just when i thought things were getting better. then i realised i never got any better. just the mere mention of you sparks all thoughts. talks of going overseas sparks thoughts of you too. everything reminds me of you.

yet i somehow now have the contentment of being single. being single has its perks. i can randomly go out with friends, no worries at all. just like nowadays when we go malaysia suddenly!! twice already(: with pam tony hakam. its fun! being single is fun. except the only thing is i still have the nagging feeling that being attached to you sounds better. far far better.

but then again!! then i wouldn't get to meetup with my beloveds RANDOMLY. seriously random. friday suddenly pam called (last friday) ask wanna go malaysia, go home take passport and lets go! so after work rushed home to take passport, explain things to my mum and it was off!! amazing. i have an amazing mum who lets me do things as i wish. its nice to have parents who allow 'cuz they know i'll have fun, they know i'll enjoy. and they know i'll regret if i can't.

its awesome to have such random friends too! tues even better. actually was newton circus with pam. in the end? malaysia again with de 3 of them(: mum nagged at me 'cuz she worried.

but i realised. im only gonna be young once. infact im not even very young anymore! 21 this year. i wanna enjoy while im still relatively young.

overseas study. i super want! it's my last chance at studying. i don't wanna do it in singapore. i've done it for what? 13yrs? gimme a change! and lemme go with my bestie. hahas. loove her.

and i only ever think of having fun. everything also must be linked to fun! sometimes i wonder whether i'll ever grow up. i'm still immature. immature in love, in work-related/grownup related stuffs. still not good at talking to people i meet. i'll clam up and retreat to a safe corner.

still love disney and swings.

maybe i'll never fall in love. its not hard to think that way 'cuz i shy away from people quite easily. and i spook and run away quickly. it needs soooooooo much time and effort to know someone before im comfortable with them. its so difficult eh. thus my backup plan: adopt a child, buy a dog and live happily ever after with my bestie. unless she gets married and no longer is in favour of living with me. which then i'll live sadly ever after. HAHAHAHAHA!!

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