saw these from tumblr! and since i dun haf a tumblr so i'll put them on my blog. they're meaningful ah(:

both from here-->http://quotediary.me/

(:

randoms.

wanted 2 upload pics of bbq (clique and glenn's bdae, but anyway glenn's bdae ones haven upload on fb yet) BUTTT i dunno hw 2 save from fb. like irritating. i wanna save picture it save the page-.- so i gave up. HAHAHA!!

ANYWAY!! finally clique bbq!! (the one whr i blogged abt previously)

went after ushering and i walked past them wif0ut realising cuz i thought it was further. plus i was listening music. bt i saw afew people waving and den i looked carefully its siewping and kristy waving!! hahas so i went 0ver(:

people present:

me siewping kristy deanna yvonne zg dedrick sz and 5 of deanna's frenz. hahas cant rmb their names=x

ANYWAY! so had my random bbq and meetup wif frenz!! me loves(:

nothing much 2 talk abt except dat we bbq, random antics like deanna and yvonne falling 0utta an ntuc trolley, zg and i racing 2 de toilet and their frenz mistook us as deanna and her fren and ran away from us, and lying on the rocks(:

didnt drink much. and den off 2 home after dat. yvonne was super tired so she went home while sz and i went 2 zg house

and dats abt all. hahahahas

den glenn's bbq was at his house, his 21st bdae cele(: i've never been 2 his house before!!

hahas. my fav fyp teammate sia. favouritest!! i always tell people i'll never haf survived fyp wif0ut him!! haha!! i remember all 0ur crazy antics. and his coughing in the lab, eating in the lab and EVERYTHING!!

anyway! i was given directions 2 follow but i act smart ah. i saw a guy on the bus and immediately assumed "MUST BE GOING 2 GLENN'S HOUSE OSO" so when he alighted i oso alighted. AND THEN REALISED IT WAS WRONG CUZ THERE WAS NO SECONDARY SCHOOL!! oh-em-gee. HAHAHAHA!! and den eileen called and glenn took over and told me hw 2 get thr. HAHAHA kristy and her fren came 2 fetch me!!

and finally reached!! and 1st thing glenn said when he saw me was "WAD WERE YOU DOING?!" HAHAHAHA!! i act smart ma='(

but omg. how i missed him!! HAHAHAHA!! still as crappy as ever. den stuck 2 eileen (cuz i didnt noe many people thr, glenn invited fyp and ig. and im nt from their ig so dunno most of them)

and den eileen bbq so i juz stand ard look helpful. u'kno. hold 1 plate and pretend u're helping. HAHAHAHAHA!! didnt do much really.

den glenn gt pranked by his army mates. poor thing sia. whipped cream all over. and they pour super alot of alcohol into his drinks so when picture time his face was all red and eyes like bloodshot

soon after we oso left, but it was totally fun!! mayb cuz i didnt feel left 0ut at all(: refreshing change eh.

ANYWAY!! meeting up wif deanna eileen and mayb yvonne 2morrow!!(: siewping cannot cuz of work='( nexttime kays?=D

and 2 kumon kids (siblings) baked cookies 4 us for teachers day!!<3 awesomely delicious!!(: so sweet of them rite!! 2nd time eating them hahas!! cuz i started working thr on 21st aug last yr. means after i work AWHILE jiu teachers day and i gt 2 eat de cookies!! hahas=D and now this year 2nd time lor!!=D

sometimes i oso dunno wad i wan. i wan things 2 remain the same yet a part of me wishes things could change. but cuz i noe things wont change so i wan things 2 remain the same. bt now im getting pretty sensitive abt everything. thinking too much and everything.

its something i will regret 4 a long time, if not the rest of my life, because you are so important 2 me. are, and will always be.

please teach me how 2 cope with this.

watched cinderella these 2 days.

