.

anyway! im really proud of myself!! & as u can see, my rank improved!! (de 377 is my final rank, and u can see from 1st checkpoint till 2nd checkpoint i improved!! HAPPY!!)

sprinted the last 200m & seriously, its really the most awesome feeling ever!! the feeling of crossing the finishing line is really omg-ish-ly awesome!!


went 2 find de rest at the place were we said to meet. HAHA!! i was SOOOOOOOO HAPPY DAT I FINISHED THE RUN!!

seriously, nt easy 4 me since i've NEVER run 10km before. never trained dat much b4. at most when ran wif de rest was like 6km or something.

so its really a feat!!(:


& den collected my bag from bag deposit. & checked my hp(:
bt no i didnt go find my fren cuz he refused 2 come find me! ya seriously i did wanna see him bt no. i aint gonna go find him. especially when I was tied up and HE wasnt?! no way man. hahas

den collected my race goodies!! HAPPY!! & de wonders of being tiny. XS queue was so short! M and L were like winding all around. had 2 wait 4 de rest(:

pics up on fb! lazy 2 post them up.
& dat jinghao ah. cuz we had terrain which was sand. & his shoe had sand in it (we all had)
he went 2 shake the sand onto my shoe bag!! HAHA!! started whacking him.

he sotsot already.

bt anyway!
den we went off 2 washup etc. de guys washup. i didnt. how 2 sia. i seriously dunno.

brendan went off by den. he went off 1st. dunno y tho.

den jinghao lend me his spray deodorant. i didnt noe how 2 use it den i was trying 2 figure it out den he sian diao, grabbed the can away from my hands & spray my back.
den i scream
den he spray my arm.
den i laugh
den he spray my another arm
den i laugh and scream

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!



den after dat was lining up 4 de shuttle bus back 2 pasir ris!
damn super duper long

i rested on de bus, was really tired!!
woke up at 415 ma.

den went foodcourt eat. couldnt even eat nice food. ate fishball noodles.HAHA!! super bland.

den every1 went their seperate ways alr. went wif zg & dedrick cuz had 2 collect racebib 4 nikerun wif zg. so went his house bathe.

he veh idiot l0r. never tell me his house gt 1 clock spoilt. den de clock look so nice so i keep lookin at it 4 de time. den it was 11+

so i thought 2 bathe faster incase the water hot ma. u'kno, noon time veh hot ma.

den after dat i hijacked his com 2 use & refused 2 bathe 1st. so he go bathe. den i see de time still 11+?!

den see his com time. it was 2plus-.- wad theeeee!

den we went off 2 get our nikerun stuff. he pig. i tell him i noe whr is orchard central he refuse 2 believe. den try 2 google search. go dunno whr. nt even singapore.

den he finally believe me, den say 1st time i useful.
ASSHOLEEEEE.

HAHA!! IM SO GONNA BEAT U AT NIKERUN OK PIGG!! JUZ U WAITTT!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!


o. we climbed stairs like 2 old people liddat. de mrt station there de. really like sore!!
bt now mine okay. muahaha. see my recovery so good. confirm means im gonna beat him.
HAHAHAHA!!

ok bt i cant la. bt i really hope 2 better my timing!! i canNOT do worse. bt im juz afraid i cant.
owell.
see how ba=D


sun nite still hadda go grandma house 4 grandpa bdae. in de end didnt eat much & didnt sing bdae song 4 him cuz de incense in the house made me cough nonstop had 2 go outta de house 2 hide from the choke-i-ness. something liddat? cuz it irritated my airway.

