hell0^^

FINALLY!! H0LIDAYS ARE HERE!! EXCITED!!!!
i wan w55m class 0uting!! hahas c0z 0utta my 5 classes, my 2 fav0urite classes are my materials science class(w56d) & my rdna class(w55m)

hahas its n0t dat i dun like my other classes, dun get me wr0ng..
for my microbiology, there is mayb ab0ut..2 pe0ple i dun really like in dat class..
biochem, i dun like the rum0rs etc..
chem, im quite 0k wif chem class actually, but den sometimes feel suan-ed

anyway~
I WAN CLASS 0UTING!! HAHA
was talking 2 suzie den i said i wan class 0uting 4 our class [rdna class,dat is,c0z she os0 same microbi0 class as me^^]
den she say we add all the classmates msn we haf la!
so we added quite a few but so many left the conv0=( so in the end oni 3 0f us discussed=(
me suzie enoch
haix so sad rite?! den after dat suzie busy=(
pr0bably having it on 6thjune
clash wif service..o0

H0LIDAYS ARE HERE!! 0MG HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM S0 HAPPY!! MY L0NG AWAITED H0LIDAYS!!

hahas scho0l really wears me d0wn

w0ah~ i s0unded s0 bitchy in my previ0us post..o0

anyways, the thing is,ont0 a nicer t0pic^^

the thing is dat~ tuesday i had recombinant DNA techn0logies de ut,so went 2 class w55m=) my nicenice class^^ but my m0dule 4 the day was materials science..den after dat went d0wn wif 2 of my classmates 2 level 5 c0z we all g0t ut den g0 d0wn 2gether la^^ i f0rced them 2 wait 4 me^^

den riite, i realised their class is very near mine..den so after dat went int0 my 0wn class & waited 4 faci & ut=(

den anyway the thing is dat after ut i went 2 find ruth they all c0z we were saying g0 watch nite at the museum 2 [which we eventually didnt c0z of me] den so i wait 4 the lift..den SO MANY PPL!! ut finish ma den every1 g0 home..den saw my materials science classmate wk..den in the end we decided 2 take the stairs..

so walked down den i g0ing e1 ma..den we b0th walk walk all the way until e1 already,den he tell me,okies bye i g0ing e4

den i laugh & say he c0uld haf walked thru library c0z its so much sh0rter!! c0z the r0ute we walk its like "U" shaped,den walking thru the library is almost straight..

den guess wad?
he t0ld me ya he n0e but he walk the r0ute we walked c0z he n0e i g0ing e1 den he pei me..
omg!! so nice luh!! this kinda guy ah,so sweet ah,whoever his gf super blessed man!! lalala~ hahas i dunn0 he gt gf an0t th0..HAHA i cant believe im gushing abt a classmate liddat..o0
but u muz admit its sweet wad,i dun even n0e him well sia!!

& den ralph os0 an0ther funny guy,2day i asked him whether he g0t biochem ppt den he say he dun haf,den he added bingl0ng & ask him 2 help me,thinking dat i didnt n0e bingl0ng,den in the end i n0e him!! hahas sh0cked ralph..^^ but thanks la,he dun haf still try 2 help me get..thanks!!^^

i hate my wednesday class
read my lips
HATE

because of some pe0ple in class spreading brainless rum0rs
because of pe0ple who w0nt think twice to suan me,u think very co0l?

but i cant deny dat there are al0t of l0vely pe0ple in my class as well,juz dat the reas0n why i say i hate my class is because 0f the idi0tic rum0rs, the dumb g0ssipers and the brainless matchmaking

h0wever i muz say my team is nice^^
i miss s0me pe0ple in my previ0us team th0,& u can guess all u wan,i dun care anym0re
i n0e can already
g0 ahead & spread the rum0rs,im secure
g0 ahead and kajiao,continue making me angry

however:positive p0int of the day:
im c0rrect,u're wrong
ask me 2 g0 back c0z my answer is different fr0m yours?
to0 bad,eating humble pie n0w?
dats wad happens when u wanna act
to0 bad 4 u

pr0bably w0uld haf happened 2 me (eating humble pie) if i was the wr0ng 1,but i was quite confident of my own answer^^