i REALLY LOVE GUS-GUS!! hahas. btw if u're wondering, he's de fat little mouse from cinderella!! so superly cute!! "OOH BEADS!!" and starts de awesomely cute laughter. HAHAHAHA!! i love dat scene. even tho i've watched it countless of times these 2days but it still makes me smile. which is important!!(: he's SOOOOOOOO blur and so cute!!!

at the end of de day i think i really love disney movies. the old ones. love their songs. all along i've always been a dreamer. like always waiting 4 my happily ever after. bt mayb its time 2 wake up. i dont wanna. but i guess i gotta. its kinda impossible 2 haf a fairytale ending. nt in the society now.

im an impatient girl; i dun wanna wait 4 the right one to come. but wad can i do if he juz doesnt?

not a naturally very optimistic girl. im cheerful and all and little things can make me happy and all (like icecream and old disney movies) but thr's always gonna b this hole in my heart which i carved 0ut 4 a happily ever after. but i guess things never go according 2 plan

and i noe, i noe, its so easy 2 say stuffs but so hard 2 apply.

ok nvm on a cheerier sidenote, went 0ut wif ruth and lianjie on thurs! ajisen and den island creamery!! like a finally!!<3 been saying abt island creamery since like BEFORE ruth and lianjie graduated. it was supposed 2 b a "graduation celebration" 4 them. now I'VE graduated and we finally went thr(:

awesomeness!! i ate cookies and cream and mango sherbet. lianjie ate cookies and cream and durian. ruth are reversO and durian. the durian is SO AWESOME!! but so's the cookies and cream and the mango sherbet!! moral of the story, next time buy 3 scoops la mel. SINFUL!!!!(: but icecream is MY LOVESSSSS!!

gotta exercise tho. hahas!! and its so nice 2 noe dat island creamery thr nearby gt bus back 2 yishun!! longbusridesarelove!! hahahahas=D

and i cant wait 4 bbq!! cuz i cant wait 4 drink!!(:

i kinda feel i needa find a new job soon. like REAL soon. cuz more and more i find my temper getting shorter and shorter. so mayb im nt cut 0ut 4 this kinda job?

saw on raymond's fb. so cute!!

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I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here, it's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath, it gets better)

I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back
To where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue

Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

finally gonna haf clique bbq!(: happy girl!!(: hahas=D

*how it all started*

from my previous blogpost, i said i wanted bbq. den siewping came 2 post on my wall and tagging others as well saying she wans too!!

den 2day went zg house 4 jogging cuz monday he pangseh me. HAHAHAHA!! (truth:his fren was going and i thought it'll b awkward so i chickened out for running on mon)

so reached and we both didnt feel like jogging-.- hahas

den i was doing the whole "i wan bbqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq" thing.

so we decided 2 start planning!!

we start planning =

me: i wan bbq...........

zg: hard leh. v hard 2 find date which alot of people can (or smt liddat la)

me: true..but i wan bbqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq

zg: ok which date sz say he cannot

me: dunno. bt i wan bbqqqqqqqqqqqq

*zg checks de fb msg and texts sz 2 ask*

me: cannot on weekday or sunday hor? jh and dedrick cannot. i wan bbqqqqqqqqqqqq

zg: sz says *insert dates which he might b free* (i 4gt which dates u see)

*zg suddenly gets up and goes over 2 his laptop*

i juz staree. HAHAHAHAH!! and continue niaming.

den he went 2 check available bbq pits, whr are they etc. and FINALLY!! he booked a bbq pit!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

ALTHOUGH its quite obvious zg did everything, but i'd like 2 stress dat WIFOUT my niaming it MIGHT NOT haf happened. thus i should b given credit too. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

went 2 pay 4 it at AXS machine and den lunched. mac-ed.

and den he made me paiseh and my whole face red. and he still dare tell me "wah 你的脸很红 leh!" thanks lorr. and who made me paiseh? i paiseh-ed alr he still juz stunned thr and laugh. make me more paiseh?!

den off 2 work after dat!!

