when you've really tried your very best; but its still not good enough.

recently realised i've changed so much. to the extent i think i dont recognise myself much anymore. granted, i've always been grumpy, but recently i've been REALLY grumpy and very easily somemore.

i really dunno what to do. when i think back how i used 2 be cheerful and happy-go-lucky i get kinda sad. now im always grumpy and face blackblack one. i dont know how 2 be my"oldself"again.

sidenote,realised dat when im pms-ing or on my period i get SUUUPER cranky. raised my voice at quite afew students 2day. ah.

another sidenote,chalet for my bdae booked! gonna celebrate it on the 1st of dec.

event on fb not yet created cuz im sooooooooo lazy. =x

another random mummy moment:

mum sitting cross legged on the mattress(she's sleeping with me this week) and rocking herself like a small kid

me: mummy 你在做什么?
mum: *thinks awhile* ...发呆.

then she proceeds to lie down on the mattress, facing my super messy bookshelf

mum: WAH! 这么乱ah?!
me: all along 都这么乱的whatt.
mum: aiyo. 等一下晚上掉下来 pingpingpongpong ah.
me: PINGPINGPONGPONG?!

she and her random noises 2 describe stuff.
her way of describing washing machine is"ging gong ging gong!"

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 
-Marilyn Monroe

REALLLYYYYY REALLLLYYYY REALLLYYYYYYYYYYYY feel like swimming but dont wanna swim alone. and prefer to swim in the day cuz i can get tanned. im problematic.

don't know what to think anymore.

random mummy moments

my mum,my sis and i sitting in the living room watching tv.
mum sitting on the bed in the living room which we use as a sofa since its a waste 2 throw the bed away, when a beetle drop from the ceiling and into the small space between the wall and the bed

shocked my mummy and she scolded the beetle which was upside down. then my mummy continue staring at it and telling us EVERYTHING. like it's upside down, then OH it managed 2 get on its feet. cannot walk infront gt spider web. then OH didnt noe inside gt so many spider web,muz clean. den after dat she decided 2 get a container 2 kope it so it wont anyhow fly(and scare her again or scare us)

after she got a container she went 2 look at it AGAIN and she ASKED IT "你要去哪里啊?" -.-
HAHAHAHA. aft she kope it she was like AHH! 成功!!

my nonsensical little mummy.

another time she was flipping through this random magazine which is in ENGLISH. and my mum is terrible at english.

me: mummy 你在做什么?
mum: 我在看这个 magazine lor!
me: 这个是 in english leh.
mum: yalor! 我真的在看.我看 picture ma!
me: *speechless*