muz blog abt mister zhu ziguang
(:

HAHAHAHA!!

note: he is purely a vvvvvvv gd fren. nothing else. so dun get stumbled by this post!!

2day i met wif his fyp team, along wif dedrick & deanna as well, 2 help deva's fyp thingie
measure foot arch
& get CE points!! i confirm g0 de l0r!! i neeeeeeeeeeeed ce!!
dat piggie sp didnt come.
bt he doing God's work. HAHA, so dats quite cool
he had 2 wake up at like 530AM 2day for de Asia conference thingie

& i was like OMG SO EARLY
his reply?
"[SP]:
for God i will do anything"

waaaaah!! when i saw his reply i was like waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!! *jaw drops*
muz learn from him alr!!




ok! back 2 dat zzg!!
cuz we lunched 2gether, deanna went off 2 do her fyp.
so left is err
ziguang, songzhi, brendan & dedrick

den we eat finish alr we decided 2 go class, no classes 2day, means our class will be empty etc
den went 2 put back 0ur plates

den nearby gt sink+mirror

den i standing there waiting 4 dat zg 2 wash hand etc
den he say
see my belt! & den he showed it 2 de mirror

i standing behind him, u see.
but i can still see de reflection from de mirror rite!!
den i was like "OMG I TRAUMATISED!"

den he was like
ok
brace urself 1st..

his reply was something along de lines of:
"我什么你都看过了吗!!" (translation incase next time my chi fail & i dun understand this at all. he said "i everything let u see le wad!!")
den he gif de shy boyboy smile
omg-.-

JUST TO CLARIFY!!
i did NOT see everything ok!!
in genting he walked around the hotel room half naked ok!
& he flashed at us. refer back 2 genting trip 2 see!!
cuz we link roomies wad!!

HAHA!!

o!! another random thing abt him!!
we were talkin randomly on msn 1 day
i 4gt when alr la
den he say "dun liddat say me, i will shine de"
smt liddat
den i was like HUH? SHINE? bt den he went offline b4 i could ask him (i noe he means shy bt i dunno why he spelt SHINE)

den in sch a few days later i ask him
me:"eh zg, u noe how 2 spell shy anot?"
him:"ya la! S-H-Y la!"
me:"den why dat day u spell SHINE?"
him:"cuz i ziGUANG ma!!"
(guang=light. or smt liddat)
-.-



ok but anyway dats juz a really random post.
HAHAHAHA(:
bet he'll kill me when he noes i blogged abt this
but he's reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally a gd guy, & up 4 grabs!!
better promote him a lil. at least mayb he wont so angry at me=X

HAHAHAHA!!(:




& 2day i had a fun fyp meeting!! hahas always fun when glenn's ard cuz he's like de joker of de team!! serious!!
bt he helepd me do my experiment!! so im helping him next week
i need 2 clock my hours anyway
^^


o & yes.im fretting over the water forum thing.
i cant backout. else im causing my frenz 2 suffer
i do hope some1 else backs out tho!! at least ca go wif zg!

SP has now decided 2 stop calling me pig
YAY!! *celebrates*

UNFORTUNATELY,
he has decided 2 call me MA TONG instead
toilet bowl
omg.

& on msn he actually drew dat for me:

happily and wonderfully labelled wif MY NAME. toilet bowl face
U SUCKER!! HAHA!!

still dare saw aww so niceHAHA!!
random chat wif him!!

i said i go take my mouse
his reply?
"[SP]we look like giants says:
*here mouse mouse mosue
*/takes cheese"
-.-
HAHA
like small boyboy liddat, he.


after dat i went 2 eat potato chips:
"♥melissa~faith. d0nnie yen is ♥!! says:
*haha
*ops=X
*i open de pack
*den shake it so i can reach my chips
*den 1 chip fell 2 de floor
*sob
[SP]what sarah said says:
*hahaha
*1 only u silly toilet
*hahaha"
he call me a TOILET
omg.