& my fren sent me my timing and helped me check all de rest de timings so i sent them de timings. so sweet?(:

HAHA. okay. anyway, nitez(:

3 funny incidents at work 2day!!(:


1stly was a preschooler who was waiting 4 his parents 2 come fetch him.
he is super cute, smart but real naughty
den he was wandering around instead of sitting down 2 wait
den he walked near the door & de door opened & more students came in
den he "ah!" & stood there staring at them. SERIOUSLY CUTE!! especially since he's so small and de kids coming in were much bigger den him.
DAMN CUTEEEE!!

after dat he was asked 2 SIT DOWN and wait 4 his parents. den i heard him saying "teacher can you read to me pleasee?"
omg so cute!!(:


2ndly was a preschooler came in, small boyboy.
den after dat the teacher told him "take off ur shoes~"
den he started adjusting his pants
den she was like "ask u take off ur shoes, not ur shorts!"
HAHA & den i laughed aloud=X
AHAHAHA bt it was really funny!!


3rdly was a kid was doing his work. den suddenly he said (in quite a loud voice) "COCKROACH LEG!"
den the WHOLE room turned quiet & turned 2 look at him
den my colleagues & i were wondering whether its eraser dust anot (i mean, if gt cockroach leg means needa haf cockroach rite? & there's obviously no cockroach ma)
den after dat the teacher went 2 see & laughed & said it was eraser dust.
laughed like mad!! HAHAHAHAHA!!



ok seriously, i quite enjoy work now(:
except the waking up early on saturday part. HAHAHAHA!!
needs my sleep man.

2morrow, realrun! hope i get better & hope i run well!!
(:

2day at work, i had a coughing fit. i've termed it coughing fit anyway.

so i coughed like mad for quite a long time, and my colleague beside me was really quite shocked

& den she was asking me stuffs & i was trying 2 answer. HAHA!! quite funny. den another colleague ask me whether its tuberculosis. HAHA!! 2nd person ok.

anyway, after dat i coughed till i really sweated alot & my neck was rashy.
& my colleague was like aiyo.. u cough till ur neck red already leh

den she took the worksheet she was marking and started fanning me wif it (HAHA she's like supposed 2 mark it asap de l0r!!)

& seriously, i really felt so loved(:

tho actually i shouldn't be fanned cuz it would be colder & i would cough more (bt i didnt, coughing fit was over), but i seriously think its so sweet of her!!

& i dont even noe my colleagues very well, yet they care so much.

yes, i seriously felt very loved 2day at work.

thanks LY!!♥

sometimes i really do wonder whether i do matter. or not.


no need to reply to this or watsoever(: im not trying 2 get people 2 tell me i matter and all dat. im juz thinking aloud(:

2day its 1st day back at school.
school is a horror. seriously

i coughed like nobody's business, cough ever other second and all dat. someone talk i confirm cough. really i dun wan de l0r. i think its rude but i really cant control

den i had my horribly painful stomachaches again. not been having them for really long.
in de end it was explosive diarrhea at home. but dats not the point

den after dat was work. like hell
my stomach was still painful like crap
& den coughing like really mad

like seriously.
i really cant stand it anymore. its making me lose sleep, and my appetite. really bad.
like HELLO? im skinny enough already please. i dont NEED loss of appetite.

really bad this time


eileen's coming 2 work on friday(:
but im really worried. wad if i dont recover? den i think i would wanna stop for awhile. yet they're getting shorthanded i think

owell. see how. cuz i really dont wanna spread it 2 de kids.



& 2day i was telling me mom: "there's this kid at (the place i work), she's really very cute! she's always smiling and her hairstyle is so cute!! short hair, and her face is so adorable!!(:
and she's really ALWAYS smiling. how come she always seem so happy? how come i dont ever seem happy nowadays?"

really got me quite sad actually. how come? how come kids are so cheerful and all?

my mom replied saying i was really a happy kid when i was young (ya & a veh naughty 1 as well)

i wish i didnt grow up. haix.

been sick!
ever since sunday when i went jogging wif de 3 of them

see doc twice already sia

anyway saturday was work & on friday i had really bad sorethroat.
like couldnt really swallow.
& i was feeling so sick i really didnt wanna go 2 work at all

but in de end still gotta rite?
unless i lose my voice (which i was really hoping i would)

but anyway i reached
& they put me in grp2. meaning, preschoolers.
WAD THE?!

