its my 2nd last day of school!

kinda happy u'kno. like omg. FINALLYYYYY!!

& deanna, eileen and i had this super duper random convo on msn talking about bintan. cuz we really wanted 2 go overseas. (rmb afew posts b4? i wanna go places wif water.)

anyway. IM EXCITED!! i cant WAAAAAAAIT for grad trip!!♥

& i've been randomly thinking. like REALLY. wad do i wanna do in the future? ask me and i'll seriously draw a blank. on a sidenote; i gotta faster apply 4 uni. b4 de application or wadnot thing closes!! sorta kinda scared tho. i dunno wad 2 expect. do i really want this? or issit society dat's dictating that i needa go uni?

cuz; back 2 same old question: what do i REALLY wanna do in the future?

beats me. i enjoy studying things related 2 genomics etc. like i enjoyed modules like mcb; genetics; genomics; rdna.

but i enjoyed psychology too!

kinda makes me wonder wad i'll ever do in the future. u'kno. its hazy. its like i can see the path only like 3 steps ahead. de rest is swallowed up by the haze.

but its alrite(:

cuz i noe ultimately wad i wan is a job dat i'll enjoy=D

i used 2 think dat 1.2k is alotta money. apparently it isnt! & when im older & hafta like takecare of my parents etc, 1.2k really isnt gonna sustain everyone. tho of cuz i've gt my smart sis!!(:

but dats not the point! the point is dat i wan a job i can enjoy

& recently i've been thinking about wad i wanna do when i grow up. i wanna be either a police (kinda impossible), or a dolphin trainer.

i wonder how much they earn tho. but its kinda ok 2 me cuz i get 2 like spend time wif dolphins (!!!!!) AND get tan at the same time. or mayb nt huh? mayb they gotta wear the like suit kinda swimsuit. omg. i'll cry man.

ok anyway. 2 conclude; i got some goals 4 this coming hols. whether im gonna work fulltime or gonna study uni, i still wanna do some stuffs in the hols. if im gonna work im gonna take time off 2 do stuffs i wanna do. cuz once i work i wont haf the time?

things up:

-party at gerald's house!! omg. i dun care how many "not-close" people thr are gonna b thr ok. i wanna go. hahas

-get a lifeguard cert (and bug lianjie 2 coach me or smt)

-get bike license (at least take rtt?)

-learn french!! (this is gonna be real tough, especially wif parttime work at kumon.)

-go somewhr relaxing. (think phuket;bintan;batam;SAIPAN ISLAND;乌镇. goodness. even east coast will do actually. but of cuz nothing beats the feeling of not being tied down by anything "singapore". hahahaha!! seriously! dats why i really like going overseas. its like u leave all ur troubles and worries back at home. so when u go over u're like so free!!♥)

anyway; 1 more problem statement; 3 more uts and im free!(:

and i noe wads my fyp grade alr. its a B. should i b happy? should i b sad?

actually i kinda sad la. tho im glad cuz i heard fyp2 is harder, but yet at the same time i cant help but think dat i did put in more effort this time.

i felt dat my report was better-done than previously lehs. owells. wads done is done and cannot be undone.

but lemme wallow in misery 4 awhile ok?

im doing the "pity-me" thing. 2 myself.

(:

u can never truly take out your mask.

blogpost no 601
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i dun understand how come juz cuz it doesnt seem 2 matter 2 YOU doesnt mean it wont matter 2 ME.
u'kno. im like. weird. ok? im different and not in a good way.
i stress over stupid stuffs like modules and daily grades all the time. i get mad easily when i dun get the grades i want and i cry easily when dat happens.


BUT STILL. sometimes i dun understand how come when im going all mad about something dat IM worried about; there are people who have different worries etc from ME, and they immediately toss it aside and tell me "its ok 1 la" etc. flipping it off nonchalantly.

owells.