HAHA!! after dat i put SP is a pig!!
on my msn. & he demanded i change it. i refuse so he put Melissa Tan ma tong!!
-.-
HAHA
in de end i changed it
aint i niice?(:




& 2day jinghao gave me a slide dat he prepared!! xiexie ni much much!!(:
he dao me lor initially!! somemore so quiet!! bt den again never been close 2 him la, dun even talk much 2 him.
so i guess its normal?
HAHAHAHA

& went 2 eat wif de clique. french loaf from koufu nt bad seh(:
& went wif some of de guys 2 their napha retest, along wif eileen(:
HAHA
dedrick & zg now left standing broad still cmi.
tsk. i pity those who jumped 221cm. ITS LIKE 1 MORE CM TO PASS?! they muz haf been pekchek.

im glad im FEMALE. XX and not XY

slacked around & den went home(:

SP!! TEACH ME HOW 2 SKATEEEEEEEEEE!!=P on 9june ok!!






& this is really random.
i wan a hug, please?

i like hugs(:
de warmt of a hug^^
lovelove!!

random:
i was helping kerenia's wif their fyp. juz randomly helping out
can la, cuz their container is outside. not lab based.

moving stuffs around. sweat like siao. itched of cuz.

but dats nt de point
i bought new shoes on sat so was wearing new shoes

saw a cockroach
me: COCKROACH!!
amy(their team's fyp advisor) : STEP!!
me: NO!! NEW SHOES LEH!!

& den i refused 2 step.
HAHA
in de end amy followed it but it ran under a cupboard so she couldn't step on it

HAHAHAHA
ok. this is so random.



& i dunno why but i feel there's a difference in treatment.
mayb im juz being paranoid(:

my chinese aint gd
its SUCKY.
seriously!

bt i was randomly reminded by my dad about a song which i really liked,so i went 2 youtube it.
its nt easy 4 me ok! imagine a page full of chinese words. & i sorta noe de guys name, thank goodness
i saw an 安 & was like OK!MUZ BE HIM!
(btw his name is 杨培安)
dun ask me how 2 pronouce it etc. i don't know.

anyway
de main thing is i decided 2 google 4 de lyrics cuz i really find it v nice(:
another difficult task!! how on EARTH do i navigate a FULLY CHINESE PAGE?!

ok anyway i copy paste his name+song title & googled it
thank God.
1st page was it
whews(:

so here goes!! de awesome lyrics
i cant understand some. but some are really meaningful(:

想飞上天
和太阳肩并肩
世界等着我去改变
想做的梦
从不怕别人看见
在这里我都能实现
大声欢笑让你我肩并肩
何处不能欢乐无限
抛开烦恼
勇敢的大步向前
我就站在舞台中间

我相信我就是我
我相信明天
我相信青春没有地平线
在日落的海边
在热闹的大街
都是我心中最美的乐园
我相信自由自在
我相信希望
我相信伸手就能碰到天
有你在我身边
让生活更新鲜
每一刻都精采万分
I do believe

想飞上天
和太阳肩并肩
世界等着我去改变
抛开烦恼
勇敢的大步向前
我就站在舞台中间

我相信我就是我
我相信明天
我相信青春没有地平线
在日落的海边
在热闹的大街
都是我心中最美的乐园
我相信自由自在
我相信希望
我相信伸手就能碰到天
有你在我身边
让生活更新鲜
每一刻都精采万分
I do believe

我相信(我就是我)
我相信(自由自在)
我相信(我相信我相信)
I BELIEVE
我相信我就是我
我相信明天
我相信青春没有地平线
在日落的海边
在热闹的大街
都是我心中最美的乐园
我相信自由自在
我相信希望
我相信伸手就能碰到天
有你在我身边
让生活更新鲜
每一刻都精采万分
I do believe
oh ~~~
ah ~~~


yes!! its really an awesome song!! personal opinion of cuz(:
his voice is real good!!^^



i dunno why i always update ab0ut random stuffs. tho i really enjoy de awesome times wif my classies & i really truly mean wad i say dat i enjoy it etcetc, but i wonder why i oni put up happy thoughts.
(im not saying my class makes me sad cuz they dun)


ok. so shall randomly write smt here which has been on my mind for quite some time.
i feel like im really not close 2 u. everytime we meet up, i always feel so weird.
2 put it in a bgr perspective (tho its nt a relationship im talking abt, its a frenship), its like we were 2gether & den broke up so we wan nothing 2 do wif each other.
tho of cuz i dun mean i wan nothing 2 do wif u
i really do treasure u & all dat. really cant bear 2 see this frenship go.
but
i dunno. it seems like its slipping away. but i dun wan it 2 go.