0kies basically thursday was my fav0urite gr0up module,coz the pe0ple are NICEEEE~~^^ hahas^^ anyway~ my team haven change but pr0bably changing next wekk..aww=( h0pe i get back at least 1 0utta 4 of them=) their l0ss,my gain^^

so anyway stepped int0 class,oni yuhan at the table..den anna came in rite after me..but since i was feeling very affected (finally br0ke d0wn 0utside class on wednesday) s0 i didnt kajia0 yuhan..anyway he lo0ked seri0us..o0..

after dat clark came & den fathin..
i sat beside yuhan & clark,BEST!! can whack b0th of them^^ but they both suan me=(

den started classes everything,super quiet c0z i was really n0 mo0d..
i mean,tuesday den the news settled in..wanna tear but refused 2 let myself,wednesday finally broke d0wn,wednesday nite & thursday was the worst..especially when we had prayer meet & prayed 4 him & his family..3/4 of the time i was sniffing away & tears dr0pping,1/8 of the time wiping my tears & my nose,1/8 of the time praying in t0ngues..

so anyway~ rp sent the webmail 2 every1 ab0ut it..HELL0?! DUMB OR WAD?! PE0PLE R HURTING & U MASS SEND IT?! insensitive retards..& my class started talking ab0ut it & i g0t SOOO AFFECTED!! i wanted 2 bang the table & stand up & scream "HELL0!! CAN U ST0P RUBBING SALT 0N MY W0UNDS?!" but it would be unfair 2 them,they dunn0 dat i n0e him..

however the thing is dat they sometimes kid ab0ut it & den everytime they mention it,i feel like there's a knife slicing thr0ugh my heart..& i g0t quite affected..

lunched wif my classmates..btw rand0m,B0TH YUHAN & CLARK LIE 2 ME!! ab0ut diff things la but dat's not the p0int^^ clark lie 2 me say he n0t coming scho0l 4 classes=( den yuhan lie 2 me ab0ut some dumb stuff HAHA^^ im a nice girl i w0nt say wad he said^^

ANYWAY~ lunched wif my classmates,n0t teammates this time!! last week wif teammates,dis week wif classmates!! some oni la..ab0ut..8?
saw gs & christina!!heehee
was feeling down so i wanted hot milo,comfort drink ma..but in the end lazy buy hot mil0 so b0ught cold milo..clark see me jiu shake head.hmph=(
den went 2 sit 1st,den after dat all the rest came^^ yuhan & enoch talk ab0ut year 3 stuff-.- & talk ab0ut pp oso wakaka^^

after dat back 2 class 2 do work!! in the end yuhan helped me hahas!! i useless 1 la,u noe, empty vessels make the m0st n0ise..namely,MEEEEE!! hahas^^ he help me thru everything^^

daphne came my class!! who0ts!! my class say i drama c0z i saw ehr den sh0ut her name den rush 0ut..MISS HER CANN0T ISSIT? HAHA^^ its really great 2 see her..somemore when i was feeling quite d0wn^^ she saw me hit clark th0=( see my violent side..HAHA^^ i think she see till dun wanna see already^^

3 of us(clark fathin me) present den yuhan & anna answer questi0ns,den i oni present 1 slide^^ clark understands the m0st i think..0utta the 3 of us..

den after dat alm0st every1 went h0me luh!! s0 went 2 meet the hrp ppl after kajiaoing yuhan wakaka^^ i called him korkor twice already=( sad=(




BY THE WAY!! WANNA SEE MY MATERIALS SCIENCE GRADE?! h0rrible!! somemore i understand sia!! dats the worst part=( i understand yet straight Cs

if cant see den click 2 enlarge,its atrocious

i comf0rt eat,i realise..

& 2day finally during presentation i finally made sense of the thing happening ar0und me,tell u the truth, it hadn't settled in till ar0und 3 plus even th0ugh i f0und 0ut a day b4,and its like 29hours ag0?

held back my tears but dats all i can d0

on the bus i really felt s0..s0 overwhelmed

it settled it, i finally made sense 0f everything & there's juz this grief i feel & i juz went 2 buy ch0c at 7-elevel even th0ugh its m0re expensive..

besides,wh0 cares ab0ut h0w much it c0st when u're finding c0mf0rt in it? it was too sweet & i g0t a sore thr0at but i dun care

i l0ve my thursday teammates, and when i say love,i mean seri0usly L0VE THEM

they never fail 2 bring up my mo0d & everything..w0ah this team,i really speechless..i mean..i really dunn0 h0w 2 describe them c0z the j0y they bring me uhh,really AL0T

everytime its thurday(recombinant DNA techn0l0gies class) i get SUPER happy..i really hope wont change team, change team = i sad but probably they happy la i so mafan,probably pull d0wn the team^^

