looking through old blogposts; and a ppt dat my church group made for me for my 18th birthday.

reading them all (the well wishes and the blogspots) really make me sad. i used 2 be so much more cheerful and happy and nonsensical.

its like ever since i graduated the happiness and joy all leaves as well. everyone is rushing and trying 2 grow up, and telling me 2grow up as well. its tough, having 2 always haf 2 suck it up cuz people dont appreciate the fact dat i love my low paying job. the fact dat i am happy at my job cuz of my colleagues and the cute kids who randomly might say stuff 2 cheer up your WHOLE day. its like when a child comes and finds YOU  when they need help; dats the most rewarding time. when they're lost or dont know how 2 do and come up 2 u and say "but i cannot",its like meltssss.

but at the same time my life juz seems so sad. no JOYS in my life. i dont feel as happy as previously. granted,i STILL do haf happy moments, but my life is so BLANK now. i dont even have things 2 update and when i do its all negative stuffs.

frenz being upset wif you becuz u're not mature enough; frenz asking you 2 grow up.



i miss the cheerful joyful me. where did i go wrong?