*btw: i doubt i'll tell anyone who it is. easier dat way.
& anyone who's reading this: dun worrie whether its you or not(:
its really a purely think-aloud post.


another think-aloud:
how many times haf i told some1:
i'll always be here for u (or smt liddat)
oni 2 realise im always nt there 4 de person.
2 realise dat i noe so little ab0ut them

& 2 realise dat they've always been here 4 me.
when i've never been there 4 them.

i think im really selfish.
& oni make empty promises.
& i hate myself 4 dat.
ok. end of think-aloud session.
i sound so emo.

i wanted 2 blog earlier, but den its really tiring days of scho0l
especially when i reach home late

but i reach home late for good reasons(: i spent quality time wif my clique!! (some of them of cuz, cuz some others haf things 2 go 2 etc)

& quality time is my 2nd highest love laguage
(:

i 4gt 2 blog about monday thing so shall update about monday here
(:
anyway
monday was lab management & i grabbed a slide which eventually i couldnt find de information AT ALL
not a single bit of information

& den time was almost up & i was getting really nervous & all
cuz im scared of my faci
den i told deanna i cannot find etcetc
den deanna actually went 2 help me by msning jinghao telling him smt along de lines of "hey my teammate dun understand can spare a few mins teach her?"
den i thought he'll teach thru msn or smt

he came all de way 2 my table 2 teach!!
ok seriously dats super nice!
bt dats nt all
cuz he teach halfway he 4gt a few points
so he said he'll tell me later
& he went back 2 his lappy

den he was teaching brendan
so i, as usual, kanchiong spider, went 2 do more research 2 try see can find anot

still cannot.

den really not much time left alr, jinghao msn deanna telling her de points 4 my ppt slide.
OMG
NICE CAN!!
ya jinghao is a niceguy.
tho he is like mr dao no 2.
mr dao is jasper
HAHAHAHAHA
ok, bt really thankful 4 him!!(:



er wednesday was no-school-but-haf-ut day.
sians 2 de max
seriously.
like no sch still need 2 go sch. o wells. even if no ut i'd haf had 2 go back 2 scho0l 4 fyp experiment
so shall not complain so much. tho fyp is so much fun-ner!!

ok anyways
had 2 go PUB WaterHub 2 get my attachment forms.
so mr lim had 2 come out 2 pass me de forms
i really miss working there can?=(((((

den after dat went 2 RP
study wif classies

den met them etc, lunched
den went class
jasper & charilyn there alr

den we study study

dat jasper v bad l0r!!
cuz wireless can project 2 other classes
charilyn's class is like opposite ours
he go make ppt saying he is charilyn's bf, jasper

den he g0 put i love u baby
den wad marry me marry me marry me splattered all around de ppt slide
omg

den he projected it into her class
her WHOLE CLASS laughed & her face turned RED

HAHA
bad rite!!
but if u think back it's v sweet oso la(:



thursday!
had lab, so when going back 2 class i was moaning abt cannot snatch corner seats alr
den jinghao heard
den he told me
let brendan go in 1st
den u go into de lift last, confirm come 0ut 1st ma
den he told me he'll help me block brendan
den he go in he purposely stand infront of brendan & EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME
& push brendan even more into de lift
HAHAHAHAHA
when lift door open, sz & i like race liddat
ran all de way in
HAHAHAHA
den we gt de 2 best seats
HAHAHAHA
XIEXIE JINGHAO!! HAHA!!

after school events:
1st
we were going causeway 2 buy smt cuz brendan wanted 2 make smt for some1
wont mention names(:

den walking thr
i saw wancai!!
ok those who dunno (which should be like EVERYONE)
wancai is my SECONDARY SCHOOL WUSHU COACH

ya
stare at him cuz he was walking direction opposite of me, means walkin 2wards me
den recognise alr i shouted "COACHHHHHHHH!!" in chinese
den my voice when i shout ah, v high pitched 1 [i dun like la, but i cant help it leh=( i think im annoying wif a loud PLUS high pitched voice=(]
den he covered his ears
HAHAHAHAHA

den talk 2 him awhile
he teaching kickboxing in RP.
not wushu tho
weird
& er..i think
he seem 2 haf gotten abit..fatter.
ok mayb its juz me
bt he gt EVEN darker!! goodness.