BUT I L0VE THEM!! HAHA

anyway in the team g0t~

anna (year3), she's super knowledgable plus very willing 2 teach some1 as sl0w as me somemore she g0t some super cute m0ments,she often super enthu 1^^

yuhan (year3), he's another super knowledgable person,my DIDI lehz^^ hahas oso always very willing 2 teach & always kajiao me & i always hit him wakaka^^ nice me=) he's my didi!!

clark (year2), he os0 n0es al0t..my another DIDI^^ hahas os0 another 1 wh0 alwaysk kajiao me & i always hit him os0 heehee^^ he's my didi!!

fathin (year2), she's like me, the 2 of us dunn0 much ab0ut dna stuff as compared 2 them,den we're same in the sense dat we're both like the students while anna & yuhan are the teachers while clark is quiet(PREVI0USLY,N0W S0 KAJIAO 1 L0R HE!!) & den we blur 2gether^^


anyway~ so the thing is on thursday, we had 0ur 2nd lab sessi0n (I L0VE LAB SESSION IN THIS MODULE!!) & c0z lunchtime we g0tta g0 0ut & den c0z the timing is weird so i ate wig yuhan & clark instead of pam so after eating lab haven open c0z 1pm den open so we went library 2 slack, saw another team there,so studious,den say j0el,another DIDI of mine^^

yuhan g0 take bo0k 2 read sia..0mg s0 smart lia0 still read,clark os0 kaypoh 2 read,i the dumbest & n0t reading..omg no wonder they so smart=(

they try 2 bluff me say kinder buen0 eat le will taller,i smart,dun believe c0z i last time os0 always eat..

den pei clark g0 buy s0mething fr0m vending machines den g0 back, after g0ing back int0 lab slack c0z waiting 4 0ur PCR thing 2 d0ne=)

yuhan & clark are silly!! HAHA
den anna & fathin went 2 d0 the gel electrophoresis thingie,yuhan always d0 slides 1,& im the useless 1=)

anyway~ i REALLY enj0yed lunching wif them plus i REALLY enjoyed being same team as them

HEY MY DEAREST W55M TEAM 2 FOR RECOMBINANT DNA TECHNOLOGIES!!
I L0VE U ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!<3
wakakaka msn conv0 wif yuhan & clark was DUMB^^
shall n0t g0 int0 details=p
i think when im d0wn all i haf 2 d0 is 2 either msn b0th of them in 1 conv0, 0r juz read the previous time we msned 2gether in 1 convo,its full of crap^^

TADAH!! this is proof dat j0el said dat dat i rock HAHA^^
& den saying its typ0 but i n0e dat he meant i r0ck HAHA^^

any1's gt michael learns 2 r0ck songs? [g0t alot from ken]
or A1's? [got alot from ken oso=p]
or uptown girl by westlife? [g0t it,courtesy of ben=p]
or any s0ng which are like last time 1?
i l0ve those songs
or b0nd's? wakaka i like bond's music^^

anything send me PLEASE!!^^
thankies!!

was stressed 0ver pp,finally decided 2 do on something which i would say can relate 2 me..whee!! HAPPY!! hahas because liddat can crap more riite if its sorta related 2 me^^ I H0PE IT PASSES!!
pleasepleasepleaseplease pray 4 meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!^^
pp is super stressful th0=(

i really appreciate the pe0ple in my life..i saw dine that day & den msned her at nite..miss her!! hahas^^ i miss w16a luh=(
haix

anyway~ 2day's class was funny^^
we supposed 2 declare our temperatures ourselves thru some dumb thingie,den faci oso never check de,den 1 guy,super cute sia! he dun haf den still very h0nest..hahas funny sia he^^ den ralph & i keep telling him,LIE UR WAY THRU!! CAN DE!! den he still like blurblur=p den ralph said:4 a guy who is so smart,he is pretty dumb
hahas den after dat he was dubbed 'mr honesty' HAHA he super funny sia we mouth 2 him telling him 2 lie S0 MANY TIMES & SO AGITATEDLY but he still didnt lie..funny guy=p