i mean yes they're cute but i noe its gonna be super tough handling them

a colleague was 2 help me 0ut (she did all de major stuffs, i took oni 3 kids she took the rest, abt 7 kids)

it was HELL.

seriously?
i took 1 girl rite b4 my lunch. so when she leaves (abt 1245), i can go lunch.
she talks ALOT.
seriously ALOT.

she told me she's having flu, den say her brother having flu, den after dat say her finger pain, den show me her finger, de nail injured.
den after dat she go wash hand
den wash already dry her hand den say she use soap etcetc
den after dat she went 2 throw de tissue & talked 2 dat STUPID OLD AUNTIE THERE WHO DOESNT DO WORK
& den she came back & told me abt her mechanical pencil
den show me de price den write de price on her classwork
den i ask her 2 do classwork she go take out her ruler & ask me whether i noe who gif her
den i say dunno she starts telling me her church gif, she dance at her church blahblahblah


OMGGG
after dat i finally managed 2 escape at abt 1, & went 2 find my colleagues who were lunching
immediately started complaining!!
HAHA!!

i seriously dislike teaching grp2. cute from far.
now i like marking math de most. english sucks oso, wif de auntie.
i saturday assigned 2 preschoolers i went 2 help english still cannot.
like hello? u go ard help de students for wad? its independant learning duh~
oni wanna slack oni. mark oso mark so long
i help u mark still say i mark wrong ask me 2 ammend. wad the?!

den always "i HINGE him i HINGE him" speak properly la asshole.

URGH hates her.
i was having a fricking headache already, still helping 2 mark english den can hear her annoying voice teaching de kids.
buay tahan



after dat went 2 see doc at silver cross
WTHHH expensive max

doctor's PROFESSIONAL fees alone, 28bucks
wth rite?! even tho de doc goodlooking la ah, but it doesnt justify for the hefty amount?!
i wouldnt pay so much more juz cuz he goodlooking?! too bad de doc i always go 2 was closed.

but pam once told me dat she go see silvercross den veh fast recover. hope its de same 4 me!

cuz i needa recover by next sunday 17oct so i can go de run. realrun. else my mom wont allow=(


den went home sleep, dinner, den sleep again
cannot tahan. still sick now=(



& yes, my new classes seem veh shitty. damn leo. our last sem still dun wanna let us enjoy. urgh. pissed sia. i HATE RP.

my blog's been anything but interesting recently. like so dead-ish. nothing going on liddat

anyway,
saturday deanna has bbq but i didnt go cuz i had ushering (meaning i'll reach veh late) and den i cant reach home too late (meaning i cant stay for long). add in the time taken 2 travel i would probably be *reach* HI! then like 30mins later gtg alr.

anyway, den sunday a bunch of us went 2 collect out race bibs for the realrun run.
4 of us

zg reached novena first. den he went 2 walkwalk cuz every1 was late

i reached at like 310. bt couldnt find him cuz he was walking ard. & cuz i couldn't hear him on my phone (i think my phone really getting old & abit defective) so i had 2 wander ard de mrt station till he came.
he dumbo, go tap my shoulder den run off. i turn immediately see him running off 2 hide behind a pillar-.-

so of cuz i followed. den after dat we walkwalk ard cuz brendan & dedrick hadn't reached.
he go show me de shoes he like, den after dat nothing 2 do so went bk 2 eat. like pigs hor? nothing 2 do jiu eat. o.0

shared a meal, den brendan & dedrick reached
apparently they reached awhile before but didnt noe where we were (& didnt call?) & den waited downstairs or smt. till brendan came 2 ask where we were den they came up 2 find us

den we went 2 collect racebib.
collected 4 dat pig SP as well.
but didnt for jh cuz we didnt haf his form nor his ic.

den went 2 get some free dunno wad thing. feels abit gross 2 me. according 2 zg its like jelly liddat, something 2 like gif us energy 4 our run. i still think its gross.