ok. den pei brendan
WAH LAU EH! HE SHOP LIKE A GIRLLLLLLLLLLL!!
1st stop
popular
i wandered off 2 look at stationery. i see v long alr. den notebooks
they (zg,eileen,dedrick,brendan) still at same place-.-

den i gif some comments
den wander off 2 books
see books very long oso
den wander 2 find them
thought i lost. about 2 sms zg when i saw them

omg. they still around there
finally bought de paper 4 de card

den went 2 cold storage 2 buy other stuffs
omg
brendan hor
think oso think so long
HAIIX
HAHAHAHAHAHA
den after a vvvvvvvv long time, he finally made up his mind
*whews*
HAHAHAHAHAHA

in essence, i think we pei him shop from abt 730 till about 850.
ok, so i exaggerated by saying we pei him 2hrs
=X
HAHAHAHAHA more like 1hr20mins=X
dinnered & home



friday!
had cg, clique went off
left in class wif jasper & deanna, but deanna went off soon after oso
left jasper & me
nt weird tho, cuz i keep watching him play game
(:

den after he stopped playing we had a really random chat.
imagine wif me, 2 people of different gender talking about relationships etc
AHHAHAHAHA
ok dis few weeks i've really been having lotsa relationship chats wif my clique
(:

bt 1st i grumble 2 jasper abt de brendan thing
HAHA
PEI HIM SO LONG!
den jasper said if it were him he would haf bought different things
HAHA
true la, oso. but overall i think all their suggestions are quite practical & quite sweet(:
jasper's idea was bandages, plasters & meds in a nice box
(:

den had a REAAAAAAAAAAAALLY random game of shoot shag & marry
goodness
playing it wif a GUY
wth!!
HAHA

but i think overall i really enjoyed dat random chat wif jasper!
i mean i wont say its really very deep, but its not those v surface stuffs oso la.
muz bug him regarding something(:

& i learnt something new from him, which is dat
guys think ALOT, as opposed 2 wad i thought. i thought guys dun think much de.
but he say guys ah, u be abit nice 2 them they'll start thinking etc

& he say gals treat a guy nicenice ah, de guy oso can like de gal 1
den he oso say gals when go 0ut, will look at guys & gals(true, i look at gals too)
but guys ONLY look at gals when they go 0ut
HAHAHAHA

& gals when wif gals, can talke abt fashion, guys, gossip etcetc
but guys oni talk about 2 main things:GALS, and GAMES

ok. this is so random luh. blogging ab0ut wad we talked abt
but i think it went better den i expected. initially i was like omg if he stop playing later gt awkward silence
turns 0ut didnt(:
in fact we haven even finish our random talks.
charilyn finished her ut so he went 2 find her
sweet much?(:


saturday nothing much la
bought new sandals & a panda top
i like i like!!(:

service etc
serve as usher


sunday!
pei my jiejie get stuff
she bought a new dress which even i think is nice
(:
but i wont wear
cuz i dun do skirts & i dun do dresses.

den now at home.
nt goin class steamboat=((
mummy say i everyday g0 home v late nowadays=(
so decided 2 b a gdgd girl & stay home 2day(:


shall await funny stories abt de steamboat from siewping, deanna etc!!(:

heart-to-heart talks are juz so awesome u'kno?^^

been randomly really spending alot of time wif my class clique
& i think i really appreciate them alot!!

even though sometimes not everyone is there, in fact every single time there would be people missing, but juz the whole crapping time & stuff is really very heartwarming^^

& 2day the random bunch of people were eileen ziguang brendan dedrick
(:

& we were talking about relationships
HAHA
which is real funny cuz NONE of us are attached. not a SINGLE one of us
which is ironic dat we talk about relationships

but eileen is really quite random
serious!!
she was like asking wad is our ideal version of a romantic date
& how the guys would propose etc

its really quite fun!!
& 0f cuz i really wan a girls nite!! or something!! HAHA

when bus-sing back wif eileen we were still chatting on the topic of bgr etc
hahahahahas really quite fun
& we agreed dat more gals would be better cuz more opinions & stuff