after scho0l 2 guys from another team popped over 2 my team the table c0z gt an0ther 2 guys in my team ma,den 2day my team oni gt 3 ppl,& im the oni gal..hahas^^ rose am0ng the th0rns=p
so anyway ralph & wk popped over & started talking animatedly wif yj ab0ut some dunno wad show while anthony did his 0wn stuff,i dun understand ma so i randomly popped in wif 'YA I AGREE! mm ya l0r!! yes yes' HAHA irritated them like hell=p since dun understand wad they say ma=(

den after dat force the 3 of them(yj,wk,ralph) 2 wait 4 me 2 pack my bag c0z they g0ing down..wakaka t0o bad~ WAH ralph social monster sia everywhere os0 gt ppl 2 say hi 2..reminds me of gj..same type hahas=p

hahas really appreciate the pe0pe ar0und meeeeeeeeeeeeee!! dumb pam os0 hahas^^
im very stressed these few days but im s0 glad dat quite a few ppl randomly msn me & ask me wads g0ing on,how m i etc..i feel l0ved^^

0kies i n0e im supp0sed 2 update my bl0g but im lazy ok!! see? i admit it..

anyway~ i really dunn0 where 2 start

i miss daphne..=( [0k 2 th0se retards wh0 think im a lesbian,g0 ahead,i dun care~ c0z al0t of ppl already think im a lesbian & im still surviving fine=p]

anyway,as i was saying..i really miss daphne al0t..i miss her silliness,i miss her l0udness,i imss her voice,i miss her picture taking[0mg i cant believe im saying this],i miss her laughter
all in all,i miss daphne like mad..seri0us!! she really makes a super big difference in my life!! & im sure the rest of the unit will say amen 2 dat^^
i really remember very clearly once when i actually cried when she was ar0und..den she didnt say much but at nite i received a sweet sms from her & it really enc0uraged me al0t..THANKS GIRL!! I REALLY REALLY L0VE U AL0T AL0T!!<3

0kies ont0 another topic!
happy bdae ruth andrew & desm0nd!!
ruth & andrew's bdae is on 1may!! same day wakaka^^
desm0nd 1 is 2may
whee~ hahahas^^ really appreciate these 3 ppl in my life..especially ruth!! c0z she's like a really really very cl0se sister 2 me & everything^^

2day had classes..i was thinking ab0ut some stuff on my way h0me..i walked h0me..i always take bus 0ut but i prefer walking h0me c0z..dunn0 i like 2 walk h0me & think ab0ut stuff^^

so i was thinking..
dat im really n0t some1 i wanna be..as in..yea..i wanna be a cheerful pers0n but more often den n0t i get affected by tiny little things ar0und me & everything..
its like sometimes i wanna be a totally different pers0n yet at the same time i wanna be myself..so contradictory-.-

& i realised
i dun haf al0t of ppl im close 2
& the pe0ple im cl0se 2
haf pe0ple dat they're cl0ser 2

yea dats ab0ut it..so basically,im the type of pers0n dat is only go0d 4 those "hi-bye" kinda frenz i guess? n0t really th0se deep sharing kind..i w0nder wads wr0ng wif me

anyway 2day c0z clc1 classes at jacobs place so met weiloong 2 g0 2gether c0z gt direct bus there,den like ar0und khatib there i think,he suddenly ask me whether i scared of insects..[duh yes i m & yes confirm it means there's a fly near me]
den of course i said yes and he was S0 KIND DAT HE T0LD ME DAT THERE WAS A FLY AT THE WIND0W BESIDE ME..ARGHHHHHH!!
stupid weiloong..i practically stiffened & stopped moving lor!! den he ask wanna change seats anot,i still say dun wan-.- wads wrong wif me man?! but anyway in the end changed place, after i laughed laughed laughed..heehee^^ & weiloong like t0ld every1 at lunch-.- so mean can

anyway~ yea so..i dunn0
im struggling wif scho0l work
im struggling like crazy
its like im in the water drowning & waving my hands frantically but n01 can help me till i st0p struggling c0z if n0t i'll juz hit them riite? [in the context of lifeguard saving a drowning man]
haix its really quite sad
its really making me down
its really affecting me
i cant catch up wif my classmates
i cant present well
i cant do anything well
no im really speaking in terms of in class,i really haf nothing 2 contribute,im like some kinda mute gal sitting there nodding & shaking my head
& it seems i've successfully made ppl n0t wanna talk 2 me..haix-.-


I NEED HELP!!