its my 2nd last day of school!

kinda happy u'kno. like omg. FINALLYYYYY!!

& deanna, eileen and i had this super duper random convo on msn talking about bintan. cuz we really wanted 2 go overseas. (rmb afew posts b4? i wanna go places wif water.)

anyway. IM EXCITED!! i cant WAAAAAAAIT for grad trip!!♥

& i've been randomly thinking. like REALLY. wad do i wanna do in the future? ask me and i'll seriously draw a blank. on a sidenote; i gotta faster apply 4 uni. b4 de application or wadnot thing closes!! sorta kinda scared tho. i dunno wad 2 expect. do i really want this? or issit society dat's dictating that i needa go uni?

cuz; back 2 same old question: what do i REALLY wanna do in the future?

beats me. i enjoy studying things related 2 genomics etc. like i enjoyed modules like mcb; genetics; genomics; rdna.

but i enjoyed psychology too!

kinda makes me wonder wad i'll ever do in the future. u'kno. its hazy. its like i can see the path only like 3 steps ahead. de rest is swallowed up by the haze.

but its alrite(:

cuz i noe ultimately wad i wan is a job dat i'll enjoy=D

i used 2 think dat 1.2k is alotta money. apparently it isnt! & when im older & hafta like takecare of my parents etc, 1.2k really isnt gonna sustain everyone. tho of cuz i've gt my smart sis!!(:

but dats not the point! the point is dat i wan a job i can enjoy

& recently i've been thinking about wad i wanna do when i grow up. i wanna be either a police (kinda impossible), or a dolphin trainer.

i wonder how much they earn tho. but its kinda ok 2 me cuz i get 2 like spend time wif dolphins (!!!!!) AND get tan at the same time. or mayb nt huh? mayb they gotta wear the like suit kinda swimsuit. omg. i'll cry man.

ok anyway. 2 conclude; i got some goals 4 this coming hols. whether im gonna work fulltime or gonna study uni, i still wanna do some stuffs in the hols. if im gonna work im gonna take time off 2 do stuffs i wanna do. cuz once i work i wont haf the time?

things up:

-party at gerald's house!! omg. i dun care how many "not-close" people thr are gonna b thr ok. i wanna go. hahas

-get a lifeguard cert (and bug lianjie 2 coach me or smt)

-get bike license (at least take rtt?)

-learn french!! (this is gonna be real tough, especially wif parttime work at kumon.)

-go somewhr relaxing. (think phuket;bintan;batam;SAIPAN ISLAND;乌镇. goodness. even east coast will do actually. but of cuz nothing beats the feeling of not being tied down by anything "singapore". hahahaha!! seriously! dats why i really like going overseas. its like u leave all ur troubles and worries back at home. so when u go over u're like so free!!♥)

anyway; 1 more problem statement; 3 more uts and im free!(:

and i noe wads my fyp grade alr. its a B. should i b happy? should i b sad?

actually i kinda sad la. tho im glad cuz i heard fyp2 is harder, but yet at the same time i cant help but think dat i did put in more effort this time.

i felt dat my report was better-done than previously lehs. owells. wads done is done and cannot be undone.

but lemme wallow in misery 4 awhile ok?

im doing the "pity-me" thing. 2 myself.

(:

u can never truly take out your mask.