& i think its awesome dat we share deep(:

HAHA of cuz our random study grp 2day was oso filled wif laughter
*winks at eileen*

HAHA eileen told me something, which made me laugh like mad
den zg & i went 2 buy drink 4 them
& den i told zg ab0ut wad happened
which caused de 2 of us 2 like keep laughing 0utside

& den we agreed dat dedrick & eileen oso quite compaitable
HAHAHAHAHA

den randomly chats
den after dat, dat zg really very bad
he made me walk into library 1st so get caught i kena 1st
-.-
of cuz i made sure he walk infront of me
HAHA
laugh all de way in

hahas & den saw *urhmph* den laugh again, remembering eileen's comments
*winks at eileen again*
HAHAHAHAHAHA



WAD HAPPENED IN CLASS 2DAY
lab 2day
i happily doing my stuff

den dat awesome deanna ah, she go put in a relationship wif ziguang
-.-
wonderful

HAHA
every1 keep commenting
even my cousin congrats-ed me!!
omg

den i tell zg
U GO CHANGE IT LEH!!
(cuz i DIDNT NOE HOW 2)
den he was like
I OSO DUNNO HOW!!

den like omg
they chose 2 computer idiots 2 put, den we dunno how 2 change
den in de end jiawei tried 2 secretly teach me
but i dumbdumb so dunno
in de end cheryl & candace helped me

HAHA
xiexie!!*bows*

so many ppl comment-.-
IM SINGLE OK!!
HAHAHAHAHA




in conclusion:
i love heart-to-heart talks, & im single
HAHA
randoms!!

dun worrie, i still love my class!! including flasher guang ok?
HAHAHAHAHAHA
not afraid dat there'll be new rumor
he too many rumor alr
HAHAHAHAHAHA
lalala
& I OSO ALOT OK
hmpf
*pouts*

hahas
in de end my conclusion so long-.-

byee!!
ut 2morrow
& thurs
lalalala
i wan gals nite 0ut!!



& goodness
i put away
den personalised it
saying:
"big business-ing(: dun ee me, its a normal thing!! else u'll get like constipated-.-"

& den i didnt expect any1 2 like talk 2 me or anything wad
den dedrick come talk 2 me, giving me notes 4 de lab management dunno problem wad la

omg my market price
SOBSS!!
HAHAHAHA
owell!! nt like i like him or anything!!
HAHA

& i told him i wont bully him, & i praised myself saying i v nice dis sem, never bully him
his ans?
"Dedrick says:
*caus i not in ur team "
SO BAD CAN!!

no seriously, im much nicer dis sem!!
*GRINS*
HAHA
ok.
-end of randoms-

somethin ziguang said which i like TOTALLY AGREE WIF(:

life is too short 2 be glam
(:

a quote i really like, from Alice In Wonderland the movie 1
(:

The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad?
[Alice checks Hatter's temperature]
Alice: I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

(:

2day's an awesome day!!(:

actually lab wasn't dat hard, & i had a really fantastic chat wif my classmates(:

all guys had NS talk
so the classroom is pure girls
err..except jiawin cuz he malaysian thus dun need 2 go de talk
ya la

but anyway
we had a REALLY AWESOME GIRLS TALK!!
anything & everything!!

from bra colour(random!! was showing eileen my bra colour which sparked off de start of our gossips^^) to shoe sizes!!(shoe size aint really about the size of de shoes, but owells)

& it was REALLY funny!!
& even 2 which guy we'd like de most from our class
something liddat la!!

unfortunately dat topic didnt g0 too far=(
tsk. i would haf liked 2 hear the answers
kaypoh u'noe? but i myself oso dun haf answer

they answered 4 me happily-.-
omg dat rumor is like since yr2 sem2 can?! PLEASE!! i dun see anything dat makes us a perfect couple?!

