Mummy.. if not for you.. i might really.

I dont wanna lie. I dont wanna have to lie to someone i love so much.

But seriously? Sometimes it's easier to nt tell you. But end of the day i still tell you. Yet u accuse me that I dont share stuff with you.

I do.

And also, do ou know how much courage is needed to share stuff with you?

I really wan my other half to support things i do and love..

Again been eons since i last blogged.

No time, no mood. Nothing.

Seems like everytime i think to myself "wah quite long never quarrel already, that's good."EVERY SINGLE TIME, within that week, we will have a quarrel.

Guess my mouth very 'ling'. Just thought it recently, like wednesday?
I know it always happens. In fact when i thought it i was already like shit. another storm brewing then.

But i cant help it. I cant help thinking. It just pops out suddenly and its just like shit. I just thought it. It's gonna happen. Another quarrel is gonna come..

So yea..

Really feel like crying. Why am i so weak. Why?


On a sidenote, watched Inside Out today. Cried twice. Not sure if because was already down to start with or would have cried anyway.

On the way home felt like crying too..

What is this.. why is a relationship so painful..



Why am nothing that i wasna be and everything sucky. Why am i such a failure..