& THEY ALL PARTIALLED!! sobs=(




owell. been having some weird feelings recently.
(:

read this on MLIA. totally feel like trying it

"Today, i told my guy friend that i could possibly be pregnant with his child. The fact that we had never had sexual relations has apparently not crossed his mind, and he's still freaking out. Most Gullible? I think so. MLIA. "


HAHAHAHA!! like omg. who can i try it on sia!! HAHA!! bt after blogging it up, i dunno who read & who dun read my blog. so ya. toughh. HAHAHA!!

bt seriously. SO CUTEEEEEEEE!!


& im currently copying notes etc.
& my sis had cravin 4 sweet things. so she gt me half a packet of crysanthemum tea and i got choc 4 myself & 4 her. awesome max!!(:

i like it when people im close 2 call me mel.♥

got a lil pissed by something 2day.
1st; i put on fb saying stomachache etc. a fren who saw i partialled commented on it.

den started talkin abt modules etc wad-nots.
& i was saying mayb he gotta take more mods cuz attachment etc. still needa meet de min 30 mods requirement wad.
& den he claimed dat "i also last time take 5 modules.. no difference. well maybe SOH wants us to study more and become wiser than all the others in RP?"

& i totally went wth at his comment. 2 myself of cuz. im a nice girl.

anyway. i dunno wad is his problem. if u wanna show off dat u had attachment AND taking 5day week; lemme tell u.
i oso had attachment; EVEN if it was short. but seriously i loved it. i dun mind workin thr 1 sem!! hahas!! seriously lovess. especially site visits!! looks 4ward 2 it everyweek. plus i dun mind if I had 2 go ard sampling etc. juz dun coop me up in an office EVERYDAY. a nice blend ok? 1 week at least 2 site visits. i'll b a happy content girl(:

anyway. i digress.

the main thing is. i took 31mods anyway. more then the normal 30mods. (tho of cuz it was a MISTAKE and i didnt MEAN 2 take 31mods. why take 31mods when it might pull u down?)

& he's thr saying dat he took more mods den other schools in RP. totally wthhhh. ok nvm.

sometimes i think its quite sad. people classify us under wad school we are from.
sas? nerdss. (i dun like being called a nerd bt i dun deny im nerdy. bt not every sas-er is!)
shl? sporty. probably in those very hiong sports like dragonboat etc.
sit? computer genius. noes EVERYTHING abt computers.

i cant think of any more descriptions for the rest ok. but my point is clear.
does it mean sas cant haf dragonboat-ers?
isnt it unfair?
owells. thinkaloud nia(:

i TOTALLY wanna go saipan island ok.

as i said:
places i wanna go:
-phuket
-batam
-saipan island
-china; wuzhen
-taiwan

& 0utta these 5 places, 4 are like those relaxrelax places; WIF WATER. yea. totally. im a firesign (saggitarius) but i love water.
juz like how i love swimming. ironic tho. i would never wanna die in water.

ok nevermind. anyway! i really wanna go saipan island=( ever since i watched dreamteam season2 saipan island yesterday.
=(




btw; partialled 2day. i was planning 2 do rj etc. bt it isnt open 4 me. i guess faci dun even wan me 2 try 2 do rj etc.

anyway! i was really having a slight headache and stomachache leh. bt owells. thr's a secret thrill when u partial(:

and oso; siewping zg and i watched green hornet!! & i enjoyed it max!!(:

& after de movie zg was like saying my laughter really like..i dunno. i dun rmb wad he said. bt i really laughed out loud in the movies. HAHAHAHA!! i enjoyed it wad!! & i laughed the loudest and the longest as well. omg.



& random no 3!
i told my sis: zomg. ok. im gonna add a z infront of everything i say. like zjie's. (jie's)

den she showed me whr something was.
me: vokay. eh? should b a z. should be zokay.

& den i sian diao-ed by myself. ok. being random here. HAHAHAHA!!



reunion dinner 2morrow=( while my clique has dinner. kinda sad actually=( wished i could b thr.