lemme tell u some BAD random facts about dedrick
he v bad ok! trust me!! im trustable!!
2 quote my blogpost during the iep briefing thing, see how mean he is:
monday,feb 15, 2010:
"anyway
went wif dedrick cuz he oso gt
he nparks sia
jealous=(
hahahaha
anyway
walk wif him 2 de lecture room he saw his frenz
i trailing behind, they asked him "ur gf ah?"
u noe wads his answer?!
"my ass la!"
WAH LAUU!! stupid guy!! wanted 2 whack him but den gt faci infront, wanna appear nice,u noe u noe? HAHA"
end of quote.
HAHAHAH!! see?! told u he's mean!! he could haf said something along de lines of "NO!!" rather than "my ass la!" RITE!! yes agreed. thanks 4 agreeing too!=p

& i said i'll blog about de running incident so i WILL!!
jogging wif my clique
dedrick infront
suddenly see him on the floor
thought he doing pumping sia (see i haf such great faith in him, PUMPING, not FAINTING!!)
den i told brendan, wah dedrick so strong sia doing pumping
den brendan look look
den suddenly he ask
EH HE FAINT ISSIT
den we sprint all de way there
see him stand up
WAD THEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

wasted my energy & made me stop!!
hahahahahaha
he was checking water source 4 fyp
-.-
he went 2 smell a tree after dat
omg, dedrick-.-

(ok, in order 2 make me sound like a nice girl who oso says gd things abt ppl, he's a nice guy.
serious! he listen 2 me rant.
HAHAHAHAHA!! er actually i think it wasnt an option. its like he HAD 2 else i'll probably remind him 4ever dat he didnt listen.
who cares. he's nice ok? up 4 grabs, any1? =p i can intro!! gt other niceguys in my class too!! like zg, sz etcetc!! sp oso!! tho he call me pig bt nvm he's still nice de!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
ok i sotsot alr)


but anyway de guys in my class are really nice people, thus its hard 2 choose
like craziness la, 2 ask us 2 choose!!

but actually not really la, cuz if really (like wad deanna said) de world left de guys in 0ur class oni, de guys number of guys i'll consider is like..3?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
ya actually i noe, dats alot la
bleh=p
told u i had niceguys in my class!!


ok!
jogging 2day!!
oni had brendan & zg

o i had fyp b4 dat
count brineshrimps
alvin spoke 2 glenn&i sia
omg
he aint as scary as i thought!!
he quite nice actually!!(:

jogging!! jogged all de way wif0ut stopping!! yay!! muz b cuz dat dedrick nt thr 2 scare us again-.-
anyway~~
REALLY FUN!!
yea~~


& my mummy coming back 2nite!! like 4am la but YAYYY!!
HAPPY~~
*dancedancedance*


i really heart de gals talk we had in class!! full of fun!!


o! & JASPER KICKED MY HEAD 2DAY
yes
u saw right
JASPER LIM KICKED MY HEAD
HAHAHAHA

he came back from NS talk
see de space beside me empty (cuz teammate sick so went home)
i sitting inside
so he wanna sit inside
ask me remove my bag which was on de chair
den he act like wanna kick me
he always liddat 1
who noes i bend infront 2 take my bag off de chair
KOK!! hit me!!
den he was like OMG SORRIE SORRIE SORRIE!!
den trying 2 rub my head while trying 2 avoid my kicks at him
all de while we were all laughing
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
PAIN OK!!
bt i noe he didnt mean it la
HAHA!!
i kajiao him ask him whether my hair dirty not cuz his SHOE hit it
yucks=X
HAHAHAHAHA ok random

its bad dat im too sensitive
(i dun mean in those gd way)

i mean sensitive as in 2 de things around me, little things & i get affected
easily affected
notice little things & den get upset ab0ut them

little tiny things
den affect my whole big day

arghs.


cheerier sidenote: i enjoy doing experiments wif john&glenn cuz there's bound 2 b suaning each other(:
& yesterday dinner wif my darling clique is real fun! lame jokes & silly stories about fast food restaurants!! loves!!

(picture taken from http://dmcghee.smugmug.com/Spirituality/Thank-God/5913576_UmgTG#367974373_USbdQ)

James 1:12

Blessed are those who persevere under trial, because when they have stood the test, they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

.

James 1:2-4

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

.

.

i dun think im strong in handling storms & all. im a crybabie who cries over little things

but it says: CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, and BLESSED ARE THOSE WHO PERSEVERE UNDER TRIAL and SO THAT YOU MAY BE MATURE

(:

its hard

.

but i gt my darlings wif me(:

my churchies

my bestie

my class clique

my family

.