den we went off 2 zg house 2 put our bags b4 going jogging

brendan went 2 see doc, but doc closed, but we waited 4 him at zg's house
watched tv!! i refuse 2 go change, keep asking every1 else 2 go change 1st cuz i wanted 2 watch de show. thought it end at 6 ma! so can watch awhile. in de end it ends at 630.
of cuz didnt watch till 630 l0r=(

went jog
jogjogjog den reach ecp.
sat on de nicenice grass & space out

seriously its a nice place 2 go to(:
veh relaxing(:

den we jogged back
raced zg abit, he was shocked dat i was almost beside him
den he like "wah!" den ran off faster
den made me laugh
so i slowed down while he speeded up-.-

hahas den went back 2 zg house, den take turns bathing
i force every1 2 bathe 1st. again. HAHAHAHA!!

den dinnered & den home(:



& den reached home, kept coughing
de whole nite cough cough cough
didnt sleep till 4 plus!! like omg.

finally slept, den 5plus wake up 2 pee-.-

den went back slp till 11plus
den my throat hurt
tried 2 talk & my voice was like super de duper hoarse

diee. how 2 go work liddat?
if i talk 2 de kids they'll freak out l0r?!

so called my mom telling her i'll go doc
& den i was so tired i lie down on the mattress in the living room & slept abt 45mins
den dragged myself up 2 prepare 2 go see doc


gt 2days mc, so 2days off from work. den bought my lunch & went back 2 eat
bought porridge. bt in de end didnt even eat half. no appetite

den ate meds & called my workplace
told them etcetc.
they say friday bring the mc let them see

so no work 2day & 2morrow.
2morrow still gt fyp.
i see how 1st
if my cough still bad i go lab no use, alvin'll chase me out i think.
later de cell culture lab beside kena contaminated sia.

see how 2morrow.
i dun think i can tho
but seriously see how ba

since i oni left little bit of supplement, cant test much oso. so still okay la.


& i had a short nap & den my throat is like cmi.
=(



sometimes i really dont understand my dad.
obviously im sick (im coughing)
u heard my voice, u noe its bad
so obviously my throat hurts

so why keep asking me qns so i haf 2 keep answering?
& when i answer he doesnt even care, like my answer he doesnt even hear
but if i dun answer he'll ask again
wad is wrong wif him sia

my throat hurts like crap.

2day was work again!

after fyp.
i think its cuz im having my time of the month now, thus been quite cranky and been real tired.
having diarrhea yesterday didn't help of course. makes it worse.

seriously, been really exhausted after fyp. muz be no stamina already or something lah.
i got dog tired after everything!! even 2day, when i reached lab close to 11 and left at like 1230.
seriously.

i was so tired dat after reaching home i juz KO on the bed till 415. had 2 wake up 2 go work.
but now i dun dread work that much anymore. dunno. muz be the kids and the colleagues!! so niice(: [of cuz there is an EXCEPTION]

i was SO tired i could barely keep my eyes open when going home. seriously. issit old age catching up or smt?

anyway~
2day, wellington bear was so cute!! (read some posts back & u'll understand wads the reason behind calling the id wellington bear. hmm. duh. cuz he looks like him!! ok im talking 2 myself)

anyway~
wellington bear finished his stuffs
so i told him "go sweep ur table, then u can go(:"
den he blurblur 1
den he "okay"
den he went 2 sit down at his table, den look at me
den i was thinking WHY ON EARTH is he sitting there when he can GO OFF?
den i made de sweeping motion 2 him

den he still sit there, blurblur stare at me

den i told him "ask u SWEEP ur table, not SIT AT ur table~"
& den my colleagues burst out laughing

i dun think de boss was exactly happy, mayb they think i bullying him, but seriously i didnt l0r. & i think he's so cute!!
den he swept his table & went 2 see the teacher

but he's damn cute!! everytime u ask him something he will "ahhhh..(then gives answer)"
VERY LONG!! & sometimes quite loud, but really makes me wanna laugh cuz its so cute!!♥

hahas okayokay
end of story
bye!
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