i think its amazing how we can be so good at wearing masks.

juz saw the pics candace tagged on fb. the cycling 1. it sorta amazed me how i seemed 2 b smiling so cheerfully, when its hurting so bad inside.



if it hurts so much; is it worth it?
but then again, i told myself once, i'll never gif up this frenship.
so how?

sidenote:thanks all(: i really appreciate(:
bt its v tough and trickyy.

dont know why i juz felt like crying when i saw something on fb.
haha. owells.
seriously. yup. it hurts so much.


& i've been having some weird 'cravings' recently. cravings which haf got nothin 2 do wif food, which is rare.

as i was sharing 2 zoey (randomly) 2day; i haf this longing 2 b picked up at work wif a bike!! ok seiously random, but i really loved the bike experience!! missing it till now. like seriously.
but its okay(: i crave, but i noe its unattainable
(:
its alrighttt(:

& i 4gt my another craving. but its alrite, cuz i haf no mood 2 write anything now anyway. everythin is juz fake smiles anyway
(:


sidenote:happy 4months(:
..
wif work.






On the fifth day of Christmas,
My true love gave to me:
FIVE GOLDEN RINGS!
Four calling birds,
Three french hens,
Two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.

i've been thinkin 4 quite some time about my current parttime job.
sure, they've raised my pay (by very little, but a raise IS a raise); but something that happened juz makes me wonder..

owells. see how la ah?(:

anyway, this hols isn't really relaxing, 2 say de least. but at least after christmas i'll b a little free-er!!♥

hahas. but going KL on 29-31dec.
wif:
-jasper&cherilyn
-SP&mastura

and den de non-coupled people are~~
-deanna
-zg
-kisty

hahas=D
obviously de 2 couples are gonna link room while de 4 of us link room. & everything's already planned out. dat de 3 gals wake up earlier (tough 4 me) specially 2 brush teeth beside zg's ears cuz he hates the sound of brushing teeth.

according 2 him he himsself brush its diff (quite true cuz of de vibrations, juz like our voices are different from wad we ourselves hear)

anyway. im sorta kinda sad about KL tho. cuz i would haf preferred it wif there were siewping,sz etc!! bt siewping cant=(



& its so random. bt i keep thinking about my sec3 kl tip recently. thinking about it like mad. mayb its not the TRIP.
hahas. okay. its juz dat i miss some1. bt ok la. juz miss oni.





OK ANYWAY! 2day after work zoey & i actually went "exploring" chongpang. cuz kumon moving; and i had not a single clue whr de new place was gonna b.
so we decided 2 explore (and oso buy de delicious waffle nearby as well)

so we went exploring. HAHA!! was fun!! i love my colleagues♥
hopes my fav colleague doesn't quitt!! if she does i'll b like so sad=(

& kumon gonna haf seperate rooms or smt, i heard. different rooms diff subjects, abit sad sia. den wont get 2 see kids from othe subjects who i love as well. HAHA!! like my fav kid's BROTHER!

he super nice 1 la. always smiling & all. charming(:
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!



okay anyway, i haven written a single card.
OH NO.

After some time I’ve finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I’m searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I’m sorry ’bout the things I’ve done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s crying while she’s saying this

Chorus:
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I’m sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I’m going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
Friends

Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s cried while she’s saying this

Chorus

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

I can still hear what she said






love this song(:
& i stunned sarah by randomly typing de chorus 0ut 2 her, in caps. HAHAHAHA!!

juz getting a tad bit tired of everything.
tired of studying, studying things i dont wanna learn.

i wanna learn bio-related stuffs!!
like mcb;genetics;genomics etc.

please. dont make me learn stuff i dont wanna learn.



on a lighter sidenote; at least im signing up for sundown 21km♥




&! happy bdae ma!♥

thinkaloud:


what's the point of having such a cute face, of having such a cute smile; if at the end of the day, your attitude is crap?


like hello. sometimes i really feel like yelling at you, or showing VERY obviously my displeasure.
when i say it's wrong, IT'S WRONG. okay?! you think i'm dumb or something? hello. im how many years older than you? age is not the determining factor though. i'm working as a teaching assistant. don't you think i'll know what the hell 5x10 is? you keep giving me wrong answers and insisting with your irritatingly horrible attitude that you're correct and IM WRONG. o wow. so know you're the freaking teaching while i'm some freaking retard?

wth. it's not even the 1st time your horrible attitude was displayed to me.
how about the time you said i was your maid?
your attitude really needs some major change, asshole.

i think it's quite safe to say that noone here actually LIKES you. they might be neutral with you. that's probably 'cuz they don't know you well. once they take you, i think they'll dislike you as much as i do.


all in all, i hate it when you come. because i hate you.
so what if you're cute? you're JUST A PRETTY FACE. your inside is so ugly.




& on another note, i fail to see the reason to stay, other than some kids and my colleagues. seriously.
but, is it a good enough reason? colleagues are. but what if? what if they quit?

alot of things i feel like doing recently.

feel like going swimming
feel like going jogging
feel like giving up on my nus/ntu dream cuz its almost impossible



& on a random sidenote; i randomly thought of u.