.

people who'll listen attentively when i need them, console me when im sobbing, encourage me when im down, give me advice when i need it, and speak the truth 2 me even if it hurts. ♥

i think im really blessed(:

tho im still feeling quite down & stuff about a few different stuffs, but im really thankful 4 the different people in my life(:

like my clique in class(:
especially:
deanna-she keep msning me making sure that im ok & stuff & trying 2 cheer me up & everything(: making sure i never feel left 0ut & telling me nicenicenice things when i felt sosososo down
SP-he asked me whether im ok when the tuesday thing happened & he even posted on my fb wall saying he hopes im feeling better(: thanks pig!
jiawei-he & SP gt scolded cuz of me!! sorrie!! but jiawei really is some1 who is very caring la, always making sure 2 try 2 cheer ppl up(:
songzhi-being a stalker on fb!! dun see him so guaiguai, he practically always de 1st few 2 tag!! but it really cheers me up too!! lets me noe dat there are people who care(:
dedrick-a random listenin ear at a super random time!! thanks pig!!(: hahas 4 listening & trying 2 help me see things in a different point of view so i wouldn't be so sad(: & even checking whether im ok anot when i didnt reply!

of cuz de rest of de clique too!! their silliness always makes me laugh!! their suaning each other really makes my day(:

& my cg(:
especially
cheryl-thanks 4 de random visit & de strepstils! & encouraging me & all dat!! thanks 4 being so understanding!!
dumb ruth-my dumb!! hahas thanks 4 everything, really listening 2 EVERYTHING, all my rants & everything!! thanks really alot!! & of cuz 4 always trying 2 encourage me & make me feel better(: thanks!!
& shareen 4 listening & everything& being undersanding & catherine 4 coming along wif cheryl wif de strepstils!!

ok, da dumb oso, lianjie-4 listening tho 2 me whenever i haf things 2 throw 0ut

my crazy bestie pamela-tho she dunno ab0ut all my down-ness now, but she's still silly as ever & i guess dat helps abit!! imagine im down + she change!! dats real bad! & 4 always saying kuku stuffs=D she say she feed me & coax me 2 slp l0r!! whr gt!!



ok,dis is random
real random

& im sick
real sick
arghs=(



OH!! MY YEAR1 SEM2 MATH FACI REMEMBER MY NAME!!
HONOURED!!
lovelove!! HAHA!!

no la, he is 1 of my fav faci!! blurblur 1, he. and his actions v cute 1!! & he say "i remember u! melissa rite!" & den he said "year3 rite?"
honoured!! faci rmb my name AND year!!
i dun rmb his, unfortunately. his is hard 2 rmb

& apparently i scared him when i shouted "faci!!"
HAHA
cat&i went toilet
come out of toilet see him walk past

so shout l0r!
den he kena shocked
hahahahahaha
last time when i see him i'll shout "faci!!" too & den wave like siao
den he'll laugh & say i siao (jokingly) & wave back at me too
HAHAHAHAHA
told u my faci cute!!

my another fav faci (yr1 sem2 science faci) i seldom see alr lehz, tho technically i should see her more, cuz she's in SCIENCE whereas my dat math faci is in like e2.
weird.

sometimes i think my mama really like 1 small kid liddat=D

she going overseas like 2MORROW
& her throat pain, even when she chew oso pain
sorta like de vein or something la
i oso dunno

den she kope my jiejie de dinner leftovers (de fish)

den she bite den pain so she make de pain face
den i tell her "aiyo drink more water"
den i dun remember why but she say wont get better when she g0es overseas, will oni get worse

me: den now..(i haven finish my sentence, was about 2 say drink more water or like take care etc)
mom: EAT! (quickly grabs the prawn crackers nearby)
me: DONT EAT DAT LARH!!

-.-
dats my mom-.-
told ya sometimes she seems more kiddish den me!!

haha!!
but love her 4 dat la(:
she very childlike!! at times
but at the appropriate times when i need her de most she always there 4 me

yay!!
(:


she going overseas sia
worried 4 her
juz like de last time she went wif my jiejie
every single day i worrie 4 them & pray 4 them

& now she going i oso very worried

i remember dat time she go japan i oso very worried sia
i even cried after she called me from the airport
cuz i very scared lehz

but everything's ok
=D

& i hope she comes back soon!! but i hope she enjoys herself too(:

dats all!

summarise 2day in 1 word: cui.