2day work nt bad, cuz less kids. made afew blunders, did afew wrong things, but at the end of de day still fun(: fav small kid never come=(

invisible barrier.

time 2 go write in my diary.

there are some things i cant tell you.

blogpost 700!! omg.

anyway, i wan bbq.

dont feel like staying anymore. really feel like leaving. something my mum said yesterday sparked off thoughts of u. and i miss you so. why did u hafta leave? u'd be 22 this year rite?

really gt me thinking. how i heard from others dat u DID turn 2 people 4 help. but they didnt? i dunno? did they take you seriously? did they bother 2 show dat they cared? DID they care?

u were always so cheerful, mayb dats why people never took it seriously? i was never really close 2 u but u were always such a joy 2 be wif. whenever in group settings u'd get bullied and amazingly u never gt angry. u'll juz smile, take the jokes in ur stride and play along. remember dat video of us all laughing, u included. dat video never fails 2 make me tear.

i'd heard before dat u were often quite insecure, but never thought much of it cuz i gt along okay wif u. how i wished i tried 2 get 2 noe u better. u might still be wif us?

i miss you so. why did you haf 2 do dat?? if oni you stayed. was it school related? or was it a buildup of everything, including this community we shared?

good mood 2day!(: okay kinda la. gt gd gt bad

early morning i woke up when the sun wasnt up yet and i gt all worried cuz i thought i overslept (i gt work). raise my head 2 look and de surroundings is like still darkdark 1=D means still can go back 2 slp!! and gd news is dat it isnt those *dozing off~~~ RINGGGG!!* ok never will haf a RINGGG! cuz my mummy is my alarm clock. hahahahas=D ANYWAY! de thing is dat i gt 2 enjoy more sleep!(:

den woke up and went 2 weewee. and brush teeth. and eat my waffle(: i dunno why when i say eat my waffle i get a mental picture of a fat little hamster nomming on a tiny piece of waffle. ANYWAY!! oni managed 2 eat finish half cuz my stomach was feeling blah=(

told my mummy, and made a sad face at her. den she follow me make sad face and den she patpat my head!! LOVELOVE!! hahahahahas(: i love people patting/ruffling my hair!! hahahahahahas. like sayang-ing me liddat<3 hahahahahas

so den went off 2 bathe and prepare. reached work, and its mx and jessica's last day!! dun like them=( pangseh me onii=( hahas i niam like nobody's business!!

den off 2 lg!! i noe it was not nice of me, bt i dun care much anymore. i dun wanna care hw people see/judge me (not doing well)

basically after work i went 2 lg which was at longjohns. i dun care if i say things 0ut here, cuz obviously its VERILY OBVIOUS dat im not gonna go lg anymore? ok if it wasnt obvious, de previous sentence made it obvious.

1st thing i realised, there is no space left 4 me. its exactly 8seater and im de ninth. ok nvm so i sit. didnt eat cuz my stomach tells me no fried food cuz its feeling blah. den after dat during all de chatting i was feeling so awkward i kept locking and unlocking my phone juz so i'll haf something 2 do

den after dat sarah was done and she msged me so i used an excuse 2 go toilet. they were starting 2 do the "write ur name on the paper and pass it ard 2 write encouragements for others" thing. initially they say ut. i say i gt no ut and kept the paper. den they said general encouragements can oso and tried 2 make me stop keeping it but i kept it and escaped 2 de toilet. actually 2 find sarah.

den discussed wif sarah hw i really wanted 2 leave and she suggested me taking my bag and saying i meet fren since its true. so i did dat. and stunned every1. nt a very nice thing 2 do, but im freaking selfish ok? i juz walked out wifout a second glance.

den ate prawn mee wif sarah cuz i was hungry bt my stomach was rejecting fried and oily food. so ate and purposely went late 2 svc cuz i didnt wanna sit wif de grp. so sat behind wif sarah, cheryl etc. cuz cheryl oso late. so all sat 2gether.

den i didnt wanna join my grp 4 dinner either so i asked sarah and sarah asked ruth! so become sarah ruth and i dinner. and we dinnered at xinwang!!(: happy cuz i finally gt 2 spend time wif them. long time never see them(: ok la. actually nt. juz dat its spending time wif people i love u'kno?

den backie home!! mummy come 2 de busstop 2 fetch me!! heehee(:

AND THEN went swimming on friday!! im so tanned now im SO HAPPY!!!(:

stupid zg check in and write at least 20laps. in de end we oni swam 7!! i noe i noe, its kinda cui but nvm i jogged de day before (equally cui. 3.6km in 35mins-.-)

BUT ITS OK!! and den after swimming we kfc-ed-.- all de 7laps gone down de drain. den off 2 work. these 2days work really kinda chiong cuz of holidays, no work so they had a week's worth of hw='( survived(: bt MX AND JESSICA LEFT!! hmpf

OK BYE!

while at dinner 2day, randomly started on the topic (which i regularly think of) of "when i am married and haf kids"

me: I NOE!! next time when i haf kids i'll stay nearby or same few blocks so i can do the whole *face lights up* LETS GO DOWNSTAIRS TO AHMA HOUSE FOR DINNER!! (hahas cuz i cant cook)

sis: OH THEN U CAN ALSO DO THE LETS GO JOGGING DEN GO AHMA HOUSE BATHE AND THEN EAT DINNER!! waste their water!!

me: yea.. i heard from my fren (eileen) who is studying in early childhood dat u should bring ur kids 0ut at least twice....so....LUNCH AND DINNER LA?! HAHAHAHAHA!!

sis: and saturday let them STAYOVER LA? den sunday ALL 3 FULL MEALS at ahma house. den at nite den bring them home cuz next day gt school!!

me: YA and if my husband's parents can cook EVEN BETTER!! alternate!!

HAHAHAHA ok seriously, im such a cheapo and so auntie!! hahas. ok la. wad i SHOULD do is learn how 2 cook. but i scared of fire leh?

HAHA told my mummy and she laugh till her eyes are 2 lines. HAHAHAHA!!

where has the happy girl gone to? where is the happy girl?

i hate it. cuz i love you.

feeling kinda pekchek abt ushering. more and more each time. seriously sia. this time round we served 3 consecutive days. cuz hope conference its both teams. bt before dat oso 0ur team wad!! ok. i'll stop ranting now.

rant abt similar bt nt de same thing. like seriously la. PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE REPLY ME WHEN I TEXTED YOU!! its so late alr. dun tell me u haven see. its been at least 2hrs? and wad can u do at this time sia. dun tell me work or wadevernots la hor. & dun tell me u sleep at 930pm?? seriously.

and i dunno whether the number of wrong anot 4 de leader. de leader oso never reply. PEKCHEK SIA.

why issit always liddat. when i wanted roles/responsibility they never ever gimme. den when im nt doing well and dun wan, they heap loadsa stuffs on me. (ok la actually really nt alot. but im ranting wad!)

but hope conference i really didnt serve much. i dunno. i juz gt so intimidated by every1 rushing in and everything. owells. its overr. and i was so tired cuz i didnt get much sleep so i slept through0ut all the teachings etc. oni during the start and end needa usher dat time den i usher. otherwise u can find me at the seats behind sleeping. HAHA. & drooling. I DROOLED!! too tired la. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

ok. in essence im pekchek over people who dun reply when it's urgent. OK. bye. and im feeling so super blah=(

rawr!!

it means iloveyou in dinosaur(: HAHAHAHAHA!! i think its so cute!! imagine next time my future bf tell me "rawr!!" HAHAHAHAHA!! sweet max uh? HAHAHAHA

(i found this 0ut thru mlia. HAHAHA mlia rocks!!(:)