2day was cui 2 de max
but it aint oni 2day
everyday ever since scho0l reopened, was, is and will probably be for the next few weeks, has been cui for me. ok, mayb till the end of the year

its been really cui weeks in school
never felt THIS bad b4, serious.
no comparison. i never broke down about scho0l/grades b4, u see. but i've already broken down 3 times in less den a week.
1st time was thurs.
then it was fri.
then 2day

awesome. im so burnt out & so emotionally drained.
2day was really bad. but wad happened was juz the tipping point
i've been feeling perfectly blah ever since school started.

school's been tough. competitive class. hard modules. vocal classmates.
on rare times when i do noe the answer or would like 2 try, it often gets "snatched" by more vocal classmates.
& i can oni blame myself

& it adds up
& builds up
accumulates till everything is bottled up

i cant tell pe0ple ab0ut this. every1'll go "wah lau please ur studies so gd u still dare say u stress" or mayb "please u 1 ut will cover back already"
but they dont understand

in rp the thing i actually shine in, is studies
no doubt, im not even very good in dat.
but it's de 1 thing i see myself dat i can actually be proud of.

sports? no.
making frenz? no.
studies? more likely

so i invest alot in my studies. i make sure i understand even if i dislike the module. i make sure even if i really dun like the faci, i still make sure at the end of the module i still do well, cuz if i let a faci stand in the way of my grades, 2 me, im weak.

[juz 2 clarify: for 2day, despite everything, i agree wif wad sp said, dat this faci is really a go0d faci. i do agree! she has really great teaching style & skills. makes me understand easily & i really applaud her 4 dat. but its de accumulation & build up dat caused the tears.
thanks jiawei&SP & really sorrie 4 making u all get scolded when its my fault.
thanks deanna, brendan & jiawin 4 ur concern.
i really appreciate it, really. but i didnt reply u all cuz i noe i'll cry there&then. & i didnt wanna.
& oso thanks 2 dedrick 4 listening 2 me dat day, even tho its like already quite late. 4 taking all my crap & trying 2 console me. (ps:i "totally 4gif u" ab0ut the jogging thing=p the fainting in the end fyp thing^^)
thanks all!]

& den my grades dis sem turned out like shit. (so far my grades are very shitty)
& i remember friday crying 2 my mom telling her everything. telling her the reason behind my tears.

the truth is, yes. im a very insecure girl. & im not ashamed 2 say it.
i do place alot of my securities in my studies, cuz dat's 1 thing i can at least do ok.

i remember crying 2 my mom saying i was afraid i couldn't get into a university. & i wanted 2 get into NUS. impossible.
i remember crying telling my mom "jiejie so smart how come im so dumb?"
i remember telling my mom private U v expensive.
i remember crying till my shoulders shook like crazy & i remember crying till after i stopped i had those little short bursts like im short of breathe & i'll suddenly go "hur!hur!hur!" & struggle 2 breathe

& i remember my mom hugging & patting my head (cuz she was standing i was sitting thus hugging my head) & telling me im silly 4 crying about dat.
she consoled me saying she never expected good grades from us. she juz wanted us 2 be happy can already
she told me dun worrie about university & my current grades. i still haf the whole year left.
she told me dun worrie ab0ut money. she used 2, but now she dun anymore, & she goes on holidays 2 enjoy now.
& i remember she used herself, telling me she didn't even graduate but she's doing fine now

& most importantly, i remember her being there 4 me when im at my very lowest.
thanks ma, love u(:




other den dat, 2day was cui, but ip man2 was really awesome!!
went wif lianjie&ruth
funny, tho we're usually v crap but every1 seemed so dead
i wonder why
muz b they haf their own problems as well?

but ipman2 is really great(:
seriously de reason why i like donnie yen is cuz he learns wushu(: & he is hot as well
& dats y i like ipman as well!! de movie i mean..cuz its all about wushu(: & all the other wushu/martial arts movies.



i really dun wanna burden any1 wif my stupid problems.
but i wish my mom would noe when im down. cuz she's really a mom(: